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Distant Light "Socialite & Spiritual Monk"
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Distant Light

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FR: WTF!?!?!? Lots of work to do
I feel as if I'm wasting my time...
-  Daytime was 100% wasteful didn't do shit
-  Nighttime was 80% wasteful didn't do shit

I bumped into this black natural guy who I met a few times due to me trying to take his girls. We started chatting which was interesting since he was explaining his game to me. Basically he has a criteria of "What am I going to do with this girl" and if she doesn't add any value to how he lives he just deletes there number because its a waste. He said most chicks he has "Text for sex" style and only hotties he goes on dates with. He also invites women out to hang with him which is cool. He didn't stick around long as he headed off to support his friend for his bday.

Meanwhile I'm like in a meditative state telling myself to just stop all this nightlife stuff and just pack it all up. All my problems are internal as today the natural black dude was commenting on how he loves my sorta "Classic" look. I already get tons of compliments of people just saying I'm cool as shit and fucking fun BUT internally I'm still fucked. Proof is in the pudding...

Chick I banged before shows up an that basically turns to shit rather quickly as she keeps saying were not hooking up tonight, I can't really hear her an I think she said she wants to hookup on monday. At this point I don't give two fucks an when she bumps into some random guy I just turn around and walk in another direction. That guy ends up pulling her...

Most of the night I was chilled out, the one time I start buggin out two chicks approach me and one is grinding HARD ass is all over me. I go to #close the friend which the one who had her ass all over me interrupts saying "He should take my number". We talk about meeting back up since I had to go find chick I banged already and she needed to go elsewhere. I also numberclose this french chick who was doing everything I was doing.

Mix/Progressive tells me I should stop posting but I've been getting lots of PMs from people who said my writings have helped them. Main reason I kinda don't want to post anymore is because then I could truly just cut off all community beliefs. I state this because I honestly don't care about getting laid anymore, I don't care about socializing and I don't care about any of that stuff. You can say I fucked up again on the whole pull since all I had to do was stick around with the chick I already banged. The whole dynamics was interesting since her friend LOVED ME an I think ex bang was saying "No" as in "Whatever you do don't bang her too". This chick knew my name an was talking about how awesome I am, I don't even know who she is other than ex bang friend so yea.

I think the main thing is that my way of being is very different than the norm and so I am hesistant to just be. My ideal life is to socialize and have my own type of fun 24/7 without care. When I'm truly being that way everything is great BUT more times than not I'm thinking about wants/needs and constantly stating "Why am I wasting time?"

The worst thing of all is that I can't just quit, I'd love to do that. Only thing in my way is my own mind...

P.S...Ex bang chick kept saying shit like she likes me, I remind her of her ex bf that she broke up with a few months back and that she feels like she's known everything about me. Yea WTF, this chick is strictly "text for sex", at this point I don't want anything to do with her.
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Distant Light

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FR: The Depth Of Distant Light

This is probably the most raw and uncut post in a long time...

I had wrote out a positive "Progress Report" which never got posted, yesterday I get a message from mix that my phone is off, FUCK. I hit rockbottom, I was about to throw it all away and just end the train ride because all this is a reflection of my incompetence and laziness. I have ZERO INTEREST in trying to survive because what's the point of living if your not LIVING? In my mind it's just prolonging an inevitable death. However, author of MBT always have words of wisdom that makes me stop to think...

Quote:
Suicide is considered an experience packet failure if you prematurely (much growth opportunity is still left on the table) end a viable experience packet because you got so twisted up with belief traps and ego that you fail to be aware of or engage any of the usually abundant growth opportunities. Failing to complete your mission by failure of intent quality may cause those who help design and plan your missions to wonder if perhaps you are not ready (sufficiently evolved) to take on a challenging humanoid role in PMR.


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In this case, at the being level, the person has dug themselves into a hole they must climb out of because of their unproductive choices (from a big picture perspective). Failing to sufficiently capitalize on, or optimize, the opportunities that were well within their grasp, they instead followed their fear and ego to an unenlightened dysfunctional end (again, from a big picture perspective).


FUCK THAT!!!!!
My latest progress report was mainly talking about going BACK TO THE ROOTS where I went out for the sake of fun. At this moment, I got back on the horse an figured "Ok, what is currently in my decision space?" and then I realized nothing is stopping me from going out an continuing to spread THE MOVEMENT of memorable experience. So I message mix an tell him I'm coming out no cell phone, fuck it. My only intention was to go out for the sake of fun, nothing else...

This was a very interesting night because before I even enter the club a chick approaches me on the street, I start chatting screening to see if I'd walk them in. When inside I get approached by another chick who is smiling at me and then another chick. It's funny how I entered the venue and EVERYONE was looking at me. There was no hidden agenda or influence of beliefs, fear or ego because all I was focused on was "Fun". I bump into an old community friend and start acting stupid, a few chicks are looking and smiling cause they see I'm having fun. Women LOVE WATCHING ME just be...

All of a sudden this hottie pops up infront of me and starts chatting me...

The friend is nice too, looks abit russian with the sexy messy blond hair, turns out MIX KNOWS this hottie who turns out to be some go go dancer. Anyone who knows me will know my ideal type physically are tall high fashion or glamour type of model-like go go dancers. Example of my ideal type would be chick in middle...



I like this chick, I also like her friend BUT I'm not chasing any of them especially since I have truly given up on everything. I flirt with go go dancer chick HARDCORE but also play with english-russian hair. I don't pursue at all an end up chillin alone going craz after speaking with english-russian abit. This is a blur since I was having a blast but somehow  a 5th chick approaches me an ends up taking pictures. Also met these other medicore chicks who were hovering around me which I had a memorable experience with later in the night as "One" by swedish house mafia played.

Go Go dancer was in like flynn BUT it makes no sense to take # since I found out mix knows her, so instead I flirt again since she keeps coming back. She basically told her friend she can go, she's staying with me. An what begins is the most provocative "Mating Dance" I've had in a long time, mix recorded abit. Were talking about me holding her leg, clit stimulation, grabbing her sexy thong, kissing her neck, less than an inch from her lips, etc. I go cold again later on, mix then mentions he's going to attempt a 3some for the 3rd time in less than a week hahaha. Basically mix was going to try an pull this cute black chick who is grinding on go go dancer and go go dancer. He wants me to take the english-russian friend...

I'm cool with this, I'm also cool with switching off to black chicks friend. Abit of background, black chick was mentioning how she remembers me from 2 months ago fooling around with her best friend. One of mix's bottle clients likes black chick's friend SO I pull back from her an let him chase her which he eventually gets a kiss after persisting hardcore. While all this was going on there was this nice russian chick with 5-6 guys watching me the WHOLE NIGHT, it was funny to see her looking at me all night as I subtly flirt with her. Eventually I just blow kisses at her and have fun with the guy's, I can see her smiling while one of the guys is rubbing her ass.

Back to the whole group orgy, I'm now with mix at the table with russian-english, go go dancer, and black chick. Black chick is straddling go go dancer while mix is between them. Meanwhile, I'm standing on sofa with russian-english having a BLAST. Black chick and go go dancer is making out, mix is chillin and ALL OF A SUDDEN like 3-4 guys come out of no where pulling out cameras and taking pictures. This is freaking out go go dancer because...

SHE IS NOT DRUNK AT ALL

She didn't drink any alcohol, we were all in our fun bubble and this creepy dude was just taking pictures which she got "Locked Up" and basically got black chick off her, went to the guy , said something and then all of a sudden went to russian-english saying "Where out of here". I speak to her an end up kissing her and then right before she leaves we start making out abit. I ended up taking both her and her friend's facebook since mix already has her number.

At this point things become a blur as I remember being on a sofa with 2 chicks, guy gives me a triple shot. I'm going crazy, some fat chick is dancing infront of me and I start flirting with her for fun. By this time mix is gone, I'm watching black chick's high heels and for some reason I'm flirting with black chick's other friend who has a big ass. Mix's bottle clients are making out with 2 asians each, and black chick along with her friend is making out with the rest of the bottle client group.

While searching for coats I CAN NOT FIND MY JACKET, so I spot this random jacket, try it on, it fits perfectly SO I take it and go home...

Lesson Learned

There is more to this night than what I just posted but I'm starting to enjoy posting the deep stuff privately on my phone, however I will point out a few things...
-  Things would be SO MUCH EASIER if I went back to normal living, meaning if I didn't have interest in working in the nightlife business. I say this because I wouldn't be looking through 2 perspectives while out, I'd just be out having fun and fooling around with women. I'm 100% sure, I could consistently potentially hook up with women who come close to my ideal type along with other universally hot chicks. (EX, Plastic fake tits chicks)

-  I need to plant seeds again, I no longer actively go around meeting people for the sake of fun, I just have fun ALONE or with mix (an company) and let people come to me. This is cutting off many opportunities an sometimes leads to mix's girls spending lots of time hanging with me since generally I don't chill at table but due to them knowing mix I'm more open to bringing them into the fun. (So they can comeback out)

-  My cold approach and management SUCKS, if you see my phone it's horrible, no organization whatsoever. Also, when I'm exchanging contact info its so SLOPPY. To make it worst my followup is horrendous, it will be about 2weeks before I even text the chick who approached me last weekend while I was chillin on the pillar. My cold approach is essentially GARBAGE not because of the person but because I'm abit standoffish to new people, I can feel myself lockedup an eventaully get hooked. Also based on past few times I was out, I had an agenda so I'd go in being ME and basically use it as a bait to throw out my sales-pitch which ALWAYS kills the interaction.

IMO, the biggest problem is the plant seeds thing because that is the fuel that keeps my lifestyle going. I know I can get hotties aka "the women I consider ideal" now I just need to be open to meeting tons of new women on a consistent basis and letting it all grow. When I think of all the hotties I've met in the past all I can think is "Damn, why do you doubt yourself? Proof is in the pudding just accept the truth". Like I said before, if I had no interest in working in the nightlife business I'd just be hooking up with hotties all day everyday.

The Larger Picture
The main reason I even keep at this is because of THE MOVEMENT...

It's surprising to hear me say "I want to end it all" given the fact that my state is amazing. I feel a "euphoric-like" state almost 70% of the time, the other 20% is more meditation-like and 10% is random ego/fear based BS. My whole purpose is to make people see my presence an see that euphoric-like state within themselves that way we can have a memorable experience all on the same frequency. I rushed thorugh my report BUT I was having a blast with both men and women. 

I was explaining this to my mother, I don't care about anything in life besides creating those opportunities for people to experience that MOMENT. It sucks that at the moment I suck at meeting and getting people together, especially since what I offer is PRICELESS. However, that doesn't stop me from meeting new people or a few people who I do end up seeing again and providing those opportunities. Deep down, I'm in all this all because I want the power/control to have the ability to create these moments through a wide range of outlets.

This group experience looking from the outside in would seem like a group of druggies having an incredible "high" and if this moment involves flirting it's full of passion and tension where sex is a natural byproduct. Personally from my view it looks like other people tapped into the state of being I tend to be in 24/7 and were riding on the same wavelength together as ONE. The moment is deep for me an I value it highly...

That is my personal power, I might not have any materalistc things to really show you but my presence is priceless, if you want to have fun roll with me and adventures will occur....
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LOL @ the creepy dude w the camera. I was like dont worry his camera is a piece of shit, u cant see anything, then I point to my monster and say NOW THIS you should be worried about LOL.
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FR: Cutie Suprises Me
I've been writing very weak sauce reports as of late due to laziness... (Yes I hate giving shallow entertainment)

So jumping right back into high quality posts, what I did today and also yesterday was while getting ready doing my normal self-amusement stuff the intent was prepping for tonight's adventure. So far I'm 2 for 2, from when I first get ready until I hit the venue everything I do is sort of a celebration for the adventures to come. Tonight I get to the venue super late...

Inside enjoying the crowd I notice lots of tall women, I'll state it now I still haven't been planting tons of seeds. While chatting with mix I did approach this russian looking chick who was born in japan. What I've been doing as of late is no longer talking, just screening and listening. Being in loud dance clubs all the time caused me to no longer want to talk much. I rather stand an look at them smiling instead of talking and talking.

While standing as mix plays with his camera and 1k camera lens, some chick approaches me wondering...IF I'M FAMOUS...I noticed these other group of women were watching me too and when I entered the venue this other chick was looking at me wondering who am I. I just start screening for about  minute, then she talks about how she's so short so she stands on the sofa and next thing you know I'm holding her waist and MAKEOUT.

Thing is this chick is SHORT but has amazing hair that makes her overall face look cute. Add on the accent and her way of being an you have yourself an average chick who actually attracted me. Well atleast it didn't start off like that...

At first I didn't think nothing of it, just a normal way to start the night. However, she bumps into me again an reopens me, next thing I know I'm sitting on the platform and about to commence CLIT STIMULATION. Less than 5mins in she is so fucking into it, I can't even begin to talk about all the shit that happened...
-  Her biting my lip as we makeout
-  Her kissing all over my face
-  Her getting clit stimulation with one leg wrapped around my leg in some ufc like hold
-  Her doing this very slow intense rhythm as she rubs her clit on my thigh
-  Her basically straddling me, imagine holding a chick as you fuck her in the air, that was us but me slightly seated (She was short no way I could do this with a tall chick)
-  Me playing with every part of her body

I must state, I got BORED very quickly it was such a douche way of being. As of late I've been getting serious into MBT so I've become aware of my intentions aka the "Why I do what I do". It wasn't her fault that I was bored it was actually the thought of making out and fooling around that was boring sorta like a "This is lame". Honestly, if there wasn't a moment in my life that clearly showed I didn't care about hooking up with chicks anymore, that was it.

However, there was a shift because as I realized how much of a douche I was being I thought "Give her an experience" and BOOM all of a sudden things got so exciting that I think I actually BLEW MY LOAD IN MY PANTS. So now shit got real as I totally fuck with her verbally and physically while stimulating her clit. I'm breathing heavier, panting, using the music to form a rhythm, and just self-amusing (blowing in her air, looking at her, snapping at her, taking spilled drink on my jeans an stroking it on her chest, etc) I'll just state now this whole interaction was text book as I put sex on the table in a "take it or leave it" manner. It was clear that this wasn't for me, it was for her and throughout the interaction it was super clear.

So I move her after about an hour in of fooling around, we barely spoke to each other and now she speaks abit asking if I'll text her so we can hook up. I felt like a douche but I refused to compromise who I am so I said "Maybe, my phone is off". What was interesting was her comment since she assumed reason I said I'd probably contact her in the week is because all americans PROLONG SEX instead of LEADING. She wanted to hook up the next day...

New Screening Criteria?
What really got me was that this chick was straight licking my ear which felt AMAZING. I was leaning back on the sofa she was on me cow girl style just devouring me. My cloth was getting abit messed up so she fixed my tie, as I just chill she'd randomly kiss me on the cheek, nose or lick my ear. This chick CLEARLY liked me and she was open about it. At this point I had already dropped the BS and truly focused on creating an experience for her...

She had set the bar that all women must now meet because now women must CHASE ME in a simillar manner and sexually must be very nurturing and elegant. There were many moments where the passion and tnension was so instense that the only thing stoping us from having intercourse was my jeans, her juices were soaking through my jeans, I could feel it on my bare skin. When I mention very nurturing did I state she wanted me to put lotion on since my hands are rough hahaha so she put it on and was rubbing me down.

At this point we bounced to the diner, when we were making out a ton I was going for the pull BUT wanted to eat first so I stated "I'm hungry, going to hit diner for a buffalo burger, your welcome to join". At first she wasn't down because she didn't want to leave her friend BUT friend was now gone so she came with me. Right before we left we bumped into her roomie who was 100% cool with me pulling. (If I had my own place) However, its revealed that she has 5 roommates and that while she can't hookup tonight she wants to hookup. Either way it was pretty late an we were both falling asleep...

This chick loved my presence as she mentioned how much she was laughing and that she can't stop laughing when around me. When I walked her to her train station I was letting her go (very aloof) an she ended up walking to my train station since she could take the train there. While waiting she is again very nutruing and elegant, I end up passionately making out with her. Did I mention at the diner she INSISTED on paying for my meal, when she didn't buy anything. Something about me, I used to joke saying that's the way things should be since my presence is priceless BUT really every chick I know spoils me hardcore. (Only reason I ended up paying was becuaseher card wasn't going through, she was going to use another card)

Right before she is leaving she is kissing me multiple times then kiss her hand touching my face, and hits train. Everything she did was so fucking elegant and nuturing that I was SHOCKED. This wasn't PG either, I was rubbing her she was rubbing my dick but it was like a very tasteful PASSION and ENERGY behind everything. It made me think about chicks I knew in the past an how they're sexuality was towards men and WOW she blew many women out of the water.

It was so drastic that now I consider all the moments I had with CC as total virgin status, with the exception of dancing to little mermaid "Under The Sea" in time square and then passionately making out. In terms of letting the woman win me over NO CHICK has brought so much passion which is why when I brought passion too it created this very sexual moment where each action implied "Lets not waste this energy" as we both knew sex would be highly profitable just based on how things were.

Overall, I'll continue with this episode because its NEW POSSIBILITIES, I'm glad to have experienced this because now it is even tougher for these so called "Hotties". They no longer can just be fun and hot, they must also CHASE in a similar fashion as this cutie and must have a elegant/nurturing vibe or else its not worth it. I've been exposed :)
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Progress Report: Am I Back On Track?
Sorry guys, I'm slacking with the content due to my new work ethic... (Kinda give a very shallow version of everything as of late)

Now, I'm like a fearless scientific explorer who demands high quality experience to backup everything. As of late all I can think about is starting an intensive program to slowly turn unknown into known as I no longer care about any specific result because I realized how much more enjoyable life is when I'm just focused on growing. Last weekend, I had two major shifts that changed my being drastically...
-  I'm no longer influenced by wanting/needing sex or living my "ideal lifestyle" at all
-  All women must have specific personality traits in order for meet my criteria, regardless how hot they are

Basically keeping track of all evidential data that backs up "Potential Possibilities" has caused me to naturally start ingraining things. The missing link was that I never did diligent tracking of all data. As time goes on these small steps started accumulating which I could actually see internal growth. To give abit of insight of what my notes look like...

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POTENTIAL POSSIBILITIES
*1. Women love my presence
-  Lots of people enjoyed seeing and interacting with me such as group at our table, black chick, brazilians, 2 unknown chicks, hot russian I #, fresno chick, random specator guy, 3 chicks on sofa.
-  Tall Russian approached me stating she wanted to have fun with me
-  Cute dancer chick was on pillar next to me because she wanted to me. She stated that she saw me dancing earlier, we played I #closed
-  Chick was with a guy an ended up chatting me, ignoring guy then simply dancing with me and all over me. I ended up #closing and putting sex on the table. He at one point stood there as my arm was around her as she puts in her number.
-  While having a blast the russian looking chick with her group was eyeing me all night. Her group enjoyed the moment we had together. (her and 6 guys)


Basically, I've become addicted to going out to gain more experience in hopes of growing and changing the unknown into the known. Started to realize the RESULTS we tend to focus on isn't that amazing at all. So what if I end up living in manhattan, going to the hottest venues and having wild sexual experiences. Slowly uncovered this when I stopped going out on weekdays which is when I usually ended up at the high end venues and hung out at what validation junkies would call "B" night venues. Being in the top venue of a good one made no actual difference, I had the same amazing time because of ME being ME. The other important moment was realizing that I had just as much fun in my room listening to music as I do inside a loud dance club. In both environments it's like I'm on drugs and strapped to a rocket which will launch me to another galaxy. Same state of mind, just different environment, which meant the environment had no input in the TRUE RESULTS aka "Growth At The Being Level".

Saturday, while making out I got bored with all the different shit I was doing and ALMOST LEFT. What stopped me though was the fact that I could see how much passion she was bringing to the table, I've never seen a woman bring so much passion and felt like I was a douche for not bringing the same level of passion. The problem was I thought the actual results of "what is", was the reward but it was actually the INTENT that drives the experiences that was what made experiences amazing/rewarding. Later, on the subway station we were making out an I was bringing passion just as much as her, it wasn't as intense as in the club BUT the fact that my INTENT was there made the experience for both of us very passionate in a more subtle way.

Overall, in terms of women this chick opened the doorway for me to realize that ALL WOMEN must pursue me and bring tons of passion because if they don't there wasting there time no matter how hot they are. This chick didn't fit my ideal type as she was about 5'4, no model-like figure (Amazing hair, cute face, nice ass) but her intention of pursuing and winning me over was so incredible that it made me want to reward her with an amazing experience. She was saying I had eyes like bambi, I'm sexy, kissing my face, biting my lips, whispering in my ear, licking my ear, laughing uncontrollably together, etc. When I thought about past experiences she blew out almost all women I've met.

My mind went "Would I rather have an woman with that much intent OR the most gorgeous woman who I TRY to game" and my thoughts instantly went to "What!?!? I still want gorgeous women, its just now they must have that same pursuing intention or else I'm waking away, plain and simple". How hot a woman is plays ZERO ROLE now because she MUST meet this crtieria or else I'm not going to deal with her on a sexual level. Ironically, I remembered MACEDONIAN CHICK who is the hottest woman I ever seen and messed around with actually brought the same kind of passion. Looking back, I might've overlooked her passion and rationalized that it was her LOOKS that made me truly like her. I still remember how she looked when she chased after me telling me not to go and how we were all over the place making out. She wanted me to leave with her...

Shifting Gears
Too much shit to go into in terms of what I'm doing now...

The main goal is the whole lifestyle that I want to create, this time around I'm not attached to the result. It's more of a canvas for me to experiment and learn about myself as I remain aware. In terms of women, I will never chase a woman ever again, instead I'll give her space to sorta use her feminine energy to win me over. All I care about now is how this whole thing will change me internally due to the pressures externally and internally.

As of late I've been in a mindset to really just create this intensive program where I gain massive experience for the sake of learning and understanding quicker. My mind is more focused on seeing how much I could actually grow before I die, because I never really liked the whole idea of living for the sake of surviving (your going to die anyway) and trying to remain as comfy (feel good) as possible.

More soon to come...
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Distant Light

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1Yr Exploration Program

This is most likely my final run in the community, I've basically been over with the whole "Pickup" aspect nowadays...

I'm starting from scratch no ASSUMPTIONS or BELIEFS allowed, just total exploration of knowledge/truth as I work my way towards building this lifestyle. In a nutshell, I want to create a "lifestyle group" revolving around what I consider the ideal life. This is the reason why you see so many similar pics/vids revolving around partying, food, luxury, travel, etc.



This is a no BS intensive program...
-  I'm not allowed to do anything that is unrelated to "The Movement"
-  I'm not allowed to take any breaks or time off
-  I'm not allowed to look at or worry about anyone else's life
-  No "Time Wasting" allowed, if idle/free then I "Explore Consciousness"
-  Each day will have goals to keep me focused, which in the long run must have more successes than failures



This is not only my "life" it's my job and avenue for making a living so there is no need for balance, it's work/play all wrapped into one. However, this time around I'm not allowed to make any assumptions or expectations. Beliefs aren't allowed, only concrete knowledge/truth based on my own experience. I have to face fears and personal destruction. The main focus is on exploring this whole way of life and constantly taking it to the next level...
A.  Scouting - Everyday I spend my whole day meeting people and exploring different potential venues
B.  Lifestyle Programs - Focus majority of my time filling up my life with things I truly want to do



I'm completely indifferent since a chick being attractive has ZERO WEIGHT anymore and hooking up is now THEIR REWARD for meeting my criteria. All I'm focused on now is just meeting a ridiculous amount of women so I can live this lifestyle of always being surrounded by women. I've learned a long time ago that in the circles I want to frequent, being known to always have women around you makes access so much easier. I won't even go indepth in this, all that is needed to know is that ti's a win/win situation especially since it also means these women have the potential to hookup with me. It's a whole next level freedom when your no longer influenced by women. (Example, now I truly try to see how much fun I can possible have when going out)



This whole program starts April 1st...

It all starts from a dim stage of two "Potential Possibilities" which by time a year comes will have grown into a whole system. Honestly, I just want to see what's what so I can have closure with this whole thing because I honestly don't know if what I see as a possibility is even possible for ME. I'd have no problem going back to acting an just partying as much as possible. Thing is, if I reach my goals then I could EASILY do acting as a hobby and could invest in my own filmmaking. At the sametime, I'd have total control of my life in terms of what I want to do and where I want to go because I'd have more than enough money. On a deeper level, I can spread the whole "movement" worldwide...

P.S...I'm not 100% reinventing the wheel since there are many international jet-setters who get paid to travel the world hosting events. One guy in particular flew down to Cabo Mexico for 5 days, then LA for 3, Las Vegas for 3, Miami for 3 (Ultra Music Festival) and ending it at NY for 3 days. Which brings me back to the whole "Not looking at anyone else's lives" because my mind fails to remember that they started from square one too and I'm looking at the end result of 5, 10, 15 years. I'm about to be 22 and have my whole life ahead of me, its no need to rush at the sametime its best if I'm as efficient as possible by focusing 24/7 on this because, "Why am I even alive then? To sit around feeling good? I can sit in my house partying in my room, shit job, trying new foods daily and enjoy it just as much as this life I'm moving towards. The only difference is that there is WAY LESS opportunities for growth, this "ideal lifestyle" is like a pool of unknown, where I must now catch my "Know How" up to speed with my ideas because if I don't know how then I can't even attempt to produce these ideas.

Stay Tuned :)

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Hahahahahaha, douche...

This shit helps me focus that's my biggest problem BUT now I got a whole agenda and reminder thingy so I can stay consistent and not fall off the wagon. (March = Zero Focus) Back in feb when I was abit focused I was on the ball going out in daytime talking to the model-like chicks, hitting the high end spots on weekday which is how I met lots of hotties. So gonna get back on track...
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FR: Delay Of Game
I almost quit everything, phone still hasn't come on so it delayed the whole 1year exploration bs...

Realized I can't quit, I love this shit way too much to just give it all up over external situations. One thing for sure though I have an extreme imbalance as I have little control/power over the external world. For the sake of using my full potential I MUST focus on gaining power/control aka "Making tons of money in this business to support EVERYTHING" With that said I went out...

Keep in mind, I waited all day for parents to come home only to hear "Phone isn't coming on today, maybe tomorrow". (Was said each day for the past week) I was PISSED, but also pissed because I knew I wasn't truly pissed at all and in the next 5mins I'd be back to normal. Welp, 5mins past I'm back to normal, 1hr later I'm on bus enjoying myself, 1hr later I'm in the club having a BLAST.

Experiment: See how much fun I can possibly have
Meet mix, he brings these 2 tall chicks to the table, I hate standing by our table due to how crowded it gets so I'm on sofa. Blond is looking at me but at first I'm not even bothering because I'm kinda in anti social mode BUT mix tells me go for her so I start flirting from afar. They leave for abit an I move so mix's people can have the table, I stand on a random sofa going crazy!

Rapper chick comes out of nowhere to say "hi", would've been great if I had a phone because I would've had atleast 5 chicks who would've came out. Also, this promoter dude came by just to bug out with me hahaha its funny since everyone in nightlife knows me as the kid who PARTIES. After, I drop down an start flirting with one of the girl's who is with a guy that obviously likes her. It's so sad to see the whole "Friend Zone" thing especially when you still try to pursue. Honestly, it kinda looked like how CC and I were before we started actually fooling around. I stop flirting hard with this chick cause the guy is cool, chick and I were basically inches away from kissing.

I go back to full blown party mode, mix bounces, I chill with the group just making sure there having fun. It's 3 chicks, 2 guys (including me) and then there is like 5 attractive women to my left with 2-3 guys. One of the women in that group was eyeing me, I just looked and smiled.

The Band Of UGs
So everyone leaves from mix's table, I go to center of the venue and just dive in grabbing some random chick. She's not attractive BUT now she's all over me, reopens me about 5 times. At the sametime I noticed this west coast looking rave type chick, you know the ones who have there stomach showing an thong highly visible. Turns out she's abit old and her friend is big BUT I'm just seeing how much fun I can possibly have.

We pull out cameras an start acting stupid, the big friend asks for my # and old raver wants me to add her on facebook. Meanwhile the unattractive woman I met at the start is grabbing me over and over. Then you have 5 average women who are eyeing me the whole time, then hovers by me waiting for me to start interacting BUT both raver's big friend and unattractive chick keep reopening me. For the sake of fun I start slapping raver friend's tits as if they were drums hahaha.

Eventually I stop looking around for a legit attractive chick BUT all I see is black english natural with this blondie who wasn't attractive. (He's very good at getting women though) There is also this guy getting sandwich by two chicks who he ends up doing a double makeout, it was funny because I almost was going to go over there an just join in the makeout hahaha.

An like that, I left, dehydrated and tired...

I had so much fun that there is no way I can quit, I really really really want to be able to party everyday and get paid shitload of money. The hard part is getting started an maintaining since phone is VERY IMPORTANT.
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