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nestea

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cant wait to get to work today. man...how often have i ever said that? here and there im sure. but today i just NEED to get to work. call is in exactly 1 hour. gunna miss the rangers game probably but thts ok. right now im watching back to the future part 3 on hbo. so nice to have commericaless tv. sooo nice. straght up chillen before work. luddat.

in other news,  have no grls on the block. MAYBE 1, but not really. kind of depressing not gunna lie. i miss the touch and skin of a beautiful woman. arg. thats really all im missing right now. but it can wat a few months tll i get my shit more together. id rather have it now tho lol. i love how last week was total pimp status and this week was the complete oppisate. u gotta hate that shit sometimes.
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this song just pretty much sums what what im feeling at this point in time.
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 worked my fucking dick off this week. the dog days are behind me. could be an epic weekend. has the potential to be, but we'll see what actually happens. im done with the little one. ive had enough. unless shes sends me a text saying lets fuck i am not answering or talking to her any longer. i will not be blabing english at her anymore. i dont play games. i never have and im not starting now. she blew it.  i gave her way to many chances anyway and she prettty much took advantage of me. kind of sucks but i wanted to get laid.

"how do u get better at sex? have more sex"-jeffy allen

thats what was going thru my mind so im not upset with myself. nonetheless im over and done with it. shes young and dumb and not gettig smarter anytime soon. so have fun bitch. hopefully she just forgets about me. she wont.

anyway im working on a new girl. it seems like when one is gone another one rises to the surface. its great but now its just getting annoying becasue they usually flake out as girls usually do. which brings me to my next topic. 

ive been kind of bitter towards girls lately. im really starting to look down on them. i dont give a fuck if its wrong right fair or unfair, this is how im choosing to look at things. im sick of bitches and their stupid shit. their so fucking dumb!!! someone reading this may think im an asshole, good. i am an asshole. fuck it. ive never been one before but now im starting to see it in myself. i love it and i dont care. darklight. fuck yew bitch.



monies:

im almost out of debt. this week was brutal but it was a crucial step in getting the fuck out of credit card ebt once and for all. once im done with this shit, my life will be lightyears better. i cant even imagine, I want to get out of it more then anything ever. its been dragging me down for YEARS, and im about a month away from breaking the fuck out of this monkeybusiness once and for all! seriosuly, once im out of ccd, look the fuck out werld.
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hanging out in my room in wayne
listening to house music on my headphones
makin fewd
just got back from the shore 6 hours ago, awesome night....but its now in the past
gunna finish watching training day soon
i have 3 new text messages from a girl i wanna fuck really badly.
im not gunna read them yet lol.
another girl ive always wanted is starting to hit me up quite often. yay,
im starting to feel really confident and comfortable in my own body. eveyday is better and better. gotta love that shit.
gotta keep on the grind of making money. i think the pool guy has had enough off me, and thats fine cuz ive kind of had enough of him. whatever appens with that is whatever. i will continue to focus on hoodz and bs.
im now starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel for my finances. im on the home stretch of getting the fuck out of my silly as credit card debt. much work needs to still be done, but i can finally say the worst is behind me.
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realy starting to get my shit together here im starting to figure out what works an what doesnt work.  havent been smoking weed which really helpss socialy. really gotta keep that shit in moderation, i LOVE to smoke but cannot do it everyday if i want to have an awesome life. its definitly good for me to smoke here and there but i gotta stick to what i know, and that is too keep that shit in motherfuckin moderation!  got 2 new girls on the block. 1 i really have a chance with and the other i have no idea. im just gunna keep my cool and see what happens. being with girls costs money eiter way you look at it. weather ur driving to their house after work instead of going home and relaxing and being groggy for work in the am, weather its taking her out for an awesome night, or doing things with her so shit dosent get stale. yes there are nights u dont have to spend a dime and still be with her but that cannt and willnot be the norm. girls wanna do shit and so do i. im not mr. pay for everything but i am a generous person. theres nothing wrong with that either.

god im so fucking happy to be writing right now. i feel this journal has really helped my personal development.

anyway what else is going on. gunna be struggling to pay the rent at the end of the week but this should be the last time that s the case.  june has to be a huge month for me money wise, but after june i cant stop there. work hard till my birthday and take a week off? perhaps.

girls:

their so funny. im starting to get more and more mental leverage over them every day. like. i used to be scared and intimidated and gave a shit. now i couldnt really care less about them. they come and go, they really do. i dont even hook up with them half the time, their just shitty as friends sometimes. maybe im just unaware that there is always sexual tension? whatever. woudlnt want it any other way.
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 went out last night in my hometown, places were DEAD. kind of weird. my friend jill came out so i got to look at her big tits for a bit, but other then that there was nothing to speak of.  kind of pissed me off cuz now im all tan and delicious. figures. ill be going out tonight in the town i currently reside in with my buddy. thats the plan anyway, we'll see what 'appenz.
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layin low tonight. saturday night in june and here i sit. haha. its alright though. i got work tomorrow and i want to be fresh. sort of blew off a girl tonight but not really. it will be fine. infact i think its the better move considering i already ignored anothr girl this week. weird week i gotta say. definitly wasnt pimping it. good day at work though, hopefully tomorrow will be just as good if not better.  might watch a movie soon. very rarely am i home on a saturday night, but tonight will be one of THOSE nights. ah well. this time last week i was having an awesome time dts so fuck it. this week i rest.
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 so i slept for about 11 hours last night. big mistake. fuck that shit. im convinced 7 is the sweet spot. 5 is good too. sometimes we need to rest our body but being out for that long is pretty pointles. i was definitly not sharp and in a good mood at work today. i wasnt in a bad mood persay but i wasnt as sharp as i usually am. fuck it i made 120 bucks today. 

tomorrow i make about 50 and hopefully get paid 200 cash that is owed to me. sending a text on that right now....prtobably not tomorow. oh well. 

what else is not going on

on the home stretch of getting my "shit together" pretty excited about my future here. i still have plenty left to change and evolve and whatnot. im really starting to feel good these days OVERALL.  just gotta keep on keepin on as they say. im not letting girls distract me right now either which is new for me. ive actually kind of blown off a couple this week. kind of sad that is has to come to this to be honest. it really is.  life is like a chess game sometimes when it should be more like chillen in a hot tub. 


anyway back to the future

i think by the time summer is over and we go into fall, just like last year, these will be big change. i feel it comming thats what she said. but for real i feel a major shift comming on. its pretty cewl.  just gotta keep moving forward, make the best decesions possible, and then keep moving forward. time is tickin away baby. weather u try not to keep track of it or not, its ticking the fuck away. so always be moving forward, with the flow of shit. find your own flow. and when u find it, dont let it go, press on, fucking keep that shit going no matter what. no matter what. because you never know when your going to find it again. 
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 Practicing the Power of Now. Not the Power of Now 
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Manwhore wrote:
 Practicing the Power of Now. Not the Power of Now 
lol wut?


WEDNESDAY JUNE 6TH 2012:

1 or 2 girls currently on "the block" as i like to call it. havent really talked to them lately but i have good feelings that i might be hooking up with at least one of them eventually this summer. other then that tho im free. im not "with" anyone right now.  i dont have to worry about a fucking around behind my back, making time for her, going out, etc. its just me. i have money now. i have 2 good jobs. i have a nice working car, i have my own place. shit is good, yet kind of boring!!! haha. i am never bored either. today tho, i am bored. weird. ill take this boredom for now tho. much better to be bored then to be stressin about girls and bills. this is a first for me where i have no stress about bills or girls, and its only taken me.....almost 10 years. jesus christ. im not out of the woods yet eith money but im on the home stretch. by july i should be broken out of the chains for the most part. i still have to pay off my car but whatever. the thing about that is i can sell my car and pay it in full.even tho i wont, i could, so it dosent concern me. 

other then that. no complains. i want to get back into meditation, reading, and working out again. not yet but soon. also gotta get back to my regular diet which has taken the back seat a little bit lately. nonetheless im still on the right track with it, so thats a huge plus. 
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