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 Feb 11 2010

I am fucking pissed at myself right now. Went out yesterday and I fuking chode out. Approach anxiety killed me yesterday , the fact that I know that if I just start some momentum I know I will be fine for the rest of the night but just approaching does first set are fucking hard. I use the word hard because in my subconscious I am a superficial person, I am trying to change this!. I just see a hot girl and make up my mind that she is better me than just because she’s hot.. This is stupid, I hate the fact that society and the media gives us nonstop instate gratification and portrays women like they are the fucking shit, just because their hot. Tyler talks about this in the blueprint. I did a couple of approaches, got some reference point but the fact that I was not approaching the girl that I think are hot its killing me in the inside. The reason this article has a very negative tone it is because I did not push my boundaries. I just feel I have let myself down. I am glad writing this shit down. I am letting all my anger in this article, so now I can just move on w/ my life and finish my homework. I have a lot of shit in my mind right now. Anyways I am not going to read this article and spells check it. So if I am not making any sense, sorry I have a lot of shit in my mind. cheers
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 Feb 12 2010

After yesterday disappointing night, I have come realize that I have vey high standard. I am not actually enjoying myself at the bars. I was in my head pretty much hating myself, for not pushing my boundaries. So today I was going to change hat.
Through out the day it was pretty much just going t class , doing homework while having an insane hangover. The sun goes down, the moon goes up and the weekend begins. The night started pretty chill, I went w/ a friend to watch paris w/ love. The story line is ok, but what makes the movie a huge success is the acting skills of Travolta. What I really like about travolta’s character WAX. He is fully conscious of his reality, unapologetic, does what ever the fuck he want but at the same time he is constantly amusing himself because he has lived through so much shit that almost nothing will disturb his really. My state was fucking eking on the roof. Time to hit the bars.

There are only 4 bars that most of the college students go to. It is pretty lame but at the same time they are all close together so venue changing its good. At W-bar there were not that many girls, mostly guys but fuck that you gotta work w/ what you have at the time. I hit the bar for a rumNcoke followed by shooting the shit w/ the hommies to get myself in a talking mood. I really worked on lowering my standard of what is appropriate to talk about and after some chit chat I started to vomit words. The conversation we had with the hommies great, they laughed each time I expected the to lough, the tone of my voice was breaking rapport and I was having fun which was very important!
Then boom I turn around to see who the fuck is pushing me and my eyes meat w/ a hot girl, shes not that hot but I know that shes has a butterfly tattoo on her lower back so props to her dirty side. The conversation went down like this:

D:I know you ( look her straight in the eye but then rocked my body away from cuz shes with two fucking guys)
HB:You do not know me, cuz I don’t know you
D:Yup, you worked at the cactus last night, you hanged my coat.
HB:Yes I know that but still you don’t know me
//At this instant the two fucking guys are talking amongst themselves and then proceed to pull the girl away from me.
D:You know what, I don’t know you and that’s a shame.( I smiled at the end and winked at her)
HB:Haha yeah
I eject.

The fact that I approach a girl while two other guys were currently hitting on her, was fucking awesome. What I realized from the interaction was that I didn’t even acknowledge the two other guys were there. At that moment it was only me and girl. Great reference point on building your own bubble of love.

I venue change to what I consider to be the best bar to game. Mostly sororities and frat boy go there. The thing about sorority girls are that they are pretty chill to talk to them but they go in packs. They are values hoes that like to get down dirty.
But again same shit as the other bar, more guys than girls. Got myself another rumNcoke. People are walking through the bar I start to eye fuck the shit if every girl I walk by. Mostly in this bar I approach 3 different girls. I got stuck in my head again, so the interaction lasted 3 min on avg. Kino escalation is good, I look them in the eye when they are talking, if they say something that meet or surpase my standard I give them a kiss in the chick. I grab there hands, push n pull material and claw them. The interaction fails to keep going its because I was stuck in my head, I stopped leading the interaction and I started to get to fucking logical.

So I bounce to another venue, this bars sucks. Country music, ugly bitches and the fact that now I am rolling with 9 fucking dudes. Full chode delux times. FAIL!
There is one thing I realize there, I am to focus on working on my technique that I am not actually approaching the girls that I want to fuck and have amazing adventures together. AA is a biggi to me.

We bounce to anther bar and now we are 11 dudes. And we are all sitting in down. At this point of the night is around 2 am. 1 hour left before everything closes. I get u and I tell myself to go for one more approach. AA kills me, all I say to the girls passing by is your cute then that leads to ur cute w/ an edge of dorkiness to ur fat and I like u. They just laugh but I don’t hook. At this moment I go and say goodbye to the hommies and tell them that I am going solo to get bitches.

I go back to the first bar because I just heard that is fucking packed. I get there and the first girl that I see I approach. I saw her, I smile and I gave a kiss in the chick. I stared vomiting words, she said she was a forensic major, that cool. She’s small petit w/ a beautifull smile. After 5 min I guy I had previously met comes into set and starts talking to girl. IN my head I was you are messing with the wrong men bitch, So I went straight into amogin him. I Told him that he was the shit a couple of times. Asked him in a very alarming way if he new were a buddy of mine was ( My buddy was in the previous bar but he didn’t new that I new that) and like a charm he eject because his state went down and the girl shifted her body to me. She tells me she is going to the bar, I automatically ask her if she knows the bar tender because getting a drink can take up to a good 10 min at this time of the night. We head to the bar and I start to ask very intimate question. Very good interaction but at the end out of now were she looks at her cell phones grabs her drink and leaves w/ out saying a word. I was like fuck this shit, I raise my head and see that some people dancing. Grab my drink and started dancing by myself while singing lady gagas song just dance. Epic fucking times!
Girls are just looking at me like, who the fuck is this guy. Dance w/ a couple of girls but didn’t talked to them, just danced. Note to self: talk to the girls while dancing. The last five min of the night I ended up singing bye bye miss American pie, in the middle of the dance floor while doing the moon walk and moving my head front to back. I didn’t give a fuck about what anyone thinks of me. I was having fun. I grab my coat and head home.
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 Feb 13 2010

Epic times last night. So around 4ish in the afternoon a friend of mine text’s me: party… now.. want to go? I was doing fucking homework since I have 2 exams on Thursday so take a moment to think, I just look around and I see a sexy ass girl doing homework while she was eating her pen. My train of thought went: Girl, cute girl, I want a girl, I am getting myself a nice warm va-j-j tonight period. Picked up all my stuff and head over to pick my mate.
After an excruciating cold walk through the street of boring city of west Lafayette. My mate and I cannot seem to find the house of the where the party it’s at. I am cold, it’s windy plus I can’t feel my right hand because I was holding a bottle of whiskey. Finally we get there. I am greeted by an HB friend, shes cute, petit , very bubbly and shes drunk. Hugs and kises are exchange and we into the house. Not that many people there around 8is I want to say. Apparently the theme of the party is: pijjamas. I am like fuck yeah, girls w/ not that many cloths on sweet. Anyways, I know I need to amuse myself to pump my state. So I look at one of the girls in the eye, amazing boobs ( I love boobs ), great smile but had that man eater look. And I like this A LOT.I feel butterflies in my stomach. Yup im in state, I told her she was cute, she complied my mate sees this and cockbloks me my offering shot to her. She is drinking wine and she say: you need it more than I do, I am wasted. We start taking whiskey shot w/ lime juice. Tasted really good, definitely doing that again. I tell my friend that we need to get into their social circle because the last thing I want is to be the acquard guys drinking by themselves. So I call the HB friend, I have breaking rapport tone, shes bubbly so I tease her a lot, make fun of the fact that she is vertically challenge but I am stuck inside my head. We keep taking shots and im getting tipsy. I stop carring what anyone thinks about me so I start vomiting words. The girl who loves at the house comes over to the set, she tell me her name and I forget instantly( gotta work on this) and more shots are taking through out the following minutes. Its pretty chill so we bounce to the living room to watch the basketball game. Purdue its winning, Again, so more shots. Now my mate and I have drank more than half a bottle of whiskey, and I also drinking beer. Its come to my attention that the all the fucking girls hve boyfriends. Now I respect a relationship but its just really hard not to go and have an amazing interaction w/ a really cute girl. Escalte make fun of her. Like its in my blueprint to go have have fun and if she meets my standards then I am probably gonna go for the make out and a lot lot more. This girls gives stupid shit test like seriously, its pathetic that she thinks I am going to eject. Time goes by and shit test keep increasing but no biggi. I like her, I feel that interaction was great but I need to work on my closing..she ends up leaving because her boyfriend is calling.. fuck. So far there is no more whiskey so beeer pong time. I loose the first game then win the next game and now im shit face. While celebrating ended up breaking a bottle of vodka ( it was empty ) so that was a buzz kill. I cut myself and I automatically start picking pieces of glasses up, everyone goes back to the leaving room. I know I fucked up so go straight to talk to the girl who lives there. Look her straight in the eye, apologies told asked her that if she wanted me to vacuum the floor to pick up all the extre glasses because I didn’t want her to cut her cute little toes. She smiles I look around the other girls smile back, its all cool know.



The night keeps going and by that time I am completely shit face we bounce to another house.. nothing its happening there. I stated to drink what I consider to be the worst drink in the world. Jagermister = cough syrup .. this really suckes, I see my mate completely shit face. He tells me he wants to go eat at Ah-z. we get there we are totally shit face. And its 9 pm at night, Epic. I eat sushi which is a bad idea. After we are done eating my mate goes to the bathroom and I fucking passed out! My friend wakes my up by shouting WHAT THE FUCK! I realize what has just happen. I look at the staff their laughing their ass of. I apologies and tell them that I am leaving now. Because I took the blame and accepted the consequences of my action people tend to be very chill after that. We head back the house were the HB are. At this instant more girls come in. chubby but cute, so I go talk to them and start making fun of them. Man I love fatt bitches, they are fun people to hang out.
So we head to the bars. Is cold as fuck. I don’t remember that much of what happen then I was too fuck up. I know that AA did not killed like yesterday. I bounced to all the bars lots of fun but nothing big. I think I made out w/ a girl but I do not remember that much. I know that I was in set for w/ a random went for the make out she reject so I wash rinse and repeat we hooked up. And then she proceed to tell me that she has a boyfriend. I did not care. I knew the bouncer and if I was getting on a fight I would have just ran and gone to another bar. I can’t seem to find my mate. I call him and he tells me that he had bounce w/ some girl like 1 hr ago. When the fuck did this happen? I was by myself sargin? Fucking awesome. I do not think about it that much but the realization that I was by myself decreased my state and got me inside my head. I start calling other friend to see if they are at the bars. Once you start to go out constantly you get to have drinking buddies and random wings that want the same thing I did. A vertical smile going up and down in my disco stick.
The night ended w/ me losing 10 bucks. Which pissed me off and at the same time gave me a bost in my confiden. It was more like fuck this and boom I approach a hot ass girl. I am to drunk not making sense of myself so I eject. The bars close I get myself some pizza and walk by home. Alone dammit this fucking shit needs to change..
Im not gonna prove read this I have a hangover level 5 plus my stomach its killing me. Fucking jaggermister and sushi. Bad combination.

Now its time go back to full time nerd study for my exams and wait and see what next weekend will bring.
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 Feb 19 2010

Didn’t go out last night because I was really sick through out the week. Friday night starts, I start by calling my buddy to see at what time will be hitting the bars. Sadly my buddy had a function with his fraternity, I call other people but none of them are answering their fucking phones or responding my texts. I guess I am going out solo tonight. This its kind of scary yet I feel my heart rate going up. I go straight into the forums to read some tips on how to go Solo. Pretty much what I read was pump your state before hitting the bars and be super friendly.

I start to Dj but I was not feeling it, the deal of going out alone was getting my inside my head. Fuck .I start singing but it does not work either, I am fucking scared. SO I proceed to start drinking some booze, take a deep breathe and just say to myself: this will improve your character and your game, you used to about not being legal to go to the bars and meet girls, well you can so man the fuck and lets get thi shit handled. I start Djing again and I feel the beats in my gut, I Djed for around a straight hour. It was around 11 pm when I started to head towards the bars. I get to the brothers and start chit chatting with the bouncer. I find out that there is a raffle for 100 bucks so I put my name and email and hope that I win that shit. I go straight to the bathroom because I still have a runny nose from my cold. I go to the second floor this is usually packed with sorority girls. I buy myself a rumNcoke, look around and I am stuck inside my head. Full AA. Fuck. I looke at my phone and proceed to call my friends to see if there were coming to the bars. I simply needed some one that I new to be there, Tyler calls this alianzes in the blueprint.

Girls are walinkg by and saying your cute, I like you, I do the double tap tap of glory to a blond girl, introduce myself she says her name and I chode myself out. Know I am really stuck in my head. AA is killing me so I ended up going to Jakes to check it out. While I am crossing the street I realize that I was really tipsy, I didn’t had that much to drink but I figured I still had some antibiotics in my body so that explained the tipsyness.

I get into Jakes and again go straight to the bathroom to blow my nose. This place was packed. A lot of people are talking I see a couple of HBs but I don’t approach and its fucking killing me inside because it keeps getting into my head. Around this point of the night, I received a text from my buddy he is fucking drunk and tells me that his not coming to the bars. Shit. We had a stupid conversation that lasted around 30 min. I am outside Jakes and I am like Fuck, I am just going to head home. At least I went out that’s an accomplishment. I start walking back to my place and I don’t like this. I look at my watch and its 1230 at night. Fuck this shit I shouted out load. I start heading back to brother. All that went through my head was Ozzy in transformation saying, just go and do one more approach! you will never what’s going to happen if you don’t do it. This sentece keeps going on a loop in my mind. Fuck it one more approach and if I get blown out fuck it, at least I pushed my boundaries. I go to the second floor of brothers and its packed.

As I am walking down up the stairs I start to say non sence to the gorls going down the stairs. My voice tonality was very choddy. I go to the bar to get another rumNcoke. I don’t approach a single girl. I received a text from another friend and tells me that he is in the scond floor of brothers. I find him and we head over to the third floor to sit in a table and drink a pitcher. We start to talk and drink and I am starting to get hammered. We start chit chatting and I start to practice Brads exercise on vomiting words. What I pretty much do is take one word of what my buddy was talking about and start a new thread. It’s a little bit hard since I am still inside my head but a feel more social now. I decide to text an HB that I new to see if she was at the bars, lets call her Retard (Its a joke between me and her) the retards texts me back and says she’s at jakes. I am not going back to jakes .We head towards Were Else bar and while leaving brothers the retard hugs me and kisses me in the chick, shes drunk I tell her that I am going to WE. I walk 2 steps and her friend hugs me and kisses me and tells me that we meet before (will call her HB pageant) I tell her that I will buy her the shots because she’s gave me like 9 shots in my birthday and I wanted to return the favor plus but that it had to be later because I am heading out, she smiles I kiss her in the chick.

We get there and we got more drinks. Its packed I get pushed by a girl walking by, she says she is sorry; she’s chubby but I engage her. Grabbed her hand pull her in and I start vomiting words. 5 min into it I realize that she’s ugly so I just tell her that she’s cool and Iit was nice meeting her.

My buddies are not approaching any girls. Fuck this shit. I go straight to the dance floor. There are a couple of girls in the dance floor. I just start dancing by myself while holding my drink in the air and singing bad romance by lady gaga. Fun times. Two girls start staring at me, I grab one of the girls hand and start dancing with her but her friend pulls her away. Fuck. I turned around and all I see are couples dancing. Fuck. I keep dancing but I am getting inside my head, I realize that my body language its very chody when I am approaching. I improve my posture. I head back to my friends, their drinking and talking amongst themselves. I chilled with my friends for a while and I then go back to the dance floor to dance: slid to the left, slide to the right, criss cross( spelling?). I am drunk, I am dancing by myself, having fun but I don’t approach a fucking single girls. Ahhhhhh. this fucking sucks.

I head back to brothers to look for HB pageant. The retard its with her on and off boyfriend, I ask were the fuck is HB pageant she’s like I don’t know a proceed to give a shit test about I just want to hook up with, her ( the retard and I had past. In a nutshell we got really close during summer 08 but right when things were started to get physical summer classes ended, when we got back for fall semester I chode myself out. I didn’t talk to her since, because I didn’t want to be in the friend zone. We started to talk again when I turned 21. There is attraction but every time I go for the make out she moves her face or runs off) I look her in the eyes and tell her: retard its not my fault that you have that man eater look in your face, that you are a cougar and that you like to run around breaking young boys hearts( while saying this I slap her in the ass). She laughs; she kisses me in the chick and tells me she wants my necklace. I tell her a girl gave to me and that its important to me ( false I bought in Abercrombie ) she then grabs it and starts pulling it. I stopped her and tell her that she already has enough bling bling. I ask her again were the fuck is HB pageant. I look to my left and there are like 3 girls listening to our conversation, their hot but I don’t acknowledge them because I had set my mind to fuck HB pageant. The retard is pissed that I am still asking about HB pageant, so she decides to playfully punch me in the face and tell me she’s somewhere in brothers. I push her a little because I was pissed that she punched me. She’s drunk so she steps back like 3 steps, her on and off boyfriend grabs her and tells her that they are leaving., they leave. I start to search for HB pageant and for some reason I forget how she looks. Fuck.. I ended up going back to WE to find my friends but they had left. I give up in searching for HB pageant. I approach a couple of girls but nothing is hooking I was too fuking wasted. Its 2:50 am in morning and out of now where HB pageant comes and hugs me, we chit chat but mainly I tell her that I hated for making me go looking for her. Shes keeps kissing my chick. And hugs me again, she tells me she has to go because her date is waiting outside. Fuck this shit. I tell her that we should grab a drink sometime next week, she agrees. The bar closes I go and get something to eat and head home.
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 Feb 20 2010

My reality has been shattered into pieces. Seems like every day I am starting to develop my own rhythm, my sense of reality has become stronger and stronger.
So yesterday started when I went with my buddy to shoot the shit at el rancho, we got some fajitas and a really big ass strawberry margarita. We talked about the incident I had with HB retard last night. Apparently she does not remember what happen and texts my buddy that she never land it a hand on me ( bullshit ). A women!! I did send a nasty text to that but she did not reply. All I want is an apology and move on; but she’s to damn proud to give me an apology, I really want to fuck this bitch. Anyways if one don’t work I’ll just find me another girl.

After the dinner we went straight to the brothers, its boring as fuck. I go to the bar for some beer , I see a cute girl I opened with : hey your cute! why don’t you use your looks and call the bartender for me. She giggles and starts flirting with the bartender, I give her my money and she buys me my beer. I give her a high five followed by a kiss in the chick and thanks all of these happens while I eye fucking the shit out of her. I eject (wrong move) and go back to search for my buddy, we ended drinking with some of his fraternity brothers. All they wanted to do was get drunk and then head back to the their house and some weed. Fuck that! I look around the bar and its starting to get full, the majority of the girls flying in are with their fucking date ( it appeared they just arrived from a formal). And the RumNcoke’s start to enter my buddy. I seriously have huge AA.

I am tipsy ,my buddy is tipsy and apparently two more guys just sat in the table. Great now I am rolling the 7 guys and all of them just want get high. Fuck this. I tell my buddy, lets go to H bar and start approaching and start some momentum. But no he wants fucking weed. I guess I am going Solo tonight Again. I told him I was going to H bar and that will meet there. I go to H bar, there are a lot of mix sets here, I grab the free popcorn and go straight upstairs. An entire fucking frat is there, a total sausage fest. Shit! I am starting to get inside my head. I call my buddy and the fucker is eating outside, he says there a couple of sets there. I get to were his at and all  I see are a bunch of fatty’s there. My buddy just laughs and tells me : dude im fucked up!, anything that has a human pulse and a vagina I’ll fuck her. Ehh No! WTF no more fatty’s for Diego thank you very much. At this point my buddy and his frat brothers are completely wasted and all they want to do is get high . I say bye to my friend and tell him that I am going Solo for the rest of the tonight.

I go to WE bar. The fucking bouncer looks at me and says: You again! Me: yup, I like the naughty girls that come here to dance. I go to the bar for another rumNcoke. Head straight to the dance floor and start dancing by myself singing I CAN MAKE YOUR BED ROCK, I CAN ME YOUR BED ROCK GIRL! A two set start dancing next to me, I start dancing with them in a circle but when I went to talk to them I had no full believe( like about 77% ) so their vaginas synchronized , they look at each other and move to another part of the dance floor. Fuck this shit. I kept dancing but AA os still killing me.
I bounce to another J bar, I meet some people I know, I approach  3 different girls, but nothing it seems that I don’t have enough intent or I am just being a fucking creepy-bar-guy. Fuck this shit! I try to man up but nothing is fucking happening. I am fucking too wasted, I am pissed at myself so I go to HOT box pizza. I ended up eating an entire 12 inch pizza by myself. What a FAT ass.

I start to head home but I am not liking this. I just tell myself, one more fucking approach. I start walking back to Brothers. I opened 3 different girls but not hooking. Fuck. at this point I tell myself :at least I tried. I start walking toward my house. close to my house there is another bar/nightclub called Cactus. I start laughing out load, I say to myself: Cougar hunting at the cactus on Saturday night! Cool, going SOLO to the cactus! Epic. So on I walk to the cactus.

I get there and as expected is pretty empty, I buy myself one beer and I head towards the dance floor. This is a pretty big dance floor like 200 people could fit there but there is only around 50 people dancing; there’s fattys, a couple of cougar that I had previously approach a 2 of weeks ago and a couple of mix sets. Is like 2:20 am I been blown out more than 10 time now so I do not give a fuck anymore. I approach pretty much every fucking girl at the dance floor but they are too fucking ugly. Agh! I move to the piano bar section. Its pretty cool here, the piano man is singing random songs w/ a lot of obcense humor. And it hit me right there, I was so focus on approaching girls that I forgot to actually have fun. I start singing piano man by billy joel and right there I turn around and there she was HB yoga ( a decent HB 9 if you like to rate girls).

D:Singing the piano the piano song( I smile and move my fingers indicating to come over)
HB yoga :OMG my shift was supposed to end at 1 but the pioano guy keeps singing.
D:I know that feeling, I work at the union and I hate working extra hours
HB yoga :I also work as a yoga instructor at the union( I cut her off )
D:I took yoga my freshman year! That class was awesome. Especially since yoga very sexual( eye contact)
HB yoga : Yes it is ( smiles)
HB yoga: Im HB yoga
D:Im Diego
D:So tell I read in an article about no-gravity yoga, have you ever done that?
HB yoga :OMG how did you know about that! I want to try that so bad.
HB yoga: hey I have to go, if you ever come here again come over and say hi.(she leaves)

Fuck, I should had number close that bitch. Fuck, I cant remember her name. the bar closes because its 3 am. I walk to my house and realized the adventure I had just had all by myself. Although AA killed me, all I need was 1 set to show myself that it’s ok to talk to girls. That is not a big deal and that is all in my head.
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Feb 25 2010

 

I decided to start my homework early today, so I could hit
the cactus tonight. Today I am going solo again, my current wingman is sick. I
head towards the cactus around 1130 pm. 
I get to the cactus, hot girls everywhere. I go straight to the coat
check and find out that its full, fuck! I am inside my head. I go the bar to grab
myself a rumNcoke. It took roughly around 15 min to get it. I look around and
all I am doing is putting girls in pedestals just because they are hot. This needs
to stop. The night continues and all I am doing is walking around the cactus. I
decide to go to the piano bar area. Its pretty cool, apparently the song their
playing is a drinking game. I start to drink and toast my drink w/ some random guys, i get very tipsy.
Time goes by and all I say to myself is one approach, just one fucking approach.
I go the dance floor but all I do is squeeze myself though the crowed.
This fucking sucks.  I dance w/ cute girl but since I am not the party, I am not
the source of good emotions she ends up blowing up. I can’t blame her.  I decide to go to the bar to grab
another drink. I start talking w/ some not good-looking girls, I tell them to
use their power to get the attention of the bartender. They laugh and
proceed to do exactly that. This time I get a long island. BAD idea. I get back
to the dance floor. I am tipsy, I finally stop giving a fuck.

 As I am walking to the dance floor a random girl stops me and proceed to tell me

Her: If we where 10 years ago, you’d be the lead singer of led zeppelin.

D: OK.  Is it because of my long hair? You know that just rude ( I have no idea why I said
that)

Her: you don’t like led zeppelin?

D: nop.

Her: Well ask my friend XXX and she would agree w/ me. ( I turn around to talk to her friend, her friend is busy talking to another girls, I turn back to face her but she’s gone. Fuck)

I go to the dance floor completely pissed because I new I had just fucked that interaction. This time I grab a hot girl and start dancing
w/ her. I grab her ass go for the kiss close, nothing happens. No worries, I
dance a couple of songs w/ her and try again. Nothing happens, fuck. We start talking but the interaction remains all in sub communication. Her friend
comes, I am drunk so I don't  befreind the friend right away so she proceeds to cock block me. I go back to the bar for another long island. Bad
idea. From here on, I do not completely remember what happen, I was fucking wasted. The next thing I know, I’m in my bed and its 930 am. 
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 March 04 2010

This past week has been full of exams, so I haven’t been able to update the FR. Its Thursdays so that only means that everyone is going to the cactus tonight, I start the night with my usual one hour dj practice session. I feel pretty pumped because of some new music that I just had bought online, its around 1100 pm and I head over the cactus. I get there and I start talking to the first girl I see. She’s ok I guess, this is just my practice sets so the conversation goes like interview. I can tell that she’s overwhelmed by the fact that I had started to talk to her as if we been friend for a lifetime. She starts giving me some stupid shit test like you are a player and that I just come to cactus to get laid. I simply smile look her straight in the eye and say you are correct my friend I give her the two finger salute and walk away. I go the bar to get myself a rum coke. I chit chat w/ two random girls while waiting for my drink, not much happen there so now that I had my drink I go straight to the dance floor. Once I get there full AA hits me, I start walking through the dance floor and I am not fucking approaching. I ended up giving two laps to the dance floor and then eject because I knew I was choding myself out. I start to get pissed at myself so I go to the piano bar. I start to have a conversation in my head that went like this: This is fucking bullshit I have spend the last year bitching about not being old enough to the bars and procrastinating to get this part of my life handled and my state went exponentially down. Go out there and start by eye fucking the shit out of every girl, no fatty’s allowed and enjoy yourslef. I stayed at the piano bar for a like 3 songs, the last was One by metallica this reminded me of my freshman year at high school.
I go back to the dance floor I see a female friend dancing with her girlfriend so I go say hi and start dancing in a circle with them. I slowly start to get in state but AA is still there for some stupid reason I end up buying another rum and coke. Bad Idea, I have a 730am class the next day that I have to go to. One thing that is bugging me right now is that I am having good eye contact with an HB but I do not follow through. I start walking/ dancing towards her but in my subconscious I still fell socially condition. So I get to the girl we are 1 ft away and instead of grabbing her and start dancing with her I end up just dancing with her( 1ft in between) we dance for the entire song start to talk w/ her but Im too drunk to make sense so she blows me out. This demoralizes me so I get back into my head. More alcohol to my body and from there on I was just getting blow out after blow out. Around 145 am I decided to back home, it was a fucking rough night. From my personal view this was a night that I wish I had a wingman to rely on, but then again the lesson I learned today was indeed needed: alcohol is the biggest cockblock I will ever encounter in my life.
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March 5 2010
I woke up this morning w/ a massive hangover; I did go to my 730 class which was awesome. Throughout the day I still had a buzz from last night, I was still pissed at myself for choding around so I decided to take the lesson learned as one more brick in my wall of experience. The night started w/ my usual 1 hour dj practice, interesting enough I was dj and ironing my shirt at the same time. Around 1030, I head to my buddy frat; the theme of the party was casino. After yesterdays lesson tonight I decided to take my car out so I will be forced not to drink that much.
I get to the frat and my buddy is already fucking wasted, the ratio was ok more girls than guys. But these girls are freshman and sophomores and probably one or two juniors. Tonight I was not going to chode around like yesterday, the first girl I see I go grab her by the hand spin her around pull her in and I start grinding her. This puts a smile in my face. I dance w/ her for a couple of songs but I am not talking to her I just dance w/ her. Two friends come and right there two frat guys start dancing w/ them, perfect execution so I give a high five to one of the guys. Two songs later the 3 girls vaginas sync and decided to leave because it was hot. I look at the other two guy and they immediately start to follow them, fuck that. I played a beer pong game, I lost. And I realized that I was not approaching a single girl because I kept telling my buddy that around 1 am we should head towards the bars, meaning I was more comfortable approaching girls at the bars and that I had AA at the frat. This shit needs to stop. But since this is not my frat and frat boys tend to be very territorial about girls I didn’t want to start a fucking over some random girl. There were a couple of HBs that I really wanted to approach but for some fucking reason I didn’t, I am pissed about it. One thing that I started doing was smiling, I realized that I normally do not smile that much. Not much happen after that at the frat.
We head to WE bar, the place is packed. I head straight to the dance floor, I see two cougar dancing and I go straight for the kill. We start dancing and grinding I finally stop caring what people think about me. I am having fun, I turn around and I see my buddy dancing w/ and HB. I keep dancing w/ the cougar except we are dancing ass to ass, she starts pressing her ass into mine which lead to me grinding the HB my buddy is dancing. For two straight songs I am in the middle of a sandwich, which was epic. But even better were the HB friends standing right next to us staring at the HB with an expression in their face that said: what the fuck are you doing and I want to do that. The cougar ejects and I start dancing w/ the HB friends, there is a HB blond that I want. Eye contact is good I’m smiling she is smiling but I do not approach of fear that my state might go down. After some while I eject and head towards the bar. There are a couple of girls there, I engage four girls by asking them what the fuck they were drinking. Green dragon is the name of the drink, sweet yet very dangerous this leads to me telling them about my long island adventure I had at the cactus a couple of weeks ago. Everything going great they are asking me questions we are vibing and one of the girls (HB K) asks me where I am from I say Colombia and then she start hitting on me hard. She’s hugging me, giving me kisses on the chick and telling me that she loves Colombians, I am just standing there like ok this normally doesn’t happen but fuck it lets see what happens. Her friends come in and start talking to me, I am engaging the entire group again. HB K apparently left so I start talking w/ another HB. The interaction went well, at some point of the interaction she starts dancing a friend of her so I say: look at that, it happened just how you like it straight through your ass; to which she replied hell yeah! And then OMG what no no no no I have no idea what you are talking about.. epic.
I eject and start looking for my buddy, apparently he is nowhere to be found. I decide to go to the other bars. It’s like 210 am and all I am doing is walking around the bars not approaching, fuck! My buddy calls me and tells me that the girl she was dancing w/ was just using him to get his boyfriend jealous. I am fucking horny and at the same time we both say to each other strip club. The night ended w/ me getting a nice pair of tits in my face followed by a massive wood.
I will say that because I didn’t drink that much today it actually helped me. Also I am in the mist of scheduling a bootcamp w/ brad.
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 March 6 2010


Today the night started different, I got the tactical book from RSD after I had previously schedule a bootcamp w/ Brad. Before heading out I wrote down a pledge to myself. For now I will be going out a minimum of 3 times a week, 3 hours per day; I will be focusing in opening, hooking and number closing every girl. 10 approaches is the minimum I have to do per day.

So I head towards WE bar, I get there and its pretty empty which is weird because it was midnight. I change venues and end up at brothers. I go to the second floor and see an HB waiting for a drink. I open w/:

D: Hey your kind of cute, do you the bar tender
HB: No
D: No problem, I need you to start flirting w/ him hardcore so I can beer.

At this point the bartender looks at us but takes the order of another guy

D: What the fuck was that, you were supposed to use your looks to bring him over ( I claw her while saying this to her ear)
HB: I am sorry I tried
D: OK honey, use those melons and make this happen
She laughs; ok I am going to try harder
D: That what she said ( I ended up calling the attention of the bartender)
D: At first I thought you were cute but after that poor performance I don’t really find that cute anymore ( I ends this w/ a big smile in my face)
She laugh and gives me a noguhty look
HB: You didn’t need my help, your fine by yourself
D: I know that, but I just wanted to see if there’s more than meets the eye than a cute face and a cheesy smile and apparently you are just your looks
HB: You are just saying that and I am just drunk right know.

I did some cold reading to her but after a while I started to react to what she was saying, I guy came into set and she turn all her attention to him. I should had push harder.

I go down and meet some guys I had meet a couple of days ago. They are cool and so I use them as way to pump my state. We head to WE bar again. Its packed, as soon as I get in I got some eye contact w/ some cute HBs but I don’t approach, I have outcome dependence. I remind myself that this is all just a game and that the first 1000 approaches don’t count. The dance floor was good, dance w/ some girls but I didn’t dance w/ the HBs that I wanted. What a fucking I am. I go to the entrance and opened a girl w/ a high five, she’s cute, I started to plow through until something hooked but I wasn’t able to follow through so I eject.

I go outside and decide to go to jakes bar. While I am there I see a 3 set sitting down. As I get closer to them I recognize a girl a I new, she graduated 1 semester ago. I sit down w/ them , we had cool conversation. I am leading the interaction, she asks for a beer and I take it from her and start drinking, she looks at w/ a WTF face but I don’t care so attraction builds up.

What was positive of this interaction w/ the 3 girls was that I was able to juggle them between the three and still give more attention to the HB I wanted to hook up w/. I recognize who was the leader and who were the followers, bad girl and good girl. Also my stories got laughs right were I want them, and they laugh at all my jokes even the ones that weren’t suppose to be funny. One thing to work on is that one of them asked me what I was going to the after I graduate and I was not able to give her a straight answer (need to work on this). We ended up going back to WE bar. I tried to isolate the HB but the friend didn’t let her so I eject.

I did a couple of more approaches but didn’t hook. I was happy that I did my 10 approaches except I didn’t approach that one girl that gave me a boner as soon as I saw her. This sucks.

Overall good, I am smiling more and more every night (good tool to approach), I need to work on w/ my AA. The plowing went better and smoother.
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 March 12 2010

Today I went to the neon Cactus w/ my buddy. The night started ok, we started to talk to some random people; I was starting to get in talking mode but I did find myself relying on my buddy to much. Like I would say lets go talk to those HB ove there, he would say: let me finish this beer, ill grab a smoke and then will talk to girls. The night was still young it was about 12:34 am, I eject from my buddy who was smoking a fag to start approaching HB. I go to the dance floor start pumping my state, open a girl: Im Diego who the fuck are you? she says something and tells me that she is w/ her boyfriend, I reply w/: ok make out w/ him I need prove, the girl grabs the her boyfriend and starts making out very passionately. Fuck. I eject and then I proceed to just walk around the dance floor w/ out approaching any girl. I get stuck in my head because I know I have outcome dependency, from there on I go back to were my buddy is.

From there on, it was blow out after blow out. Instead of me leading the interaction I was relying on my buddy to lead the interaction and he was doing the same shit. I ended up approaching 3 more sets by myself but for some reason I have found out that I feel not worthy of HB. This is some fuck up shit! and because of this I get stuck in my head and I don not enjoy the now or the HB. From now on, I just rather go out by myself. Going out w/ my buddy is just harming me, our internal compasses do not point in the same direction. This sucks! I have tried to get him into RSD but he is not interested, he says he got that shit handled soI am not going to push it any more. 
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 March 13 2010

Today I went out alone to the bars. It feels better to go out by myself because Its just me against the music. Before heading out I decided to do a newbie mission, 10 approaches in 2 hours. I  head out to the WE bar around 11:30 pm, I get there and its completely empty (spring brake) there is only a couple of girls. So I am like fuck it  lets do this ( I feel more at ease with myself when I am alone) I opened 2 set sitting at the bar, It was a good interact I lead the interaction until it finally hook, so they started to talk about how happy they were that they were going to Bahamas for spring brake, I was like good for you(sarcastic tone) I am not going anywhere I am going to stay here and work ( Im like $400 away for my bootcamp).. So they fucking felt bad for me and gave me a hug. WTF is this shit, we talk a little more and ended up ejecting. I was reacting to them way to much. I decide to go and check the other bars, they are completely empty only like 4 to 5 sets, I ended up going back to WE bar. It has 20 more people than before, I opened 2 cougars that were dancing but that was going no where so I eject. the night ended w/ me sitting at the drinking beer watching the semi finals of college basketball. Purdue lost btw =(.

It felt good going out by myself but I feel that I am not pushing the interaction that much, I truly need to work on this. 
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