THE FORUMS
Friday - 20 November
Went out to meet my best buddy Zebra, his girlfriend and his girlfriends sister. I join them an hour after they meet up. As I enter the bar,
I feel a little nervous for some reason. Negative flashbacks happen. Wave it off - whatever happens, happens. Get a beer and chat the crew up.
Her sister is hot. Has a boyfriend. Damn. Oh well.
Head out to an art viewing. Drink some champagne. Pretty decent, continue talking with the guys. Nothing special.
Talk a little bit with some random strangers. Drink some more champagne.
Me and Z decide to head out and converge with one of my oldest buddies P to go to a sick club called Bombardier that's located in a bunker.
Get there. DAMN there are some hot bitches here!
Get in, run my shit.
I have a very strange vibe about me, a feeling that's almost become a tradition. Fridays are almost always like this - a combination of being tired
and not being in the right gear. I feel really flimsy and uncentered but make a quick decision to do give it my best anyway. Sooner or later it has to drop.
Highlights:
* Talking to some non attractive girl. I lose interest, lift up her skirt and look under it. She gets fake pissy and walks away. Five minutes later, a guy comes up
and asks me if I had lifted a girls skirt up. I say yes, I'm sorry about that. He's like "Go tell that to my friend". I was like fine. This guy was 1/4 my size - and I'm
by no means a big guy - but I had no problem with letting him be "the hero". I go over, tell her I'm sorry and that it's just that her presence excited me so
much. Give her a big kiss on the cheek and watch her melt in my hand. Walk away.
* Z starts talking to some girl (I think partly because he wants me to pick up her friend?). This girl is super into him but not that attractive and Z has a semi-girlfriend
so when I see the fear in his face, I try to cockblock deluxe. I physically get in the way of her, I tell her "If you want to hang out with him, you have to have sex with him".
I keep pushing that same note. Physically pushing her away again and again, but she's sticking like glue.
* See a mixed 2-set. Ask them if they're together. They're not. "Awesome, so then I can be really obvious when I hit on your girl friend". Great vibe. We talk about sex
and she throws out, out of the blue, that she's a dancer. I kiss her, she's receptive, but it's awkward for some reason. I'm not fully into it. Break away and say good night.
I've noticed that in the beginning of the night, when I have the most energy, I tend to get the worst results. As the night progresses, and I get more and more tired,
I simply stop caring what happens and suddenly the sets just click. Strange relation. I guess the optimal thing would be to not care right from the start.
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PS This is my first journal entry. They'll get shorter and more relevant than this, I promise. DS
Went out to meet my best buddy Zebra, his girlfriend and his girlfriends sister. I join them an hour after they meet up. As I enter the bar,
I feel a little nervous for some reason. Negative flashbacks happen. Wave it off - whatever happens, happens. Get a beer and chat the crew up.
Her sister is hot. Has a boyfriend. Damn. Oh well.
Head out to an art viewing. Drink some champagne. Pretty decent, continue talking with the guys. Nothing special.
Talk a little bit with some random strangers. Drink some more champagne.
Me and Z decide to head out and converge with one of my oldest buddies P to go to a sick club called Bombardier that's located in a bunker.
Get there. DAMN there are some hot bitches here!
Get in, run my shit.
I have a very strange vibe about me, a feeling that's almost become a tradition. Fridays are almost always like this - a combination of being tired
and not being in the right gear. I feel really flimsy and uncentered but make a quick decision to do give it my best anyway. Sooner or later it has to drop.
Highlights:
* Talking to some non attractive girl. I lose interest, lift up her skirt and look under it. She gets fake pissy and walks away. Five minutes later, a guy comes up
and asks me if I had lifted a girls skirt up. I say yes, I'm sorry about that. He's like "Go tell that to my friend". I was like fine. This guy was 1/4 my size - and I'm
by no means a big guy - but I had no problem with letting him be "the hero". I go over, tell her I'm sorry and that it's just that her presence excited me so
much. Give her a big kiss on the cheek and watch her melt in my hand. Walk away.
* Z starts talking to some girl (I think partly because he wants me to pick up her friend?). This girl is super into him but not that attractive and Z has a semi-girlfriend
so when I see the fear in his face, I try to cockblock deluxe. I physically get in the way of her, I tell her "If you want to hang out with him, you have to have sex with him".
I keep pushing that same note. Physically pushing her away again and again, but she's sticking like glue.
* See a mixed 2-set. Ask them if they're together. They're not. "Awesome, so then I can be really obvious when I hit on your girl friend". Great vibe. We talk about sex
and she throws out, out of the blue, that she's a dancer. I kiss her, she's receptive, but it's awkward for some reason. I'm not fully into it. Break away and say good night.
I've noticed that in the beginning of the night, when I have the most energy, I tend to get the worst results. As the night progresses, and I get more and more tired,
I simply stop caring what happens and suddenly the sets just click. Strange relation. I guess the optimal thing would be to not care right from the start.
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PS This is my first journal entry. They'll get shorter and more relevant than this, I promise. DS
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Saturday 21 November
Was on a "Finlands Färja" (Finnish cruise) with Stockholm Crew. I've been trying to get the guys together for a while now but random bullshit has stepped in the way all the time.
Finally, we made it work! This boat is all about getting shitfaced and fucking girls. That's *ALL* you do. My buddy even calls it the "Fuck-Container".
I'm not a guy that's an avid drinker, but I had decided to let loose and try the boundaries on this trip, and did I do that. I got stupid drunk and found myself walking the fine line of
pouring more alcohol into my body and not barfing my intestines out. This of course led to a complete removal of inhibition on my part and I started macking on pretty much everyone.
I think I've never in my life made out with so many girls I haven't been attracted to.
FUN HIGHLIGHTS:
* Zebra and his "deep comforting" of girls. Bascially he pulled like a bunch of girls to our cabin and just talked with them. LULZ! Funny stuff!
* I coined a new term for white people / scandinavian trash. I call them snow-niggers now.
* We all saw Jibbers cock way more than we're supposed to. I also saw him happier than whilst getting head by a girl.
* At one point, we we're six guys hanging out with two cute girls. It was funny how the guys were clawing the girls left and right.
I found it hard to push through the "barrier". Zebra told me on the way home that he doesn't see me having the same "belief" I used to have back in the day, and I know that's true.
I definitely feel the difference. WhoreLord suggested that it could be that "I'm not on my path" and that probably has something to do with it, but I think a guy can get laid regardless of that.
I haven't gotten laid in a while and I have no girls that I'm bouncing around and I think that that is reflected in what I do and the vibe I express.
Short term I'm just going to focus on grabbing numbers and getting a rotation going so I can naturally drop these needy vibes and mental ghosts that are stopping me.
I feel like a train that's revving up. It requires stupid amounts of energy to get a train rolling, but once it has it's momentum, it almost rolls by itself.
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Saturday 21 November
Was on a "Finlands Färja" (Finnish cruise) with Stockholm Crew. I've been trying to get the guys together for a while now but random bullshit has stepped in the way all the time.
Finally, we made it work! This boat is all about getting shitfaced and fucking girls. That's *ALL* you do. My buddy even calls it the "Fuck-Container".
I'm not a guy that's an avid drinker, but I had decided to let loose and try the boundaries on this trip, and did I do that. I got stupid drunk and found myself walking the fine line of
pouring more alcohol into my body and not barfing my intestines out. This of course led to a complete removal of inhibition on my part and I started macking on pretty much everyone.
I think I've never in my life made out with so many girls I haven't been attracted to.
FUN HIGHLIGHTS:
* Zebra and his "deep comforting" of girls. Bascially he pulled like a bunch of girls to our cabin and just talked with them. LULZ! Funny stuff!
* I coined a new term for white people / scandinavian trash. I call them snow-niggers now.
* We all saw Jibbers cock way more than we're supposed to. I also saw him happier than whilst getting head by a girl.
* At one point, we we're six guys hanging out with two cute girls. It was funny how the guys were clawing the girls left and right.
I found it hard to push through the "barrier". Zebra told me on the way home that he doesn't see me having the same "belief" I used to have back in the day, and I know that's true.
I definitely feel the difference. WhoreLord suggested that it could be that "I'm not on my path" and that probably has something to do with it, but I think a guy can get laid regardless of that.
I haven't gotten laid in a while and I have no girls that I'm bouncing around and I think that that is reflected in what I do and the vibe I express.
Short term I'm just going to focus on grabbing numbers and getting a rotation going so I can naturally drop these needy vibes and mental ghosts that are stopping me.
I feel like a train that's revving up. It requires stupid amounts of energy to get a train rolling, but once it has it's momentum, it almost rolls by itself.
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Be cool + balls. - Kilo
Expression not impression. - Alex
Game is for chodes + Stop pretending to be a chode. - Ryan
Making Stockholm Dangerous || 30Day Celebration / again || How to properly Ghost Wing
Stockholm Crew || Just Do It || Music that should be on your iPod
Expression not impression. - Alex
Game is for chodes + Stop pretending to be a chode. - Ryan
Making Stockholm Dangerous || 30Day Celebration / again || How to properly Ghost Wing
Stockholm Crew || Just Do It || Music that should be on your iPod
Friday - 28th November
After coming home from the hamster-wheel of life, I was really tired. Took a three hour nap that on one hand was really nice,
but on the other hand completely messed my energies up.
I was NOT feeling it when I was about to head out, and the thought of staying at home arose at least a dozen times.
A certain thought always arises when I'm trying to avoid going out: "What can I do that is more important than this, but that can help my life?"
I used to always answer "Work on my business" and that felt like a valid excuse. But of course, since I'm now trying to answer that question
with heaps of bullshit answers like "I have to study" or "I need to read a book", I know the whole question is invalid.
Finally, I decided that I was going out regardless. If I don't feel like doing anything then fine, but at least I'm going out.
I made a decision of going out two times per week regardless of outer conditions and I'm going to stick to it.
Said and done. I met up Zebra for a beer and we had some discussions about life.
Got home early, no "sarging" tonight.
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After coming home from the hamster-wheel of life, I was really tired. Took a three hour nap that on one hand was really nice,
but on the other hand completely messed my energies up.
I was NOT feeling it when I was about to head out, and the thought of staying at home arose at least a dozen times.
A certain thought always arises when I'm trying to avoid going out: "What can I do that is more important than this, but that can help my life?"
I used to always answer "Work on my business" and that felt like a valid excuse. But of course, since I'm now trying to answer that question
with heaps of bullshit answers like "I have to study" or "I need to read a book", I know the whole question is invalid.
Finally, I decided that I was going out regardless. If I don't feel like doing anything then fine, but at least I'm going out.
I made a decision of going out two times per week regardless of outer conditions and I'm going to stick to it.
Said and done. I met up Zebra for a beer and we had some discussions about life.
Got home early, no "sarging" tonight.
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Saturday 29th November
I made plans with a girl tonight, a really cute blonde I met at Debaser a couple of weeks ago.
We met up at a bar in the bar district and started chatting. In my head, I felt the vibe was slightly off in the beginning,
but later on I just decided to accept it and let it be what it was.
We started chatting about nothing in particular. After 45 minutes or so, I suggested we go to another place for another
beer. Said and done, we walk into this really peculiar beerbar, where they serve all sorts of strange brews you've never head of before.
It was actually a great place to take a girl, because both the layout of the bar (crowded + small space = intimate) and the peculiarness
of the place had a sort of conversational value in itself. So we hang out there for a while, I talk with "my" girl and I talk a little bit with
the other people in the bar.
After a while, it's getting time for me to move out, I tell her I'm going to meet some friends and we're going out. She's like
"I'm going over to a friends house, you should come with!". I told her no, I already said I was coming so I'm going, but I'll
give you a call in a while maybe we can meet up.
So meet up Mathias and Jibber, try to get into a club. But after visiting two different humoungous queues for two clubs
(This weekend is what the Swedish people call "Löningshelg", paycheck-weekend), I give up and give the
girl a call. She tells me to come over.
Said and done, head over. Get to her friends place and I'm greeted by four girls. They are all really friendly, one of them is also really cute.
We hang out with them for a while before heading to the subway.
Hammertime:
We get on to the tube and it's really crowded so naturally we get really close. At one point, I look into her eyes and her eyes are BEGGING me to kiss her.
What do I do? Look the other way and create distance! Fuck!
We get off, waiting for my tube, and I make a decision to act regardless of what happens, and I kiss her. We make out for a little while and she heads on home.
I felt she was primed, I felt that she'd come along wherever I'd take her, but I didn't have anywhere to take her, so the night ended there.
Highlights:
* I've noticed that a lot of the times when I meet someone through social acquaintance, I tend to screen them REALLY REALLY hard. Like tonight, when I
met her friends, I was almost giving one of the girls (the cutest one) a really hard time in the sense that she had to work for my validation and it went really great!
It's funny how counterintuitive that is. You'd think that "being nice" is the best way to make a favourable impression on a friendly level, but turns out, this is much
more effective.
* It felt fucking GREAT to be out on a date again. It felt really, really good to revalidate that part of my masculine essence once again.
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I made plans with a girl tonight, a really cute blonde I met at Debaser a couple of weeks ago.
We met up at a bar in the bar district and started chatting. In my head, I felt the vibe was slightly off in the beginning,
but later on I just decided to accept it and let it be what it was.
We started chatting about nothing in particular. After 45 minutes or so, I suggested we go to another place for another
beer. Said and done, we walk into this really peculiar beerbar, where they serve all sorts of strange brews you've never head of before.
It was actually a great place to take a girl, because both the layout of the bar (crowded + small space = intimate) and the peculiarness
of the place had a sort of conversational value in itself. So we hang out there for a while, I talk with "my" girl and I talk a little bit with
the other people in the bar.
After a while, it's getting time for me to move out, I tell her I'm going to meet some friends and we're going out. She's like
"I'm going over to a friends house, you should come with!". I told her no, I already said I was coming so I'm going, but I'll
give you a call in a while maybe we can meet up.
So meet up Mathias and Jibber, try to get into a club. But after visiting two different humoungous queues for two clubs
(This weekend is what the Swedish people call "Löningshelg", paycheck-weekend), I give up and give the
girl a call. She tells me to come over.
Said and done, head over. Get to her friends place and I'm greeted by four girls. They are all really friendly, one of them is also really cute.
We hang out with them for a while before heading to the subway.
Hammertime:
We get on to the tube and it's really crowded so naturally we get really close. At one point, I look into her eyes and her eyes are BEGGING me to kiss her.
What do I do? Look the other way and create distance! Fuck!
We get off, waiting for my tube, and I make a decision to act regardless of what happens, and I kiss her. We make out for a little while and she heads on home.
I felt she was primed, I felt that she'd come along wherever I'd take her, but I didn't have anywhere to take her, so the night ended there.
Highlights:
* I've noticed that a lot of the times when I meet someone through social acquaintance, I tend to screen them REALLY REALLY hard. Like tonight, when I
met her friends, I was almost giving one of the girls (the cutest one) a really hard time in the sense that she had to work for my validation and it went really great!
It's funny how counterintuitive that is. You'd think that "being nice" is the best way to make a favourable impression on a friendly level, but turns out, this is much
more effective.
* It felt fucking GREAT to be out on a date again. It felt really, really good to revalidate that part of my masculine essence once again.
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Wednesday - 2rd December
Went out with a bunch of school people and Zebra to Café Opera.
Talked to some girls but most of the sets were kind of awkward. Like me going into my head going "What should I say?",
but I decided to do what I came her to do anyway.
Most notable sets:
* Approached a real socially considered hottie: Have a normal conversation at first, then she starts to shit test me, throwing random shit out.
"I'm a lesbian", "I want to fuck you", "You're making me turned on" etc. This was at the beginning of the night and I was not prepared for any
of it at all. Failed miserably, but it was great to see such obvious shit testing from a hot girl.
* Best set of the night was probably when I just acted on impulse, I screamed out "JEANETTE!" to a girl that looked like a girl I almost knew before.
Then I tell my friend loudly "That girl looks like a girl a girl I had a crush on!". The girls continue walking by, but I see that the reacted to it.
30 seconds later, they're sitting next to me. Start talking with them a bit, going good.
One of my school buddies is with me though, and I feel that if I'm going to effectively work the set, I need to cut my buddy off because he's dead
weight in this context and focus on the girls. But I don't want to do that because I like this dude, so I head on into the dancefloor with my friend again.
Later on, I reinitiate, but then the spontinaety of the moment was gone. I had gone inside my head trying to pull out shit to say and do.
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As a last note: I have to get better at writing the entries in this journal, and writing them right after going out.
The longer you wait, the less you get out of reflecting over it.
Went out with a bunch of school people and Zebra to Café Opera.
Talked to some girls but most of the sets were kind of awkward. Like me going into my head going "What should I say?",
but I decided to do what I came her to do anyway.
Most notable sets:
* Approached a real socially considered hottie: Have a normal conversation at first, then she starts to shit test me, throwing random shit out.
"I'm a lesbian", "I want to fuck you", "You're making me turned on" etc. This was at the beginning of the night and I was not prepared for any
of it at all. Failed miserably, but it was great to see such obvious shit testing from a hot girl.
* Best set of the night was probably when I just acted on impulse, I screamed out "JEANETTE!" to a girl that looked like a girl I almost knew before.
Then I tell my friend loudly "That girl looks like a girl a girl I had a crush on!". The girls continue walking by, but I see that the reacted to it.
30 seconds later, they're sitting next to me. Start talking with them a bit, going good.
One of my school buddies is with me though, and I feel that if I'm going to effectively work the set, I need to cut my buddy off because he's dead
weight in this context and focus on the girls. But I don't want to do that because I like this dude, so I head on into the dancefloor with my friend again.
Later on, I reinitiate, but then the spontinaety of the moment was gone. I had gone inside my head trying to pull out shit to say and do.
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As a last note: I have to get better at writing the entries in this journal, and writing them right after going out.
The longer you wait, the less you get out of reflecting over it.
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Just to note, my new name is Viktor- :) JiBBeR, who is that ? :)
great journal btw.. OUT TONIGHT FTW!
great journal btw.. OUT TONIGHT FTW!
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Join Date: 11/26/2007 | Posts: 340
I think that there are some major benefits of sharing my observations with my buddies, and gathering all of my observations
in one place in it self is probably a great way of seeing how I develope.
Short Background: Back in the day (1,5-2,5 years ago), I used to go out all the time. Going out was like going to the gym.
For certain reasons I stopped going out systematically and became more of a dabbler, with me taking a complete break
of a couple of months during the summer.
Now I'm starting to go out again and I'm building momentum, but I'm sta
GOALS:
* Go out 2 times / week.
* Enlarge my social circle.
* Get a rotation going.
* Start dating/day2ing again.
* Go out by myself at least twice.
* Become a guy that experiences fear but acts anyway.
* Become more rooted in myself.
* Get ultra sharp social skills.
* Get my own apartment
More to come as I come up with stuff.
"YEAH DAWG, I saw the blueprint too" - Scale