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March 26th, 2017
Stockholm 30 Day Celebration: Enter into the Pentagon
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#61
Zebra

Zebra

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Join Date: 06/01/2007 | Posts: 274

June 22, 2009

Im tired
I dont feel fresh
Its wierd....
Do I have to?
I don’t need to push it
I just want to have a good time
Don’t want to take value
Il do it later
I been doing it for 22 days now!
Shes not hot
I don’t have the energy
Shes with her friends
Didn’t get the signs…..
Already have enough girls
Im just chillin
What ever
Il do it after the 30 day challenge is over
Il do it tomorrow
Il do it on Wednesday
Il do it on the weekend
I don’t want to be greedy
Don’t have to prove myself
Not tonight
I got work in the morning
I need more sleep
Just be cool man
It wont go well
Not feeling the positive vibe
I don’t have the drive
The motivation
The inspiration
The state
I need a drink
Got to got to the bathroom


I’m not making excuses

All of a sudden its all about the Star Wars!

Some of the recent dialogue that’s been running through my head. Me and kilo have been staying pretty consistent with going out, but neither of us is making much of an effort to really talk to girls these past few days. The midsummer holyday screwed our rhythm a bit as we chose to do our respective summer things (Plus that no ones in town for that shit. Its like going out on Christmas eve!) Anyway, I feel the pace has dropped and I gotten much more in my head about things. Opening being the most natural and easy thing a few days before now seems a bit off. The list above being a small representation of why it feels off.

Otherwise shit is going good. Every night out is a lot of fun, and every night Kilo and me have a good time. Awesome people join the adventure and that makes it all the better. Sometimes I wonder if it doesn’t go into stay with friends comfort zone mode. I feel I want to push myself more but its fucking hard to find the mentality. Talking to girls is supposed to enrich our nights out even more then when we just talk to our guy friends! Any other feeling about it is just “sucking dick for the rest of your life”…..well maybe not really but its starting to move in that direction…

Its like old # 23 MJ said. “these kids today need to see someone go 100% in practice the day after winning the championship game!”

Don’t get upset, get laid!
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Pick up is like a hammer.    Tips for Life and fucking Chicks (poorly written) -Zebra
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#62
Mathias!

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I am the truth, my true essence, my true masculine self ; I am the love, the happiness, the warm hunger and lustful passion of a rich and giving life ; I am the liberator of will, the light bringer, the adventurer and fulfiller of dreams ; I am the brave challenger who faces fear to stand and fight, to reap the glory of victory and the heroism and growth of valiant defeat, never at a loss ; I celebrate in the joy, the sweetness and the divine presence of every living moment in my life. - The Champion That I Am *** 
Get in the FIELD guys

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#63
Zebra

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June 23, 2009

Get text from Kilo that he is going grilling tonight. Figure I can run a solo shift. Start texting some girls to see if I can get a date set up. Been really interested in this one girl I met, really smart, but the dam iPhone drops my call as I call her, I try back but her phone is off. Oh well

In the mean time I get a text from a girl I met last Sunday (the one at TGI that Kilo hated). Tell her to meet up. She says she’s at Skansen (a big Swedish park) and I should join. I don’t want to….so I tall her I want to see her, but I don’t want to come to Skansen. Tell her we can compromise.

We meet up somewhere to get a beer. My credit card is all out of money so its all on her tonight. I don’t like this to be honest. IM working on becoming comfortable with people paying for me, but ultimately I think everyone should go Dutch.

We go to an old style Viking, World of Warcraft bar! Its fucking awesome! I’m going to start bringing all my girls there. It’s so fucking bizarre that it’s hilarious. They ever serve mead there witch is this old fashioned beer Vikings used to drink. I think the dwarves in lord of the rings also hit that shit.

My dates with girls outside the club have become increasingly unique. Drinking beers on a look out point, Viking bars, some art exhibit. Its shit I like to do so it figures that I would bring the chick there. Sounds so easy, but until you get over the “I have to impress her” mindset its not the most applicable advice out there.

Anyway, in my head I decide I’m going to try to close this chick in a park somewhere. The weather I so nice, it’s perfect for it. Alas her friend shows up with her date and we have a 4 way (conversation).

I don’t mind….its just fun.

The bar closes we walk outside. The girl wants me to come home with her. I tell her I’m leaving to go home (I’m piss tired and I know that I have to get up in 6 hours). She starts logically trying to persuade me to come back to her place.

I feel awkward….

Her: Look, my friend and her date are going to sleep with each other tonight, she is staying at my place. I don’t want to be in bed alone!

Me: (In my head: This is not worth the lack of sleep) Sorry, logistically its not working out tonight…

Her: Logistically…? What does that even me….

Silly rabbit…if you knew what “logistically” meant maybe you would have gotten laid last night. Unfortunately you lost the close. I walk home and I start getting pissed. I start getting pissed at being out so late all the time, the lack of sleep, the cold that just wont go away cause every time it does I find some new chick that kicks it right back to me!

The girl texts me as I walk home, I don’t bother to text back……
Another girl was texting me while I was in the Viking bar, I don’t bother to text back…..

I don’t want to, and I don’t care at the moment!

Its not that I’m pissed at the girls…..not at all! I love both of them, and I’m happy they are thinking about me and texting me….but god dam, at some point you just got to say fuck it.

Fuck it.

On my way home I figure out a new spiritual practice to quench my sporadic thoughts. As I’m walking my mind is buzzing with thoughts, words and sentences keep flying around in my mind. I can’t stop it or control it.

So I mentally start saying “BLAH BLAH BLHA BLAH” in my mind.

I realize that I have a urge to think, I cant stop it, but by replacing words with incoherent “Blah”s, at least I’m not really focusing on anything. I even start thinking its pretty hilarious and start laughing at the fact that I’m thinking “BLAH” all the time.

Its a lot easier not to take your mind seriously when your just spouting nonsense.

I’m estimating that il be so incredibly conscious by 16:15 a clock today….that there will be nothing left of me but a pure ball of shining light. That ball of shining light will make Buddha/Jesus look like a power/ego crazed Wall Street stockbroker in comparison.

Rock on!
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Pick up is like a hammer.    Tips for Life and fucking Chicks (poorly written) -Zebra
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#64
Whorelord~

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hahaha, blahblahblablah. :D
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#65
Kilo~

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Tuesday 23 June

Slept 2,5 hours between Monday and Tuesday, 30d while working full time office hours, in-fucking-sane.

Out grilling with some good mates. Good times, enjoying life. Not a problem in the world.

After hotdogs and beer my buddy is drunk and wants to go on hunt. I tag along, we spot a crew of two girls and three dudes.

We chat it up good, they’re young, 17 but sexy as fuck.


Things are going fine one girl is hinting lots of stuff. Talking about sex, that she lives close, doesn’t care about work in the moring etc. Working logistics.

Then my buddy passes out and I have to help him get home, I take the number of my girl and we leave.

Fun night , if you’re social and positive these things happen all the time.


Genuine positivity wins. 

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#66
Kilo~

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Wednesday 24 June

Daytime, I’m back at my old work for the summer. Left this place last year just when I found the community and man have I changed my approach to many things. I’m social thru the roof talking and joking with everybody, flirting with all girls under 30, all love that I’m back including myself.

I just had an inner glow when I walked up to the little cafeteria, a beautiful blond honey behind the counter. I’m beaming positivity and my smile is glued to my face. She gets sucked into my frame right away. Things from the interaction that stood out a little:
Kilo: “Hi, what’s up?”
Girl: “blah blah”

Kilo: “I wanna buy something sweet of you.”
Girl: “I have these newly baked chocolate things. I just made them. You’ll be my test dummy.”

After I’ve payed and are holding the cake in my hand, I’m beaming so much positivity it’s ridiculous.
Kilo: “Ahh. Sweet cake, sweet girl, life is good.”
She’s giggling like a schoolgirl when I leave.

Positivity wins.

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Nighttime, I’m thinking of staying in. Really need to get some sleep. I check with myself, how am I feeling right now, happy, joy, positive and full of energy. I’m heading out. I tell myself to be home before midnight, I tell my roommate to call me, put on my favorite awesome army cap and my glasses. Not the usual club wear. (I got very good reactions when wearing my glasses, one limiting belief less.)

Zebra and scale are at the regular LZ, I’m joining and share some positivity with the guys. Mathias finds us and we’re all heading to a club after watching some chicks putting make up ON THEIR FEET. Man looks really matter for girls.

On the way to the club. Me and zeb runs after some girls, harassing times.

Get in , we now only have one hour to party it up. Start mingling around, some fun little interactions. I see zeb going for a girl, I stand back ghostwing style. He doesn’t look hooked, spot Mathias by the bar instead.
Mathias engage some cutie, I’m on the friend. Conversations flow naturally and I’m enjoying myself. My mood is very positive so naturally the girl is very open and positive.

I move closer, start clawing, some dancing, she tell me she’s going to meet her boyfriend. I get affected by this and make a joke. Here is the crucial point. When she told me about the boyfriend I kinda gave up. The kiss/makeout was in the air, if I’d pushed a little harder who knows…


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My new vibe when closing is something along the lines of “you look like you need some love, come here”


Sharing good emotions, not logic.
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#67
Zebra

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 June 26 2009

Sitting at work… shit is going awesome! Learning so much right now its not even funny. Get a few texts from people here and there. One of them turns out to be an old friend that’s going to be in town for the weekend.

Back story: Met this guy one crazy summer when we were both studying french in the south of France. We hit it off really good and I felt close as fuck to him cause we thought the same way.

I was very much ego bull shit back then, on some level I guess thats why I related so well to him.

Now I just cant seem to deal with this guy. Feelings of jealousy, competitiveness, and insecurity always get stirred up when I chill with this dude. Make my mind really defensive and negative when I roll with him.

One thing that really peeves me is when we roll to a bar. This guys has worked at clubs his whole life so hes no chode by any measures. But without the social proof hes a shell. But he knows im not…. so he always waits for me to approach and set things before he does shit.

Last night seemed to be an exception as I walked up and had to mentality I just don’t care. We roll to some pent house party in the hotel their staying. Cool place.

Pretty girls here and there, all the guys are like my friend…… to the untrained eye they would have looked like super pimps. A hotel sweat, champagne, hot girls chilling in their room…… but got a bit of a off vibe the whole night. Not that anyone was inherently bad, everyone was super polite.

Im not going into blow this shit up. One of the girls at this party has a history with me and my friend and I just decide to not draw mad attention to myself.

(Dudes……. even as I read this I can feel the beta vibes coming off this paper. On some level I feel like periodically hanging with this guy is good to test the strength of my own internal reality and beliefs!)

I make small talk here and there. Chode crystal it up with my friend and his friends. Decide to go home. Nothing left in the night. Get a text from one of the girls I been a bit interested in lately. She asks me what I been doing

Me: Lame night….but its cool now, I’m heading to club Zebra!
Her: (cant remember)

At this point I can feel a window open. I can either keep being cute and playful or I can be congruent with the fact that im an organism with a penis.

Cutting the bull shit

Me: Where are you?
Here: (Place)
Me: You should come meet me.

Congruent with my shit. She doesn’t come over, I end up taking a walk and meeting her. I pop in some Eckhart Tolle to try to disperse the mental poop. It’s a nice chill summer night in Stockholm. We hang out a bit and I go home.

Sleep falls upon me.

Creating a strong belief in your reality is a process. Exposing yourself to situations that make you question yourself brings the unconscious doubt to the surface. There you have 1 of 2 possibilities; become conscious of it, or go through yet another cycle of negative mind loops. Even when you chose to become conscious, your still going to get a lot of forward momentum in the form of negativity, but its at least dealing with it productively.

May the force be with you
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Pick up is like a hammer.    Tips for Life and fucking Chicks (poorly written) -Zebra
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#68
Mathias!

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Nice. This whole thread is just pumped full with ballsyness, fucking ready to burst yao. Everybody should read this shit, better yet fucking act it out.




Haha, I'm so hijacking your thread guys LOL!!
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I am the truth, my true essence, my true masculine self ; I am the love, the happiness, the warm hunger and lustful passion of a rich and giving life ; I am the liberator of will, the light bringer, the adventurer and fulfiller of dreams ; I am the brave challenger who faces fear to stand and fight, to reap the glory of victory and the heroism and growth of valiant defeat, never at a loss ; I celebrate in the joy, the sweetness and the divine presence of every living moment in my life. - The Champion That I Am *** 
Get in the FIELD guys

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#69

kdjs

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Join Date: 02/18/2009 | Posts: 41

Love you guys :) 
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#70
Kilo~

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Thursday 25 June
Get a call from my roommate as I’m heading home from work. He tells me we’re getting thrown out of our apartment basically we have to get everything out now. This fucks with the rhythm of the 30Day.

So I’ve spent Thursday, Friday and Saturday packing and moving stuff back to my parents, yey!

It’s funny how this little event has made me feel, nothing but excitement for change. Barely any stress. But this is a legit reason not to go out.

Saturday 27 June

Finished moving late, took a shower and was ready for bed when Zebra calls and wants me out. Go grab some burgers and talk the shit. D-man joins up as well, nice to see you out man.
Fun times all around.

As we’re walking down the street zeb grabs a girl from a couple walking past us. I stand back a few seconds. Then move in on the guy, ghostwing style. Works like a charm, zebs gaming up his chick hard. Fast escalation, makeout and number.
When he’s done we say our goodbye and leave them.

The celebration will soon be over. I don’t want it to be.
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