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January 17th, 2017
Steve-0! 2.0 - Becoming Real
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Being Deep. It is what it is all about. It is about sharing your depth with other people. I am no longer a superficial iceberg.. my truth lies under the surface but I share that with everybody. 

Made out with a 20 year old engaged girl last night. We were having a cigarette and I pulled her close to me and moved her hair off of her neck and bit her. She ate it up. The best part of the story, her mom was sitting in the car next to us. I could not stop myself. I did it unconsciously.. it was weird. 
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Bootcamp of Champions - Mar' 09! Austin Resurrection Crew !  - Embrace Uncertainty
Ozzie - July '09 - London - your social self and become you.

 "In those moments that most people say I can't,  most people say self preservation, most people say what if?... We say "What if?" the other way. What if you land it? What if it is possible?" - Travis Pastrana - X Games Movie   "i'm not in this world to live you up to your expectations. And your not in this world to live up to mine." - Bruce Lee If you are taking more action than anyone else, why should you care about their opinion?" ~Derek "I want to see the world through my own eyes not in the reflection of others." - "While you standing around looking dumb. I make it happen, taking action over time. Got damn good at it too!" - T.I.
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New Day new challenges.  So I have had to deal with copious amounts of bullshit while dating the new girl. We go out , we have fun. She chats with dudes and I learn to not give a shit about what a guy does. I am awesome and enough. If something happens, take it as a learning experience.

One of her friends told me that she does not want to see me tonight, she only likes bad boys you are a good guy. Guess it beats being a nice guy. Showing improvement in that area of my life.

Another learning experience is balancing being a dotting guy with a cool fucking dude 24/7. 

Every moment provides chances for improvement. Take those chances and progress. 

After reviewing the last few weeks of interactions with the girl. She is testing me to see if I continue to live up to my on standards and she wants to see if I am alpha. I need to step up more for me. I feel myself, introverting and regressing bit by bit. Enough of that nonsense. 
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Bootcamp of Champions - Mar' 09! Austin Resurrection Crew !  - Embrace Uncertainty
Ozzie - July '09 - London - your social self and become you.

 "In those moments that most people say I can't,  most people say self preservation, most people say what if?... We say "What if?" the other way. What if you land it? What if it is possible?" - Travis Pastrana - X Games Movie   "i'm not in this world to live you up to your expectations. And your not in this world to live up to mine." - Bruce Lee If you are taking more action than anyone else, why should you care about their opinion?" ~Derek "I want to see the world through my own eyes not in the reflection of others." - "While you standing around looking dumb. I make it happen, taking action over time. Got damn good at it too!" - T.I.
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So I have replaced old chodey problems with quality problems. Women are not the solution to your problems. You are the solution to your problems.  
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Bootcamp of Champions - Mar' 09! Austin Resurrection Crew !  - Embrace Uncertainty
Ozzie - July '09 - London - your social self and become you.

 "In those moments that most people say I can't,  most people say self preservation, most people say what if?... We say "What if?" the other way. What if you land it? What if it is possible?" - Travis Pastrana - X Games Movie   "i'm not in this world to live you up to your expectations. And your not in this world to live up to mine." - Bruce Lee If you are taking more action than anyone else, why should you care about their opinion?" ~Derek "I want to see the world through my own eyes not in the reflection of others." - "While you standing around looking dumb. I make it happen, taking action over time. Got damn good at it too!" - T.I.
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If I was told 9 months ago, you would be living towards the life you wanted. I would have laughed. I would have gone home and sit on the couch. This journey only gets more and more healthier. You become a man, or at least strive towards manhood. You act as a man and accept responsibility for your life. You start to act in congruence as a man. It has helped me discover what I want out of life. Whom I want out of life. What I am willing to put up with. What I am not willing to put up with. How to be yourself, discovered emotions I thought I had buried. Where I want to finish my life. It is scary that when I first watch the matrix and a decision was made. I said I would also take the red pill. I would take that pill over and over. I was so sick of living a life that was unworthy of who I was. 
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Bootcamp of Champions - Mar' 09! Austin Resurrection Crew !  - Embrace Uncertainty
Ozzie - July '09 - London - your social self and become you.

 "In those moments that most people say I can't,  most people say self preservation, most people say what if?... We say "What if?" the other way. What if you land it? What if it is possible?" - Travis Pastrana - X Games Movie   "i'm not in this world to live you up to your expectations. And your not in this world to live up to mine." - Bruce Lee If you are taking more action than anyone else, why should you care about their opinion?" ~Derek "I want to see the world through my own eyes not in the reflection of others." - "While you standing around looking dumb. I make it happen, taking action over time. Got damn good at it too!" - T.I.
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New Year, New page... I am dedicating myself to going out to 2 -3 nights a week. I left for a week to pittsburgh and the girl I was currently seeing stop returning phone calls. So on to the next one!  I realized I reverted a little bit the last few days. I wanted more and the more I spent time with this girl, I could feel my emotions change. Something I must work on for the future. Reversion is part of the game. 

Leverage it against yourself! Take this feeling and when I do not feel like going out... internalize that feeling like shit sucks and that I control if I feel like shit. 
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Bootcamp of Champions - Mar' 09! Austin Resurrection Crew !  - Embrace Uncertainty
Ozzie - July '09 - London - your social self and become you.

 "In those moments that most people say I can't,  most people say self preservation, most people say what if?... We say "What if?" the other way. What if you land it? What if it is possible?" - Travis Pastrana - X Games Movie   "i'm not in this world to live you up to your expectations. And your not in this world to live up to mine." - Bruce Lee If you are taking more action than anyone else, why should you care about their opinion?" ~Derek "I want to see the world through my own eyes not in the reflection of others." - "While you standing around looking dumb. I make it happen, taking action over time. Got damn good at it too!" - T.I.
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So I had probably the most amazing year of my life in the arguably the greatest recession I will ever experience. But oh how things do change....

2010... I made a decision to quit coaching baseball after I had an argument with my athletic director where he cut my pay in half. The same day, I lost my third job. The girl I am seeing lost her job... I am still standing strong.. move through the bad fog feelings and push through the nonsense and keep on walking. I realized that the people that fail are the ones that stop trying and want someone else to take responsibility  for their life. 

But... it is all a matter of perspective. I am in charge the direction I want my life to head. I realized I can not control such a thing.. because the only things about I really understand is that things will change but if you put yourself in the proper spots and take right action.. more often than not things will work out in your favor. I learned this the hard way. I learned it and internalized it about 3 days of bullshit... LOok at your problems and go find bigger ones and guess what.. your problems are not shit. So stop complaining, stop crying stop sitting at your house not doing shit... Take the biggest step you could ever make.. the first step and trust in yourself above all else. 

 
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Bootcamp of Champions - Mar' 09! Austin Resurrection Crew !  - Embrace Uncertainty
Ozzie - July '09 - London - your social self and become you.

 "In those moments that most people say I can't,  most people say self preservation, most people say what if?... We say "What if?" the other way. What if you land it? What if it is possible?" - Travis Pastrana - X Games Movie   "i'm not in this world to live you up to your expectations. And your not in this world to live up to mine." - Bruce Lee If you are taking more action than anyone else, why should you care about their opinion?" ~Derek "I want to see the world through my own eyes not in the reflection of others." - "While you standing around looking dumb. I make it happen, taking action over time. Got damn good at it too!" - T.I.
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 I have gone out three times this week.. more drinking than I wanted. A year ago.. I would have lost my shit and drank my face off and become completely unglued. 

I realized the only thing that is going to change my life is me. I am enough to make that change. 

Reforming the basics to the foundation of my core. This life is for me. 
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Bootcamp of Champions - Mar' 09! Austin Resurrection Crew !  - Embrace Uncertainty
Ozzie - July '09 - London - your social self and become you.

 "In those moments that most people say I can't,  most people say self preservation, most people say what if?... We say "What if?" the other way. What if you land it? What if it is possible?" - Travis Pastrana - X Games Movie   "i'm not in this world to live you up to your expectations. And your not in this world to live up to mine." - Bruce Lee If you are taking more action than anyone else, why should you care about their opinion?" ~Derek "I want to see the world through my own eyes not in the reflection of others." - "While you standing around looking dumb. I make it happen, taking action over time. Got damn good at it too!" - T.I.
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 Meet up with a buddy to have dinner, meet two girls out while asked dinner. I told a group of girls that I needed one of them to go to the bathroom with me. 
THe other  girls at the bar started talking to me because I was doing the itsy bitsy spider. I walk over and chat with them. We tell them we are going to a different bar after dinner. They say the same thing. We bounce pick up a few people and head to the other bar. I walk in and see girl talking to bouncer, I jump into set. Get resistance, sand there for about 5 -6 silent minutes but does not move. One if the girls has larangitis and she attempts to talk to me.  I tell her not to but she tries. I think she was drunk. After a few minutes I see some other friends bounce with them and talk with them a bunch. I go over to girl. Looking back if I had just stood around, It would have been ugly and a very rough landing. 

Once I chat with girl she immediately walks over to me. It's on. That was the only indicator I needed. So we chat and talk and then I grab girl and lead to dance floor. I say come meet some friends, she chats with friends. I get phone number in case she is captured by magical elves. We kiss a little bit. I escalate, we go talk to friends and she puts her body against mine. Escalate her escalation. Hands on body, grabbing and rubbing her skin. We go dance some more my buddy goes and plays drums. We go and sit down. I ask her what her deal is... I leave it open to that... She starts qualifying her self to me. I probe to see if she has a boyfriend. She starts talking about lame shit and I tell her I don't talk about serious stuff like that at the bar. I like pirates and leprechauns.  I tell her we are going to hang out sunday night and go rock climbing, and have some fun, some hair pulling biting neck. Escalate until she feels uncomfortable. 

Lots of lessons learned and hopefully internalized. 

1. Get out of your house, even if it sucks outside. is not going to flock to you. 
2. Bring the party... A buddy of mine amd I are the life of every party. You must bring that with you at all times. 
4. Emotion beats logic. 
3. Escalate her escalation. It shows her you can see she is attracted to you. You will not become weird in the bedroom. 
5. Momentum... must keep moving your mouth, yourself, be in set or best be getting blown out. 
6. Talk to everyone through out the day because when the moment arises to chat with a girl, it is smooth and easy and not forced.
7. But if it seems forced, do it anyways.. be uncomfortable... lose your center and find it again with a stronger hold on it.  
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Bootcamp of Champions - Mar' 09! Austin Resurrection Crew !  - Embrace Uncertainty
Ozzie - July '09 - London - your social self and become you.

 "In those moments that most people say I can't,  most people say self preservation, most people say what if?... We say "What if?" the other way. What if you land it? What if it is possible?" - Travis Pastrana - X Games Movie   "i'm not in this world to live you up to your expectations. And your not in this world to live up to mine." - Bruce Lee If you are taking more action than anyone else, why should you care about their opinion?" ~Derek "I want to see the world through my own eyes not in the reflection of others." - "While you standing around looking dumb. I make it happen, taking action over time. Got damn good at it too!" - T.I.
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While listening to  RSD mastermind 24... I got what self amusement is.

As you become more and more centered... all the bullshit dissolves and the emotions and bullshit you used to feel inside is not there. It is a good feeling on calm awesomeness. If you felt like this all the time .. you ultimately would need nothing to make you feel better, more complete as you are already complete.

So you turn towards self amusement because it makes you a real life person walking amongst zombies. You are the one providing the fun in the club/bar or whatever. You do things that you want to do. The lid is ripped off and you are left to explode in the night. Interesting shit... I have started to dance interperatively because I find it funny and it makes people judge me more.. Most of the time though people love it. It is what stimulates me. 

Also had another moment where I saw an ex-girl friend out... awkward between us. I did not want to go talk to her. But my buddy said dude go say hello.. I told him to slap me. I need to change my physiology. Boom.. walk over bump into her.. She says she will come say hello. Gave her a hug and head back to my friends (two girls we meet at dinner and bounced around with for a few hours.)  Lead to the next bar. Girl came over and we chatted and she realized we were other girls ad became weird and started to walk away. I called over to her she came back I told her we should talk, we will see how that goes.   
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Bootcamp of Champions - Mar' 09! Austin Resurrection Crew !  - Embrace Uncertainty
Ozzie - July '09 - London - your social self and become you.

 "In those moments that most people say I can't,  most people say self preservation, most people say what if?... We say "What if?" the other way. What if you land it? What if it is possible?" - Travis Pastrana - X Games Movie   "i'm not in this world to live you up to your expectations. And your not in this world to live up to mine." - Bruce Lee If you are taking more action than anyone else, why should you care about their opinion?" ~Derek "I want to see the world through my own eyes not in the reflection of others." - "While you standing around looking dumb. I make it happen, taking action over time. Got damn good at it too!" - T.I.
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Out in Portland Maine tonight. Manned up a lot tonight.. Started off the night singing happy birthday.. being loud.. wearing lady shades (mainly because I love them) Most guys wear shades to look bad ass... since I am already bad ass... trying to bring it down a notch.

I start dancing silly and having fun.. I start to bear paw with two moms.. and then are having a blast. one of there daughters is super hot. I start bear clawing and continue until we are pawing at each other... then i say you are crazy get away from me.. (working on full range of emotions) I normally only bring a lot of positive full range of emotions. Next part of my growth.. more girls are attracted to me but I need the yin and the yang.

Bounce around to different groups of people. I also need to work on continued interactions. Next, next.. don't get in your head... Find that true sexual side. If I find something that I find attractive I go and talk, no matter the circumstances. This is how I grow. Push yourself way beyond your comfort zone.
 
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Bootcamp of Champions - Mar' 09! Austin Resurrection Crew !  - Embrace Uncertainty
Ozzie - July '09 - London - your social self and become you.

 "In those moments that most people say I can't,  most people say self preservation, most people say what if?... We say "What if?" the other way. What if you land it? What if it is possible?" - Travis Pastrana - X Games Movie   "i'm not in this world to live you up to your expectations. And your not in this world to live up to mine." - Bruce Lee If you are taking more action than anyone else, why should you care about their opinion?" ~Derek "I want to see the world through my own eyes not in the reflection of others." - "While you standing around looking dumb. I make it happen, taking action over time. Got damn good at it too!" - T.I.
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