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March 28th, 2017
Stockholm 30 Day Celebration: Enter into the Pentagon
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#51
Zebra

Zebra

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Join Date: 06/01/2007 | Posts: 274

June 18, 2009

I wake up at 9...god im tired. I been texting around with some girls, looks like they are all going to be in the same general area tonight. I figure I might break away from the pack and go hang out with one of them. Again the shit with my sister living here starts nagging me, but its becoming more of an excuse then anything else.

I head out and meet up with the guys.

(Side not that just poped into my head. I read a thread yesterday about a guy wondering if its cool to fart around girls. People started making jokes about it, and eventually the serious reply to the thread appeared. “I cant believe you guys are talking about this! I can just see the hundreds of PUAs frantically scribbling this “fart method” down and going out to harass women!!”
Its interesting this dude actually thinks this. Probably because hes been in that sort of mindset himself for so long. These forums don’t work that way. Who the fuck comes here to share techniques any more. Its more of a place where you can write down your personal reflections, internal shifts, and shoot the shit with some cool guys!)

Anyway….meet up with Scale and Kilo. Airs a lil tense over some shit that went down yesterday. Not going to be dragged down so I keep my energy positive, and talk to some girls along the way.

We enter. I go to bar, get beer. Been drinking the past few nights again. Actually starting to regret it. This place is a hunting ground for newbi PUAs. I myself grew up in this club not so long ago. That’s to say its not the most high class venue. Every time you ask the girl why she is here she gives the excuse “I don’t usually come here, this is a one night thing!”….right, thast what I say to.

Its different now. Once you been out every night of the week…..i mean fuck. I cant even imagine the guys who went at this every night of the week for years. Tyler, Jeffy, Dream…..me and kilo keep joking that going out this many nights in a row is so far outside of people reality that they don’t even know.

But to be honest….this shit is so far out of my reality, that I don’t even know!

Kilo is tumbling down the rabbit hole (you can literally see it in his eyes)….. Scales doing his own thing, and I’m fucking Neo in the matrix.

So when do we get to the girls. Dude there were girls here and there. We talked to bitches all night. Some make out, some grinding, some chicks not down with what I had to say. It blurs on you. Shit melts into one and the same event.

I want to get laid. Feeling the need.

When I woke up this morning I simultaneously wanted June to be over, and at the same time I don’t want to stop this. What and incredible catalyst for change! I need some time to re establish myself. Im a bit lost within all the fragments of things.

Abstract….
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#52
Kilo~

Kilo~

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Join Date: 06/27/2008 | Posts: 614

REFLECTIONS in general Part 2

Tumbling down the rabbit hole.

Regarding emotions.

Chodes focus on negative emotions, I focus on positive emotions. I need to accept all emotion in my life, emotions are natural and there for a reason. When someone is threatening to hurt you or your family you feel fear and anger for a reason. Don’t hide from those emotions.

I want to keep a positive frame / mindset / mood all the time that’s made me numb to things that can inflict that. Running from emotions solves nothing in the long run, I need to accept them, see them and act accordingly.



Regarding goals (things I want).

I just saw The Secret, it tells you about the Law of attraction. Basically whatever you think about happens, this is not a new concept for me, but I’ve never really understand how it all fits together. Now I have a deeper understanding of its importance and I can see aspects of it everywhere in my life.
Right now I’m not really focused on one thing, I have no clear goals or path. Just the path of enlightens I guess. I feel like enhancing a lot of things in my life.



Regarding reality.

Referring to Platos cave here. I feel exactly like I’ve just left the cave, I’m standing outside and my eyes are getting used to the light. My reality is changing.
My old friends / life are still in the cave, like described and there reality is very different right now.

I like this new reality and don’t want to go back to the old one.

I’m really grateful for having some awesome people (Zebra, Job, Mathias) around me right now guiding me through what’s happening.



Regarding writing FRs.

I’ve been writing on these forums some time now and it’s got me some streetcredd and celebrity. I really enjoy writing and will keep developing that skill. I’ll change what I write about, focus more on how I feel internally. Writing FRs feels so much like focusing on outergame stuff. That’s good also, but everything has it’s time and place.
 
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#53
Kilo~

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Tuesday 16 June

Begin talking about some stuff with my roommate regarding different realities and stuff. He turned hostile right away, I don’t push it at all leave it, most people aren’t ready to be unplugged.

Met up with Zebra and talked about everything that I’ve been reflecting on lately.


Wednesday 17 June

Fumbling. Evolving. Social experimenting.
 
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#54
Zebra

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June 18, 2009

Kilo stayed in tonight. This was a test of my independence from needing a specific person to be comfortable out in the real world. In the past I had been grossly dependant on my wing Scale…so much so that there existed some sort of weird connection between our energies. When he stopped going out it was a bit of a push to really get over it, but I’m stronger for it. I still not comfortable being out solo, but it seems I been making progress in the area.

Regardless, I’m just chillin’ with some other people I know tonight (shout out to my boys Danny-o, Job, and Danny’s tight friend!). All of a sudden 3 girls dressed to kill walk in, they sit down at a table in the corner. I talk some more to the boys then decide to go sit with the girls.

Me: “you all look like you need some male energy over here, mind if I sit down”

Chill conversation. It doesn’t spark at any point. I half expect one of my guys to come rolling in and assist with the two other girls, but alas no one gets on the ball.

Kilo the ghost wing where are you!!?

The conversation is laid back, I’m just talking cause I want to be there. Eventually I figure its not going anywhere and I tell them to have a good time as I leave.

Realization #1!

As im sitting there thinking “they are probably not into me” cause I’m not getting the “signs” I need. My mind already leaves the table before I even physically get up. Then it hits me like a brick….some dude later on in the night is not going to give a fuck if he got the signs or not…..hes going to go home with her, and im going to be on the side lines looking at the two of them leave thinking;

“well she wasn’t into me, that guy was better looking/had better game/had more xy or z”

All of a sudden an internal shift gets clicked into the place, I become a bit more aware. Am I actually there to get that girl, or to validate some vague rules in my head I’m not even completely aware of?

Onward into the night!

Get to a club, chat with the boys some more, do some more meaningless approaches just to put in the time. I call them meaningless, but in reality I love approaching girls just for the sake of talking. The intent isn’t always there 100%, but I love to be social!

Meet an old PUA I been seeing in the field for about 2 years now randomly, good guy, has been sticking with it for a while now.

We approach a two set just for the fuck of it, I got to leave soon anyway.

Turns out it’s a hotty and a fatty. I figure I might as well take the fatty as I’m not planning on taking the interaction anywhere.

We chat, and I feel she has a shield up the whole time. I figure she knows somewhere in the back of her mind that I’m just there to occupy her so my friend can talk to her hotter friend.

What eve’ I’m just being social….right?

The other guy moves the girl around, I stay put with mine. The all of a sudden the hotty friend waves her friend over. The fatty tries to make me move, but I just nonchalantly wave her of tell her bye and walk away to say by to my friends.

Realization #2!

Just cause this girl was a fatty I didn’t really give a shit about her. Didn’t even take the time to actually walk over to the table her friend was at and say a proper goodbye. Some of you might be thinking “so what who cares?”…..I care. This means internally I’m still living under some warped socially imposed rule that I should give more respect to conventional beauty then to human beings.

Not cool playa……

Oh well, that’s exactly what I needed to learn. Anyway, walk home closing the book on tonight. Good ass night!
 
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#55
Kilo~

Kilo~

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Thursday 18 June

My throat is fucked so I stayed home and chilled with some buddies instead. We’ll add one day to the celebration.



Friday 19 June – Midsummer


BBQ and houseparty with the old crew. I didn’t enjoy myself.
Why did I not enjoy myself, there was no new girls there. Nothing to help me in my new reality. Also the focus was so heavy on getting drunk and I didn’t want that. It’s cool if you say nah I don’t feel like drinking so much, but having to say it like every ten minutes for ten hours gets on my nerves.

Aside from this there was one really cute girl there that could be picked up. She had all the guys’ eyes on her. I really don’t like to be fighting over a girl with my buddies, I stand down. What’s the point of getting them angry at me over some random ass? I observe the others game it’s really fun, I see it clear as day. This is not invisible game. Talked with the host today, no one closed, no shit.


I don’t know how to deal with the drinking issue. It’s the cornerstone in these guys lives, that and girls are the no1 topics of discussion. I understand, there reality is different from mine. Perhaps it’s time for me to move on.  
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#56
Kilo~

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Saturday 20 June

Ghost town, everything closed all home and hungover from midsummer celebrations.


Meet up with a friend for some value friendship times. We’re taking a long walk though the city, not a soul is out. Relaxing deluxe.

As we’re heading towards home a buddy calls me up. He’s meeting two girls at a bar and wants some company. I tell him not tonight, as we’re talking on the phone I run in to the girls he’s meeting. Well guess I’m tagging along after all.


Inside we meet up with a big mixed crew. Awesome fun times at bar, joking with the girls and talking shit with the guys. Enjoyed it fully, as it should be.


Not missing one day of the celebration. Keep on the grind.
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#57
Zebra

Zebra

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Join Date: 06/01/2007 | Posts: 274

 A new hope!

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#58
Kilo~

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Sunday 21 June

More long ass talks and reflection about life and everything with my main man, brother and mentor Zebra.

I’m slowly starting to find myself again. It’ll take a lifetime to master this skill “live your life” not some silly little “pick up girls in bars” skill, but real growth.



help!
help! i need somebody,
help! not just anybody,
help! you know i need someone, help.

WHEN I WAS YOUNGER, SO MUCH YOUNGER THAN TODAY,
I NEVER NEEDED ANYBODY'S HELP IN ANY WAY.
BUT NOW THESE DAYS ARE GONE, I'M NOT SO SELF ASSURED,
NOW I FIND I'VE CHANGED MY MIND I'VE OPENED UP THE DOORS.


help me if you can, i'm feeling down
and i do appreciate you being around.
help me get my feet back on the ground,
won't you please, please help me.

AND NOW MY LIFE HAS CHANGED IN OH SO MANY WAYS,
MY INDEPENDENCE SEEMS TO VANISH IN THE HAZE.
BUT EV'RY NOW AND THEN I FEEL SO INSECURE,
I KNOW THAT I JUST NEED YOU LIKE I'VE NEVER DONE BEFORE.


help me if you can, i'm feeling down
and i do appreciate you being around.
help me get my feet back on the ground,
won't you please, please help me.

WHEN I WAS YOUNGER, SO MUCH YOUNGER THAN TODAY,
I NEVER NEEDED ANYBODY'S HELP IN ANY WAY.
BUT NOW THESE DAYS ARE GONE, I'M NOT SO SELF ASSURED,
NOW I FIND I'VE CHANGED MY MIND I'VE OPENED UP THE DOORS.


help me if you can, i'm feeling down
and i do appreciate you being round.
help me, get my feet back on the ground,
won't you please,
please help me,
help me,
help me, oh.


PS. The positivity is thru the roof, I’m having so much fun I forget about “talking to girls”.

Fear, anger and hatred leads to the dark side of the force. 
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#59

Danny O

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Join Date: 09/09/2007 | Posts: 36

Use the horse Zebra....
 
Let go Zebra.




May the horse be with you.

Always.
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#60
Zebra

Zebra

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Join Date: 06/01/2007 | Posts: 274

The horse is strong with that one!
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