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yeah alex NICE
i'll be watching this, still jealous of your tavelling :)
what happened on that saturday night, was it that bad?? :P
i'll be watching this, still jealous of your tavelling :)
what happened on that saturday night, was it that bad?? :P
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The BEARD of the BRIGADE
My Journal 2009... let's do this and how i turned my life around.
My bootcamp Vomiting timez with Brad- and the best blog on pickup and lifestyle: bradbranson.com
The BEARD of the BRIGADE
My Journal 2009... let's do this and how i turned my life around.
My bootcamp Vomiting timez with Brad- and the best blog on pickup and lifestyle: bradbranson.com
yeah that saturday wasnt much fun. i still kinda need the warming up. cant go to a club at 2 without having any momentum.
i was really stifled and got blown out pretty much instantly. whatever learned from that!
i was really stifled and got blown out pretty much instantly. whatever learned from that!
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Thursday, 14.08.09
Do a pub crawl again... Meet all the promoter guys and chill for a bit (it is 9 pm or somethin). Check out the people especially if there are any cuties around. A 4 set enters the pub 2 hotties + 2 guys. I am like BFs NOOOOOOOOOO.
Kinda being social meet all the people that are already here. Open the irish girls I met the last time and fool around a bit with them. Irish girls are fun. Lots of touching, hugging and kissing. I am just talking to random people just having fun and drinking some beer. After a while I get kinda excited I WANT ACTION. I go out to get some fresh air and open a 2 set. Some vommitting until they find out I am from Austria (they are from Germany). One is cute the other one not. I sit down and we talk a lil more. They start asking a lot of questions. How old are you?... They are 8 years older than me xD ... I burn the set to the ground and leave. Venue change.
More socialising. It is still pretty early. Just pumping my state by talking to everybody. Boom I see the 2 hotties at the bar the 2 guys are choing around at the other side (drinks to the chest, chode crystallizing). I open them and get physical really quick with the cuter one. Hugging, clawing, eskimo kiss, small pecks. I chill a bit and talk to her friend (damn they are both cute). Guy comes in and I blow him out by ignoring. Makeout. She is like NONONO I cant do this (maybe she has a bf I dont know). Find out they are just friends with the 2 guys and staying at their place (sucks). I isolate her and we vibe a bit. Venue change. I leave for a sec to get some water and look for more girls. After I come back my girl is totally wasted. Her friend too. So I get the 2 guys to take them home.
I open some more sets but kinda not into any of them. Talk a bit to my australian mate and hit home to get some rest
Do a pub crawl again... Meet all the promoter guys and chill for a bit (it is 9 pm or somethin). Check out the people especially if there are any cuties around. A 4 set enters the pub 2 hotties + 2 guys. I am like BFs NOOOOOOOOOO.
Kinda being social meet all the people that are already here. Open the irish girls I met the last time and fool around a bit with them. Irish girls are fun. Lots of touching, hugging and kissing. I am just talking to random people just having fun and drinking some beer. After a while I get kinda excited I WANT ACTION. I go out to get some fresh air and open a 2 set. Some vommitting until they find out I am from Austria (they are from Germany). One is cute the other one not. I sit down and we talk a lil more. They start asking a lot of questions. How old are you?... They are 8 years older than me xD ... I burn the set to the ground and leave. Venue change.
More socialising. It is still pretty early. Just pumping my state by talking to everybody. Boom I see the 2 hotties at the bar the 2 guys are choing around at the other side (drinks to the chest, chode crystallizing). I open them and get physical really quick with the cuter one. Hugging, clawing, eskimo kiss, small pecks. I chill a bit and talk to her friend (damn they are both cute). Guy comes in and I blow him out by ignoring. Makeout. She is like NONONO I cant do this (maybe she has a bf I dont know). Find out they are just friends with the 2 guys and staying at their place (sucks). I isolate her and we vibe a bit. Venue change. I leave for a sec to get some water and look for more girls. After I come back my girl is totally wasted. Her friend too. So I get the 2 guys to take them home.
I open some more sets but kinda not into any of them. Talk a bit to my australian mate and hit home to get some rest
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Haha sounds glorious, the only thing is to watch the anger, I know because I get angry at time too, I try to turn the anger into fury that way I am more motivated and don't get all emotional..
Brad and I are in Oslo and there are cute girls everywhere :)
Brad and I are in Oslo and there are cute girls everywhere :)
Nice nice nice, yeah amsterdam is fun...
two things:
1. If the girlies at your hostel are cute, they can be more than warmups. Don't feel like you are taking the easy way out if you just hang with the girls and hook up with one of them at the end of the night. :) Don't always need to cold approach...
2. Remember, you LEAD the conversation. So if the set hooks and they start asking a bunch of random questions it is YOUR decision to lead it into something more enjoyable for yourself.
"W-w-w-wait-wait... Let's talk about something more fun. Let's talk about vikings!" You control the conversation.
I like this journal already!!!
two things:
1. If the girlies at your hostel are cute, they can be more than warmups. Don't feel like you are taking the easy way out if you just hang with the girls and hook up with one of them at the end of the night. :) Don't always need to cold approach...
2. Remember, you LEAD the conversation. So if the set hooks and they start asking a bunch of random questions it is YOUR decision to lead it into something more enjoyable for yourself.
"W-w-w-wait-wait... Let's talk about something more fun. Let's talk about vikings!" You control the conversation.
I like this journal already!!!
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I have to go to Skandinavia next year. I met so many hotties from there and heard so many great stories.
Yeah I just cant stand it if I pussy out. Going out alone is pretty hardcore for me right now. I really want this and it just sucks when I feel like I didnt live up to my standards. Before going out I totally feel like crap but once I am in the club and approaching its fine (but that first approach sucks). Maybe I am putting to much pressure on me. The funniest thing is after a good night I dont feel like going out the next day. Kinda weird.
One of my friends at home (only one that knows everything) called me and told me he wants to learn this too. So maybe a wingman at home WOOOT!!!!
Found out later that the blonde girl of the wall girls was totally into me. She left me a note with her number, facebook and email. Guess she was really shy. Could have been a swiss girl xD
Friday, 15.08.09
I wake up. Cute asian girl in my room. AWESOME! I game her a bit and leave to grab something to eat. She is totally into me. I was like yeah I will just go check out some museum and than go for it. I come back fuck some guy friend of her arrived and is staying at the same room. NOOOOOO! I amp it up and she totally ignores him. Some clawing. I use my uber MOCKING skillz that Matt taught me and drive her crazy. *with high voice* oh i am such a girlie girl. The guy gets pissed and starts blabbering something in chinese. They hit out to get something to eat. I go out alone and do some bs approaches. The fury!!!!!
Saturday, 16.08.09
Daygame:
Today first real daygame since bootcamp. Kinda feel weird doing it. More than before. Do 5 warmup sets get in the mood kinda. See a lonewolf blond cutie leaning against the wall. She sees me walking up and gets into "this guys wants to talk to me how do I look"-mode. I lean against the wall and she gives me her full attention not leaning against the wall anymore. We talk for some time. Find out she is only 17... sucks. Whatever!
Nightgame:
Get the asian girl to hit the clubs with me. First her guy friend was too tired to go out but after he saw I was going with her he was totally awake xD. So we chilled a bit at Leidse Plein and drank some beer. I was like this isnt gonna happen so lets go crazy. I did like everything game related stuff with her roleplays, future adventures, vommiting, push/pull, ... So we had lots of fun and went to some clubby thingy. I got owned by the bouncer because of my dialated pupils
. I hadnt smoked anything. Weird. Whatever. We went to Cooldown Cafe. Music was so loud I was shouting at the top of my lungs to get unstifled. I didnt hear anything. Opened lots of sets with "Hey, you are cute". Nothing hooked they either didnt understand or blew me out right away. Lots of girls were checking me out but not really the girls I wanted. It all didnt matter I had a blast with my asian girl in the club. Clawing, hugging. Was kinda weird with her friend with us. We went home having some really good convo and ate something on her bed. Good Night!
Yeah I just cant stand it if I pussy out. Going out alone is pretty hardcore for me right now. I really want this and it just sucks when I feel like I didnt live up to my standards. Before going out I totally feel like crap but once I am in the club and approaching its fine (but that first approach sucks). Maybe I am putting to much pressure on me. The funniest thing is after a good night I dont feel like going out the next day. Kinda weird.
One of my friends at home (only one that knows everything) called me and told me he wants to learn this too. So maybe a wingman at home WOOOT!!!!
Found out later that the blonde girl of the wall girls was totally into me. She left me a note with her number, facebook and email. Guess she was really shy. Could have been a swiss girl xD
Friday, 15.08.09
I wake up. Cute asian girl in my room. AWESOME! I game her a bit and leave to grab something to eat. She is totally into me. I was like yeah I will just go check out some museum and than go for it. I come back fuck some guy friend of her arrived and is staying at the same room. NOOOOOO! I amp it up and she totally ignores him. Some clawing. I use my uber MOCKING skillz that Matt taught me and drive her crazy. *with high voice* oh i am such a girlie girl. The guy gets pissed and starts blabbering something in chinese. They hit out to get something to eat. I go out alone and do some bs approaches. The fury!!!!!
Saturday, 16.08.09
Daygame:
Today first real daygame since bootcamp. Kinda feel weird doing it. More than before. Do 5 warmup sets get in the mood kinda. See a lonewolf blond cutie leaning against the wall. She sees me walking up and gets into "this guys wants to talk to me how do I look"-mode. I lean against the wall and she gives me her full attention not leaning against the wall anymore. We talk for some time. Find out she is only 17... sucks. Whatever!
Nightgame:
Get the asian girl to hit the clubs with me. First her guy friend was too tired to go out but after he saw I was going with her he was totally awake xD. So we chilled a bit at Leidse Plein and drank some beer. I was like this isnt gonna happen so lets go crazy. I did like everything game related stuff with her roleplays, future adventures, vommiting, push/pull, ... So we had lots of fun and went to some clubby thingy. I got owned by the bouncer because of my dialated pupils
. I hadnt smoked anything. Weird. Whatever. We went to Cooldown Cafe. Music was so loud I was shouting at the top of my lungs to get unstifled. I didnt hear anything. Opened lots of sets with "Hey, you are cute". Nothing hooked they either didnt understand or blew me out right away. Lots of girls were checking me out but not really the girls I wanted. It all didnt matter I had a blast with my asian girl in the club. Clawing, hugging. Was kinda weird with her friend with us. We went home having some really good convo and ate something on her bed. Good Night! __________________
My thoughts lately:
I was walking through Amsterdam thinking about why I still have AA although it is totally ridiculous. I was thinking about bootcamp and my fear of going back to my old habits.
I am expecting so much from others. Even when warming up I am expecting other people to give me positive reactions to feel good about myself and get into state. I am leeching value. That is also where my AA comes from. I am not afraid of approaching but I expect a positive reaction. I need the positive reaction like a junkie needs his fix. Thing is I can't control that even if I would be the COOLEST guy on this planet (not even with the "I am not wearing underwear" opener). That's why I feel bad. It's the uncertainty. One of my core values is to be independent but thinking this way is uber outcome dependent. Let go of worrying about things you can't control. Like reactions from others, the weather or if you get beat up on the street.
From my bootcamp I was expecting to cure all my AA and my fear of going out alone. The problem is bootcamp is not some secret key to success I AM MY SECRET KEY. Why am I afraid to go out alone? Because in my weird opinion I think that people will think I suck and have no friends. But thing is why should I expect them to see me as a cool guy? Do I need their approval? Do I need others to tell me who I am? Do I need others to give me permission? DO I NEED THEM TO GIVE ME POSITIVE REACTIONS? This negative mindset can't be cured in a weekend by somebody else. I HAVE TO CHOOSE. I HAVE TO CONSCIOUSLY CHANGE IT. I AM THE MAGIC BULLET OF UBER GLORY.
If I need validation from outside I am just like the girls. On the outside I might be tough. But what if someone comes and pops my bubble? It isn't real. I can't control it. What if suddenly all men love fatties? Then all the so-called 10s (I think it sucks to rate girls by appearance) will think they are low value. The whole value thing is uber bullshit. It's just how people see themselves. The only thing that really determines your value and what you are entitled to is how YOU see yourself. Only thing that matters is how you see yourself. Why should you determin your value by the way others see you? Every single person has the same value. We can do anything we want. It has nothing to do with others. Forget all that external validation. Only thing that matters is internal validation. Core Confidence. Be real.
Yesterday I felt when going out I felt kinda inferior because (I am in Amsterdam at the moment) all guys are like 2 m tall and eat steroids all day. Thats total bullshit. I expected myself to live up to some standard.
Everybody has his own standard. You can't compare people no matter what. We still do it all the time. You will never be inferior to anybody. You will never be superior to anybody. Maybe you are better at some skill but that's it. YOU don´t have to look good to societies standard. You don´t have to be the person others want you to be. You don´t have to be tall and ripped. Just be you. Superficial things are just illusions we learned to mistake for the truth.
That is the kind of problem with bootcamp I see. I thought "hahahaha I will do this and some cool guys will make me cool". That is why bootcamp doesn't help all the guys that take it. They are still in the headspace "Give me permission. Tell me who I am." It won't work out for them because they don't want to take the responsibility. It is scary letting go of the external validated identity. Why? Because for most people it is something totally new. I don't know where this is going. I never tried to have my own standards and values. I lived in my comfortable conditioned bubble. Others validated me because I lived life in a way so that I get as much approval as possible. No more. NO MORE. I love this quote from Tyler: "This is your life and nobody elses. It is yours to enjoy."
Another point is your expectations to what you SHOULD do or results you SHOULD produce. When I had a good night I don't feel like going out. Why? Because I feel validated by external things and because I am afraid to lose that. After bootcamp I have the feeling that I have to live up to my results at bootcamp. I want to be at that level all the time. I don't want to have bad nights. I expect from myself awesome sets. The problem is I can't control that. I can only control my actions and attitude. Expect nothing when going out. Just say yeah lets do 10 sets. Maybe you have some fantastic mind blowing set. Maybe not. Maybe you get blown out 10 times instantly. Would that be that bad? Would the night be wasted? No, you took action. You were doing the right thing. And you start caring less and less what others think of you. You stop having this pimp ego. You let go of needing others to see you as a cool guy. You stop thinking about yourself as being good with women. You are enough. I never really understood the "You are enough" phrase. For me "You are enough" means not needing anything to be the person you wanna be and doing the things you wanna do. No approval from others. No permission from others. No cool car. No hottie on your side when you enter the club. Not needing others to like you. You are worthy. You are enough even if you get blown out all night all week all year. No reason to feel bad about yourself.
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Look how easy it is when you only think and worry about things you CAN control:
Decision to open 10 sets. Go out. Enter the club. See a set. Open it. (blown out). Look for another set. (She is receptive) Go for the kiss. (She declines but stays)... and so on
"normal" thinking:
Oh I don't wanna go out maybe it will be a bad night. Still go out and worrying the whole time. Ah maybe I can't get in. Maybe there are no cute girls there. Maybe I get ridiculed. Maybe I get blown out all the time. Oh there is a set over there. Hmmm maybe they are really evil they look like that. Lets look for the perfect set. Wow they are hot but maybe they won't like me because of my large beard. I shouldn't talk about vikings tonight maybe they don't like it. Oh they were really mean maybe I really suck. I should go home and watch The Blueprint for the 34 time. I shouldn't approach because maybe others will think less of me. Maybe it rains tonight I shouldn't go out. I shouldn't go out maybe the night is a waste. Oh no I don't wanna get rejected. Oh no I don't wanna get disapproval. What if I don't pull tonight? What if she slaps me? What if I run out of things to say? What if they make fun of me? What if I make a mistake?
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I am really afraid of not sticking to the process and bitching out. But that's crazy. This is my choice. I won't suddenly become all chode again. If I stick with it I will get it. I don't care what it takes. When I fuck up I will just correct my course to get back on my path. Push through plateaus. Let go of the resistance. There will be obstacles. I will own them.
* Expect nothing from others.
* Give value (even if it is just talking to them) and expect NOTHING in return.
* Validation means nothing. Approve of yourself. You are the hero in your story.
* Make mistakes. Make your own mistakes. Don't personalize the reactions you get from others.
* Assume people to be cool and friendly but don't expect them to be.
* Expect nothing from yourself. Goals are fine but don't feel bad when they do not work out. Take right action. Just flow.
* Let go off all the pressure you put on yourself ("Oh no what if she blows me out that messes with my state" "Oh no what if she rejects me and others see it they won't think of me as a cool guy" "What if I run out of things to say" "What if I can't pull tonight"). Do these things really matter? Are they worth bothering you? Stop shoulding yourself. Do it or don't do it.
* Draw your state from the way you live life and not from the situation you are in at the moment. Nothing lasts for long (positive and negative). THIS TOO SHALL PASS.
* You only live once. Be whom you are meant to be.
* Don't judge people. They are doing the best they can at this moment. Is it worth getting angry about reactions from other people? Control your state and draw it from within.YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE.
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Oooooh it feels great to write this all down. My mental RAM is cleared now. Will be staying with my family for 3 days and hit to Paris on wednesday. So no going out hope I can post my next entry on thursday.
I was walking through Amsterdam thinking about why I still have AA although it is totally ridiculous. I was thinking about bootcamp and my fear of going back to my old habits.
I am expecting so much from others. Even when warming up I am expecting other people to give me positive reactions to feel good about myself and get into state. I am leeching value. That is also where my AA comes from. I am not afraid of approaching but I expect a positive reaction. I need the positive reaction like a junkie needs his fix. Thing is I can't control that even if I would be the COOLEST guy on this planet (not even with the "I am not wearing underwear" opener). That's why I feel bad. It's the uncertainty. One of my core values is to be independent but thinking this way is uber outcome dependent. Let go of worrying about things you can't control. Like reactions from others, the weather or if you get beat up on the street.
From my bootcamp I was expecting to cure all my AA and my fear of going out alone. The problem is bootcamp is not some secret key to success I AM MY SECRET KEY. Why am I afraid to go out alone? Because in my weird opinion I think that people will think I suck and have no friends. But thing is why should I expect them to see me as a cool guy? Do I need their approval? Do I need others to tell me who I am? Do I need others to give me permission? DO I NEED THEM TO GIVE ME POSITIVE REACTIONS? This negative mindset can't be cured in a weekend by somebody else. I HAVE TO CHOOSE. I HAVE TO CONSCIOUSLY CHANGE IT. I AM THE MAGIC BULLET OF UBER GLORY.
If I need validation from outside I am just like the girls. On the outside I might be tough. But what if someone comes and pops my bubble? It isn't real. I can't control it. What if suddenly all men love fatties? Then all the so-called 10s (I think it sucks to rate girls by appearance) will think they are low value. The whole value thing is uber bullshit. It's just how people see themselves. The only thing that really determines your value and what you are entitled to is how YOU see yourself. Only thing that matters is how you see yourself. Why should you determin your value by the way others see you? Every single person has the same value. We can do anything we want. It has nothing to do with others. Forget all that external validation. Only thing that matters is internal validation. Core Confidence. Be real.
Yesterday I felt when going out I felt kinda inferior because (I am in Amsterdam at the moment) all guys are like 2 m tall and eat steroids all day. Thats total bullshit. I expected myself to live up to some standard.
Everybody has his own standard. You can't compare people no matter what. We still do it all the time. You will never be inferior to anybody. You will never be superior to anybody. Maybe you are better at some skill but that's it. YOU don´t have to look good to societies standard. You don´t have to be the person others want you to be. You don´t have to be tall and ripped. Just be you. Superficial things are just illusions we learned to mistake for the truth. That is the kind of problem with bootcamp I see. I thought "hahahaha I will do this and some cool guys will make me cool". That is why bootcamp doesn't help all the guys that take it. They are still in the headspace "Give me permission. Tell me who I am." It won't work out for them because they don't want to take the responsibility. It is scary letting go of the external validated identity. Why? Because for most people it is something totally new. I don't know where this is going. I never tried to have my own standards and values. I lived in my comfortable conditioned bubble. Others validated me because I lived life in a way so that I get as much approval as possible. No more. NO MORE. I love this quote from Tyler: "This is your life and nobody elses. It is yours to enjoy."
Another point is your expectations to what you SHOULD do or results you SHOULD produce. When I had a good night I don't feel like going out. Why? Because I feel validated by external things and because I am afraid to lose that. After bootcamp I have the feeling that I have to live up to my results at bootcamp. I want to be at that level all the time. I don't want to have bad nights. I expect from myself awesome sets. The problem is I can't control that. I can only control my actions and attitude. Expect nothing when going out. Just say yeah lets do 10 sets. Maybe you have some fantastic mind blowing set. Maybe not. Maybe you get blown out 10 times instantly. Would that be that bad? Would the night be wasted? No, you took action. You were doing the right thing. And you start caring less and less what others think of you. You stop having this pimp ego. You let go of needing others to see you as a cool guy. You stop thinking about yourself as being good with women. You are enough. I never really understood the "You are enough" phrase. For me "You are enough" means not needing anything to be the person you wanna be and doing the things you wanna do. No approval from others. No permission from others. No cool car. No hottie on your side when you enter the club. Not needing others to like you. You are worthy. You are enough even if you get blown out all night all week all year. No reason to feel bad about yourself.
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Look how easy it is when you only think and worry about things you CAN control:
Decision to open 10 sets. Go out. Enter the club. See a set. Open it. (blown out). Look for another set. (She is receptive) Go for the kiss. (She declines but stays)... and so on
"normal" thinking:
Oh I don't wanna go out maybe it will be a bad night. Still go out and worrying the whole time. Ah maybe I can't get in. Maybe there are no cute girls there. Maybe I get ridiculed. Maybe I get blown out all the time. Oh there is a set over there. Hmmm maybe they are really evil they look like that. Lets look for the perfect set. Wow they are hot but maybe they won't like me because of my large beard. I shouldn't talk about vikings tonight maybe they don't like it. Oh they were really mean maybe I really suck. I should go home and watch The Blueprint for the 34 time. I shouldn't approach because maybe others will think less of me. Maybe it rains tonight I shouldn't go out. I shouldn't go out maybe the night is a waste. Oh no I don't wanna get rejected. Oh no I don't wanna get disapproval. What if I don't pull tonight? What if she slaps me? What if I run out of things to say? What if they make fun of me? What if I make a mistake?
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I am really afraid of not sticking to the process and bitching out. But that's crazy. This is my choice. I won't suddenly become all chode again. If I stick with it I will get it. I don't care what it takes. When I fuck up I will just correct my course to get back on my path. Push through plateaus. Let go of the resistance. There will be obstacles. I will own them.
* Expect nothing from others.
* Give value (even if it is just talking to them) and expect NOTHING in return.
* Validation means nothing. Approve of yourself. You are the hero in your story.
* Make mistakes. Make your own mistakes. Don't personalize the reactions you get from others.
* Assume people to be cool and friendly but don't expect them to be.
* Expect nothing from yourself. Goals are fine but don't feel bad when they do not work out. Take right action. Just flow.
* Let go off all the pressure you put on yourself ("Oh no what if she blows me out that messes with my state" "Oh no what if she rejects me and others see it they won't think of me as a cool guy" "What if I run out of things to say" "What if I can't pull tonight"). Do these things really matter? Are they worth bothering you? Stop shoulding yourself. Do it or don't do it.
* Draw your state from the way you live life and not from the situation you are in at the moment. Nothing lasts for long (positive and negative). THIS TOO SHALL PASS.
* You only live once. Be whom you are meant to be.
* Don't judge people. They are doing the best they can at this moment. Is it worth getting angry about reactions from other people? Control your state and draw it from within.YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE.
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Oooooh it feels great to write this all down. My mental RAM is cleared now. Will be staying with my family for 3 days and hit to Paris on wednesday. So no going out hope I can post my next entry on thursday.
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Only field experience results in wisdom like this.
You have a great grasp of these concepts, top notch. :)
Check out Le Duplex in Paris... 2 Avenue Foch by the Champs Elysee. Great club on Fri-Mon nights...
You have a great grasp of these concepts, top notch. :)
Check out Le Duplex in Paris... 2 Avenue Foch by the Champs Elysee. Great club on Fri-Mon nights...
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A great summary of what RSD is all about. It helps me alot, so I think I'll print this out and hang on my wall.
Thx for the validations guys! 
@ Brad
Thx for the tip will go there tommorow. How is Amsterdam?
Tuesday, 18.08.09
These few days with my family were really weird. I can't turn my social dynamics sensor off. I had a fun time but it was definately totally different. I know how to lead a conversation. I know how to cut threats I don't like. I feel the vibe of the conversation all the time. I told a part of the family everything I was up to and the other part... It's not that I care what they think but I know it will only cause trouble. They are traditional. Whatever.
Today had a few minutes without any family around (at the train station). Opened a 2 set. One of them was really cute. It happened automatically. Not oooooh I should approach them. Just boom without thinking. Really cool set. I was sitting on a bench chilling in the sun. I opened them and started teasing the cutie a bit. She went crazy. She forgot her surroundings. It was really fun because I was like chilling and not like oh I have to amp this up (spicking emotions....). I just chilled and did what I wanted. I let the convo fall silent and chill in between. I KNEW they would reopen with some chodeversation. Found out they were in some religious "save the world" program (I couldn't stop thinking about the cutie in some school girl outfit). Awesome. After 30 mins I ejected since I had to get to my uncle.
@ Brad
Thx for the tip will go there tommorow. How is Amsterdam?
Tuesday, 18.08.09
These few days with my family were really weird. I can't turn my social dynamics sensor off. I had a fun time but it was definately totally different. I know how to lead a conversation. I know how to cut threats I don't like. I feel the vibe of the conversation all the time. I told a part of the family everything I was up to and the other part... It's not that I care what they think but I know it will only cause trouble. They are traditional. Whatever.
Today had a few minutes without any family around (at the train station). Opened a 2 set. One of them was really cute. It happened automatically. Not oooooh I should approach them. Just boom without thinking. Really cool set. I was sitting on a bench chilling in the sun. I opened them and started teasing the cutie a bit. She went crazy. She forgot her surroundings. It was really fun because I was like chilling and not like oh I have to amp this up (spicking emotions....). I just chilled and did what I wanted. I let the convo fall silent and chill in between. I KNEW they would reopen with some chodeversation. Found out they were in some religious "save the world" program (I couldn't stop thinking about the cutie in some school girl outfit). Awesome. After 30 mins I ejected since I had to get to my uncle.
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Alex-
Senior Member
Join Date: 06/21/2009 | Posts: 173
did my bootcamp with Brad and Matt begin of August and this is my journal.
I started my eurotrip (pickup pilgrimage) with the Bootcamp in Munich.
| Munich - Berlin - Amsterdam - Amersfoort - Paris - Barcelona - Zurich |
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Now I am back home. Doing the things I wanna do. Being the person I wanna be.
This are my stories and adventures. Lows. Highs. Everything in between.
Life is short. The glory is to be had. Don't be a spectator of life.
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Sunday, 02.08.09
Last day of BC. I was thinking yeah lets hit the clubs after my last meeting with Brad and Matt but my body had other plans . Slept for 15h.
Monday, 03.08.09
Meet up with Brad and Matt for some beers. We have tons of fun and end up Munichs famous Hofbraeuhaus. I had way too much beer (not that it takes a lot I dont drink much).
I hit home and get really pissed at myself for bitching around. I open a cute blonde girl at my hostel and have lots of fun but kinda hard escalating with all the people around...
Tuesday, 04.08.09
No more time for the cute german girl my train leaves early. Hug her goodbye and leave. Travel to Berlin. I reach my hostel at 5 pm and start socialising right away. Everybody knows after
me after an our or so. Open cute swiss girl and have some really boring chodeversation. Try to form a group to go out but all are like no lets drink here (really social hostel). NO WAY. I am going out.
Go out with one other really crazy italian guy. We go to Oranienburger Str. (thx Matt for getting us there). I open lots of street sets but girls are kinda intimidated by the whole environment. Lots of rats. Lots of hookers. Lots of drunk guys. Open a cute blonde lonewolf on the street and have a fun convo. Open a waitress which is just closing her bar to get some recommendations. She tells me it would be a good idea to leave.
I am a little pissed and we leave at 2 am. Really awesome adventure afterwards.
Wednesday, 05.08.09
During the day some sightseeing and daygame. Kinda dont like DG that much anymore you just dont get into state. Open lots of sets but kinda lame convos. Do a fun roleplay with the girl from ESPRIT and she goes totally nuts. This time I succeed in getting a group together and we try to find some club the hostel recommended. I open a 2 set at the S-Bahn. They are totally into me but dont want to go out. Whatever. Open some street sets while walking to the club. I am in pretty good state when we arrive at the club. I kinda wait to long with my first approach. I claw brunette cutie and introduce myself. We get into chodeversation and my state drops. She feels it and is bored to. NEXT. Claw a blonde girl and ask her why all girls here have short hair besides her. She is totally into me but lost her friends. Lose her in the crowd. Cool thing is all the guys in my group are opening sets too. The canadian guy opens a 2 set with a super hot danish girl in it. I come in to wing him but nearly blow him out cause both girls like me from the start (louder, dont give a fuck, no chodeversation). Somehow I dont wanna blow him out and eject. Both girls leave him 5 mins later so I am like why did I not blow him out. Meet a lot of cool guys this night which give me some good insights on Berlins nightlife. Get blown out a few times after second guessing myself before approaching.
Thursday, 06.08.09
Meet a austrian girl at the hostel and game her a bit just for practice. Damn its really easy. Reopen swiss girls from the hostel and they bombard me with questions I am kinda tired and hit out for some sightseeing. Time to go out same group as yesterday but we try to get into some other venues. Open a lonewolf in U-Bahn and talk for 10 min. Want to eject but she kinda keeps talking and coming back. Get to Club Sage nearly get in without waiting in line but I fuck up. Open 3 set with cute blonde in it. Start getting physical right away. She is touching and hugging me. My goup pisses the girls off (because they are fucking chodes that are pissed off about waiting) and my girl gets dragged away. I am pissed. Open a 2 set and talk a bit. We go back to the club from yesterday. My state is YUCK. Open 2 canadian girls which are like NOOOOOOOOO. I plow and plow and then throw the canadian guy into the set and leave. My state sucks. Open 2 super hotties sitting down. They play the old ice princess game + we are lesbians. I joke around and the one sitting on the other side likes me. Other one had to many chodes around tonight. Bad mood. Eject. Talk some friends from the other day and meet some really cool people.
Friday, 07.08.09
Meet up with pilgrimmage. He really is a cool guy. He is going although he has exams which I think was awesome. We get way to drunk before (I dont drink alot). We kinda chode around a bit. Suddenly pilgrammage is like lets go and do this. Open a dancefloor set. She likes me. I go caveman style. I get blown out by being to hardcore. LOL. I love it. Get into spectator mode after pilgrammage opens a set. Get opened by some girl and go crazy for a bit. I am really getting wasted now. Go outside and see pilgrimmage opening a set. I open a 2 set blonde girls at bar. They love me. I get amoged by their protector guys. I ignore them and then befriend them. One guy still hates me but he is making a fool out of himself. Have fun but cant split the girls. I try but nonononono we are here together. After an hour and a half I am tired as hell and eject.
Saturday, 08.08.09
Lets forget this night.
Sunday, 09.08.09
Amsterdam!!! My hostel is close to Leidse Plein which is awesome. I am totally in my head and intimidated by going out alone. Open a really cute blonde on the street. It somehow doesnt hook. Plow plow plow but she isnt into it. Do some warmup sets but my state sucks. I sit down at Leidse Plein and open a blonde walking past. We talk for 10 min but totally chode. More street sets. Open 3 girls on the street and talk for some time. One really likes me but the leader wants to get rid of me. I try to bounce them but damn... Got into my head again and went to a coffee shop. Bad idea. I hit back to my hostel. On the way open a 3 set 2 guys 1 cute girl. She is german. I feel bad for smoking something because it totally fucked me up.
Monday, 10.08.09
Did some daygame. Opened 2 german girls one being really cute. I gamed them a bit until they started bombarding me with questions. I woke up 30 min before so I was still not really awake. I ejected. Met 2 girls at my hostel. The most wall like girls ever. Great practice but after some time it gets really boring. Opened cute english girl and talked for a bit. I reopened her later. LETS GO OUT TOGETHER. I met her other cute friends. They wanted to grab something to eat before going out so we would me meet up there. I hit out with the wall girls and another girl I had chatted up. Did some approaches but nothing really fun. The wall girls were fun because I could practice pumping their state and then letting it cool down and be cool with silence (walls dont speak alot not even with each other).
Tuesday, 12.08.09
Did a free tour. Just being social. Opened 2 cute danish girls. I like the beautiful faces of danish girls. Whatever they like me but I have no chance to bounce them. NONONONONO. Whatever. I leave to get some sleep before the pub crawl. I get there. Meet some cool guy which is organizing the pub crawl (he is australian). I am the only one alone here. Bad state. I am like fuck this shit. Open a group of guys from California. Befriend them and feel a little better. Suddenly a turbo girl with her also cute friend swooshed past but I am like HMMMMM NOOOOOO Later maybe. Open a group of french guys and befriend them too. Social times. Get opened by some girls that remember me from the free tour (hadnt noticed them). They are fun irish girls and all 3 love me. One is pretty cute. Lots of KINO. Go outside to get some air and see the promoter guy talking to 2 girls (one is cute). I jump in in full party mode and get them to join the crawl. They are from austria too but total value leechers. I leave them. More social times. Lots of cuties everywhere. YES. The promoter offers me a job hihi. We change venues. I am the party. I open a 4 set of australian girls. I have social proof now so its all magic now. Open a super hot american girl but she leaves (to do some bs) and tells me to wait for her. Yeah. Hmmm no I want fun times. See a super cutie trying to get a drink at the bar. Open her she loves me. I am leading her through the pub to the couches. Turbo girl walks past (you remember). I claw and she is super pissed. I am like yeah whatever. I turn around to the super cutie and start making out (after 2 min or less). I isolate her on the couch and I chill back. Pilgrammage told me after the makeout chill back check logistics and assume the pull. Fuck 4 french guys from before come in. Obnoxious times. They are fucking frustrated. Me being here alone and having all the attention they hate me. Hardcore amoging. They physically amog me. Try to remove me from the girl and talk to her. But me being in state I claw the leader of the guys. He is really surprised. I am like "This is enough!". They vanish. Time to change venues. At the door I meet the cool guy (australian) again and find out he is picking up the sister of my girl. Awesome. He tells me I can be his wingman. Hihihihi I pretend to not know what he is talking about. Get reopened by the super hottie from America. She is really pissed I didnt wait and talk her. She is hot. But my girl is hotter so... Lots of talking dont understand what she is saying (bad english) but it doesnt matter. She loves me. Its crazy how a hottie changes when her bubble bursts. Australian guy goes to bathroom for a sec his girl gets opened instantly. I help my australian mate blowing dudes out. Guys from earlier come over to NC me and ask if I want to visit them. Its crazy. Logistics suck. Impossible. Fuck I cherished to much. No way pulling her. DAMN. Whatever fun night and learned tons. FRIGGIN AWESOME.