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nestea

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 well bob proctor has inspired me a bit here. its funny casue last week i came into a bit of money that has really helped me out and helped me re-fucking lax. a few days later i found him on youtube. 



so now i have money (again) im tan, and im in the best shape of my life. im ready to roll motherfucker. its spring. my car works beautifully, i have money, a working cell phone and a decent job. 

lets fucking do this


19,439 days till im 75
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nestea

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 bob proctor rapes

him+own cook=success although there have been a major number of other positive influences. i always used to think that having a role model is lame and its for boridng dumb ass kids. but not so much looking up to, but at least following and learning from certain people will change the way you do things, it will change your life. i try to be like certain people now. and its working well. a few names would include ryan callahan, henrik lundqvist, derek jeter,tyler, bbo proctor, joe rogan, george carlin, ben franklin, thomas jefferson, eli manning, donald trump, ari gold haha.


anyway not much to talk about in the girls department right now. and thats probably a good thing. i have a few sources of income now. going to be tough to juggle it all but i will do my best. i dont wanna overdo it too much.  i do have more energy these days tho. 


going to continue to focus on work and skewl. main priorities right now. taking care of my car is also on top of the list. gettin rich, one day at a time. i like where im at right now. going to continue to improve and as we head into april im going to be doing a few more things to improve myself. its going to be a big month. its pudding of potential. im actually really pumped about this. good shit is happening. after a really shit start to the year it all seems worth it now.  anyways. ill be out of debt soon then i can really do some serious shit. i can see the light at the end of the tunnel. finally. its only a couple months away at most. yay.
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 all im saying is u can go through life making a little money or u can make a lot of money. the choice is yours. what you chose to do is your own business. but im chosing to make a lot of money. a monk praying in a cave all day can chose to make no money. either one is OK. as long as you are HAPPY. is this not correct? its tough to argue with,
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 been working like a madman lately. i fuckin love it. good-fucking-bye unemployment. and as an added bonus (and i know this might sound gay) but ive been seeing 0 girls and talking to just about 0 as well. its like they have all been removed from my life except for a few decent ones in my math class. yes this is kind of weird, but im taking a "break" from them. i believe it is needed for the time being. it may be crazy, it may make total sense. i dont really know right now but im doing it. its tough especally when im going to incorporate special new rules into my life in april. i believe it will be the biggest month of my life. infact up to this point, april 2012 will be the most important month of my life. its always good to realize this a day or two before the month starts to. it helps you mentally prepare and get some momentium going.  no doubt the biggest month ever. lol its pretty ridiclious. not gunna lie theres 2 girls kind of on the block right now. i want to put their name in here but im not going to. anyway i think shit could go down soon with either one. im not counting on it though. just saying if theres any girl or girls out there right now that would be next it would probably be one of those two. wow i know ive been doing the complete oppisate of what "the community" would say to do but i dont really care. ive had no interest trying to persue a girl lately. ive had enough for a while. now i know this shit is supposed to be about girls, and in a way it is, but im reaching for something bigger right now, which will in turn get me the type of girls i truely want. becasue thats when i show my true colors. not when im after some girl just to raise my count, but when im after a girl and getting other kind of raise ;)
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 hi

ok so big week ahead of me. then again this entire month is filled with "big weeks." im trying to pay of the rest of my bills, stat. getting really fucking close. im getting my hair cut this week. sounds minor but it really needs it. ive been letting it grow for months. this will be a sober month for the most part. there will be little to no facebook. only homework and real work. thats it. its very simple. its so simple is not even funny, but i am pretty excited about this. like, the opportunity to close this ugly chapter in my life is right in front of my face. its in my hands. this debt has been lingering for years. yay

anyway not much to report. april should be pretty black and white. less weed, less drinking, more work. kinda sucks but it will be worth it. sadly i wont be focusing on girls. that will be next month :)
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 not much to say i guess. ive been feeling good lately.  believe it or not over the past year or two ive been a lot happier then ive been probably ever. a lot of things have contributed to this...too many to name.  anyway i continue to try to maintain this level that im at, and just put my head down and work. now work is good, but school is another story. im not even going there right now lol. ive been thinking lately about how hard it is to truely not give a fuck about life and what happens. as long as you are surviving you shoudlnt care about what else goes on. i find myself trying to ignore people more often these days. i find what they have to say ive already heard a million times, its cliche, or just plain boring. i just havent been in soical mood lately i guess. nonetheless i want to snap out of this daze im in soon. i need to get sharp. sharp. thats one of my new favirote words btw. 

i cant believe how much im enjoying work. even today on kid of a shitty day, me being tired mentally and physically among other things, i still handled it well. it was all good. a little anxious at times but whatever. im in control of myself for the most part. i still have some work to do but most of us dew. lately tho ive been a working machine. it feels good. its all i want to do right now. i cant stand school anymore. im debating weather to finish my degree or say fuck it. if i say fuck it id have to move out. i want to finish but att he same time i find this math bullshit pointless. i guess i should just stop being such a and just do it. ive come this far i guess to just drop it would be pretty silly. its funny. girls distract me from school, work distracts me from girls. speaking of that though, one of my two new jobs requires parking cars for people. naturally i see many people every time im at work. this is great for me. i have an excuse to talk to people and make money, including girls.  its always nice to have an excuse to talk to really hot girls. unfortunally i try to be a good honest human, so naturally i dont pull an "evil stiffer" and fuck the girls. it would be nice to do once tho.  this job actually is just awesome all the way around. im so lucky to have this job too. im grateful for every day i work there. it sucks at times but not really. and id say its stressful 2 percent of the time. but if u just slow the fuck down you will be iight. the important part for me is to stay consistant. im there to work not to dick around. this means smoking, wandering, watching the playoffs on down time (fuck it im doing it anyway). be respectful and semi quiet. i only talk sometimes so they dont think im a complete weirdo. i mean honeslty i would probably barely ever talk but u know people, always thinking the quieter people are weird. u gotta fit in a little bit at this job. this is another big weekend for me here. i pretty much know what im doing now and theres no excuses. im still new but i want to act like a vetern withotu steping on anyones toes. i want to be pretty well rested and well prepared. i have two exhaust cleaning jobs and 2 days of valet.  just do it sonnnn.
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 hit up a pretty good party last night for the first time in what seemed to be forever. went with 2 lady friends. one of them i was expecting to hook up with at some point during the night and it just did not happen. met a few girls at teh party and bullshitted a little bit. i was definitly feeling good and pretty social but i still felt a myself holding back a little. its difficult to really put my finger on, but its like i was operating at maybe 70 percent efficiency instead of 100 percent. i guess lack of party momentium. idk. i had a fun night though. i contributed to making the fire outside which always feels pretty cewl, i got 5 people to do kegstands including a couple of really....alright 1 really cute girl hahhaa. anyway the night went on, it was honeslty a really solid party. it really has been a long ass time since ive been to a good house party on a friday night. i was dressed a little too nice though. whatever. i wanted to stay all night but the girls wanted to go home, so we left around 130. i talked to a few hot girls throughout the night. i did decent but nowhere near pulling status. i asked this one girl if she wanted to makeout and she laughed and said no. she wanted it. i didnt push enough for it though. i wasnt really even that serious in the first place haha.  my verbal game needs some work. verbal game, outer game, whatever. i think it might be my last sticking point before i start to see some serious results. 
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i havent really hooked up with a girl yet this year. i had a little bit of fun in the begenning of the year but it was really nothing. a few handjobs and makeouts. ok now some people will read this and think "oh only a handjob and makeout, what a fucking tool" but here is where it gets weird

ok yes when i was still with the little girl in the begenning of the year she would play with my dick and shit. we didnt fuck casue apparently she was on her way to go with another guy. obviously i was picking up on this. but during this time we would still hang out a bit. u can probably read about it right here in this journal i should go take a look when im done writing this. anyway, lots of shitty feelings and bad thoughts going thru my head at the time. i felt horrible and it was a horrible feeling, mainly casue i didnt really have a job, unemployment was about to run out, the only in my life was leaving me. so it was a mix of bullshit, BUT. hooking up with her was not satisfying. so therefor i dont really count that hooking up as anyway positive. this is why i say it was really nothing.


so the little girl i dont even hang out with anymore, the other one is just plain weird and i have decided to close the book on it. so yeah. i look and feel really good lately but alas, no pussay. whatever. this time last year i was still basically a vergin so im def. in a better place then that hahaha. nonetheless i need to get laid STAT. i dont understand why i dont have a number of girls in my life. i think i just need to be a bit more assertive and get rid of this indirect thing. i like being indirect,but like tyler id rather be direct any day of the week. liek the other night when i asked that girl to makeout and she said no but she was laughing. i should of just stayed there and fucked around with her, instead i walk away, even tho i was walking away before i even saw her. it dosent matter, i could of been banging her later that night if i was any good lol. she had a slammin body tho and she was just super hot so i was kind of intimidated i guess. whatever its in the past now. 

oh yea last night i ran into an old fling. well a girl i had a thing for and made out with once. thats as far as i got. anyway i saw her really randomly last night a few towns over at a small bonfire. my life is truely a movie sometimes. i got a fb message from her this mornign saying it was nice to wake up to my text and she thanked me with a smile. sweet. yay good feelingz i truely love that girl yet i know nothing will probably ever happen. im fine with that i guess. i probably wont reply but it was nice of her. 


to be continued as long as i live another day....
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Hey man, how often are you going out?

I totally understand about wanting to get everything sorted in your life... Lately I've been struggling to get the balance right myself. But one thing I've realized in the last couple weeks is that the amount of success I'm getting is directly related to how often I go out and how hard i push it when I do.

I'm sure you know the deal, just a friendly reminder =) 
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LethalLex wrote:
Hey man, how often are you going out?

I totally understand about wanting to get everything sorted in your life... Lately I've been struggling to get the balance right myself. But one thing I've realized in the last couple weeks is that the amount of success I'm getting is directly related to how often I go out and how hard i push it when I do.

I'm sure you know the deal, just a friendly reminder =) 
im out pretty much every day. bars and clubs i dont really go to that often though. but then again summer is coming up and thats when i go to those places way more often and alas, i usually get moar during the summer months!
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