Soul Bourne

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So what I am nervous about now is the student loan and apartment. The student loan is a have to have as with an apartment. Otherwise Stockholm here I come. It should work out okay, still nervous. Well one thing about the anlysis, no one will have to lose it life over the system I have found. Now girls have started to tag my shit, creeps! Bill Clinton was the world leader where humanity got to experince one year of peace.. And amazing it was. Now Estonia is building it's defence against Russia, oh those estonian strippers pleace goddess keep them safe. I will go to Stockholm the day before my work intervjue and leave the day after passing by the university as well..



I have been further working on improving the paradigm... This is something I can do now, I can build views of reality on all the colors of the Spiral dynamics integral theory.
The boy must die
Well I want to thank Eben Pagan for presenting this in man transformation. The boy must die, you need to kill the boy you were to become a man. Now it is not as dramatically as it sounds but you need to throw away all the things that tie you to your childhood (excluding photos) and enter nomans land and give up the idea that your parents or society should save you or will. Now when what was your parents address you by [name] they talk with the fucking child you just killed. They don’t need to know that. Now here is where you step in to your alter ego, the ideal self.
Yeah, today it happens now I just need to wash of my face and hit the street. Finally, I have removed that over tidy selection process I have had in the mind since I came back to Stockholm, given from Monica. Now it feels, like as any girl who looks healthy and attractive. I have no problems banging leaving her dropped wet in her juices. So this means I am back, I finally have beaked free, now Monica has one door in left, that is the boy Daniel's friends. It is the same here, they are talking to that fucking boy that is no more.
Killing the parents
Well it is not that dramatic as it sounds, you need to declare that the parents of the child you once where are not. As in [name] is not my mother, I am [your characters name] mother. [name] is not my father, I am [your characters name] father.


Something the world needs help to fix.


I am going to take this to the world of academia as soon I come to the school.
Removing the inner voice
To have a foreign spirit comes from knowing someone and not as static information but in as something living… When this with knowing someone that comes with a relationship this creates a mind ghost. This seems to create what is called schizophrenia. That being having someone as for example a parent talking with you inside your head. This is the scar of my parents, now it has healed. Alf with a magisterial exam with a lot of psychology involved, him sharing information with Monica she doing the same as him. Fighting their enemy, freewill. I don’t know if there is a reward in getting the answer to why schizophrenia but it should be on curing mind control right?
Any how this is a big thing for me… I have found a way to heal myself, finally…
 
In mind and in belief people are dead to me just static information, living in flesh but never in me. There is a huge violation on a person’s freedom to force his/her spirit to live on in someone. Especially when roles are involved, because then it starts to become mind control.
 
Monica call’s this trying to create a dialog, to put her spirit in. Alf getting some sense it to me.
 
So to explain more in detail, your memory is stored on a biological hard drive. On a hard drive information are static for things to change it has to be rewritten. The same goes for your biological hard drive, that being memory. So static things cannot be living things. In the “reality” we live in, living things in this reality is part of the ever-changing flux of things. So, goes with the mind, just because a person live in the reality of things does not mean that that person lives in your memory. The mind or memory does not have anything that is needed to sustain life. The information you have of any person is stored on your static memory, your biological hard drive. Imagination is something that is dynamic and alive, it is important to understand that memory and imagination are different things. Just because you utilize the same inner screen/speakers in your mind does not mean that they are the same. Memory is static, imagination is dynamic.
 
Imagination is something that is in you the consciousness control, but if you start seeing someone alive in your memory part of imagination gets involved to create the illusion of that person in your mind. It becomes a sort of “mind” AI entity. The memory of someone drives the imagination to create the illusion of something living inside of the mind. It becomes a feed loop or a running process that if believed in becomes something strengthened and if you interact with it lives on. But as soon as you see it for what it is, static information that you changed and treat as something living. But in reality it has no life it only feed on your energy. Static dead information is just like stone...
 
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So, you are put in front of choices every moment, you have a lot to choose in between it is important to know when it comes to women. Woman wants men who know that they have a lot to choose in between, that makes it so the woman gets to feel special. To have been chosen. Just make sure to choose with your dick. Okay choose with your heart just know that personality is secondary from physical attributes. Personality creates complexity there for it should be on the second place since complexity has bigger chance of becoming faulty. Now, just for you here the rabbit girl in Zootropia happens to have a personality I happen to fancy, does that make her something okay to want to fuck?! Maybe in the company of furverts but that is not the company a real player wants to be in. Now the movie Zootropia is fucking awesome so you can make fun of me however you want but that movie connects on so many levels for me, on society’s problems here in Sweden, on personal shit me identifying with the fox in the story. The social narrative is so fitting.

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When my big brother came out from prison this year he started to ask things that later come to be about half gangster. He told me he had been sitting with him, he had sent half gangster to ruin my shit It is what is called prison justice. As soon half gangster came out he was set to seek me out. That tie's Alf to two different system's going at me. Half gangster is a fucking source of chaos in stockholm, he comes from the more violent criminal city of gothenburg. 

Now I see why dess sent me towards Hells Angels...
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So, I keep on being pushed back in to these situations. Alf had a heart attack he was hospitilized for 7 days in thailand. So when he called me today I answared this is how the social narative of how it wen down from my way of seing it.

Alf flaunting his power from the death bed, aserting his role as the Father. Causing me pain with intent by trying to make the history of my situation be due to lack of competence. Trying to push me in to give up the idea of living in Stockholm. He is just out to create pain for me which is pleasure for him. He started also to twist current situation and to give me a bad conscious. This would have moved over to him giving me instructions but clearly he has no understanding of where his life is being lead.

I think his has something to do with that fucking diamond, it's diameter is like a dollar coin. Color white, well polised.



Chode paradigm.
So first of the parent children relationship in this paradigm works over several generations given one overhead per family. So, authority is put on to us by our parents and society is used in a way of peer pressure to keep the cogs of the market turning sort of speak. All they need to do is to convince the overhead of the family not to engage in questioning how things are, here propaganda and commercials comes in. We as consciousness get to only feed an ego identity bound to repeat our parent’s behavior of feeling pleased to oversee both them self and others when it's them who is the family overhead. This is the remanence of something old. It becomes like a squid in to society feeding people the views the government/market wants you to view the world. It is to build you in to an insecure little shitty consumer uncappable to make your own decisions, just being feed information on how to be, how to look, how to behave and how to vote. In the end, you will be so helpless without the care from society that you hold on to the addictive bond.
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So yeah, this morning my absolut top type of girls came to mind.
Well body wise the all look prety much he same C or D cup, body thin waist half a head shorter then me, strong thies. Black girl the humbeled calm questioning girl. Blond crazy adventurs wild who seeks to be asserted, brown haird girl calm a bit of scardy pant's still tough and autentive the grass straw type of personality.

Why is this important?
Well from being a chooser you need to know what you like. Nothing more.

My memory seems to be crispy fresh at the moment. Trust in Goddess is back. Yes I am ready to move back to Stockholm.

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So, the better slice of a network of these types of system’s. Well after watching war on everyone something came to me more than only me getting the feel of being ripped off with my toy gone to the bedroom routine and the philosophy of being god and all else being an illusion. Then I felt that RSD should have felt ripped off on the lording by the mosque. Then later in to the movie I have a clear image of what to do. But first now it is time to clean up the blog from the system note’s. I am now confident things will go well from here.

This tie’s to the message to Azra, KM mother
To have a foreign spirit comes from knowing someone and not as static information but in as something living… When this with knowing someone that comes with a relationship this creates a mind ghost. This seems to create what is called schizophrenia. That being having someone as for example a parent talking with you inside your head. This is the scar of my parents, now it has healed. Dad with a magisterial exam with a lot of psychology involved, him sharing information with Mom she doing the same as him. Fighting their enemy, freewill. I don’t know if there is a reward in getting the answer to why schizophrenia but it should be on curing mind control right?
Any how this is a big thing for me… I have found a way to heal myself, finally…


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So that was a big one. All needed data finally collected 3 year's science needed to come new reasearch to me have the data needed proof of what whent down. I need to collect it togheter a bit better with the forigin spirit. But with that last post a tear came as I walked home! Not a day have passed by of me not thinking about this moment other then with Mo.

On other news, Swdish infrastructure is crumbling swidish people are still loyal to sweden no reall risk of a revuloution at the moment.

The less attractive girls give me the look in the eyes, down to the feet thing. That being my poister is clearly rocking it.



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MOSCOW On Wednesday voted in favor of the Russian parliament, the Duma, a law that makes domestic violence should be counted as an "administrative offense" rather than a criminal act, whether the violence is not made more than once during the course of a year. 368 MPs voted for the bill, the MPs voted against it and one abstained.

As it is today, those who abuse their partners or their children in Russia sentenced to imprisonment for up to two years. The background is a law that President Vladimir Putin wrote in the summer of 2016. The Act means that those guilty of violence in close relationships is punished more severely than those who abuse such as a neighbor or any other person, which has created an outcry among many conservatives Politician.
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So, I have been further on describing how this works and what happend.

So yesterday I got put thru a management sitting with Monica. Since I knew that I would just read thru my paradigm I mustered thru. It was what I would call instruction descripting management sitting. Monica went thru a tight stringed road on how to think and do as a repeating process of forcing in a cognitive pattern. It felt terrible during still a huge amount of anxiety, anger and cognitive dissonance came to be. Freedom is after all my highest value. Now as a got rid of that running process by reading thru the new paradigm. As I look back this is something I have battling bigger part of my life. Monica calls these dialogs building structures these are not dialogs these are her telling me what do, think and feel. It is her way of taking control, she like to see people as these puppets in the sims or dolls that she plays with. Alf has the exact same way of viewing things I have even found him in the doll cabinet once, while his assistants asked him if he had big plans.
This story I had written by a couple days ago. It fictive I know but it has it’s value in it’s context to give you an understanding of what’s going on.
I have been watching Star Wars, I was watching and questioning what the Imperial troops are fighting for. What is getting a imperial trooper out of the bed in the morning. What would give a imperial trooper a sense of motivation to work on. The can only be living on other by instruction from there peers. The same by these Japanese that die of work, what could a Japanese dream of going to bed other than to have catched up.  A life living out on instruction, a life by work only, live by the work DIE by the work.
What would happen if they got sometime off? Would they have someone instructing them on how to have fun to? Where is the voice of my boss and instructor that I used to have the Imperial trooper ask himself? The rebel sitting by his side says to him: If I was him I would instruct you to kill him.
-          Well your not him!
-          How do you know?  Imagen if I was. The rebel says.
Feeling content with getting the instruction imagen if he was the Imperial trooper soon started to have instruction to kill himself. Now the tug of war inside the Imperial trooper. No I am of great use the trooper argues. Not knowing that if he just would start to do on own freewill rather on his vacation rather just to keep on being under someone else instruction even to ask for it to be so.
Fascist states are states where the civil population only live on instruction, from everyday doing to work from birth to death. The scary thing that is happening now is that society in is whole has a population asking for instructions and there are instructions that comes from bad people out there.
 
Now Monica had contact with my classmates telling them to carry out instructions from her in this way in exchange of money. That way I could not finish my university exam last time.
This was also used by that fucking NAZI Göran Runfelt on me while I tried to make him change behavior to make him see what he had done wrong, while we were sitting in the room called ‘lekis’. Causing something horrible to happen between me and Iva.



Animal studies have shown that stimulating the amygdala appears to increase both sexual and aggressive behavior. Likewise, studies using brain lesions have shown that harm to the amygdala may produce the opposite effect. Thus, it appears that this part of the brain may play a role in the display and modulation of aggression.

The solution to all this is the paradigm.
https://drive.google.com/open?id=0Bz87aO4ChZ3SMGQzTGUtUS1EQ0U


 
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So yesterday I got put thru a management sitting with Monica. Since I knew that I would just read thru my paradigm I mustered thru. It was what I would call instruction descripting management sitting. Monica went thru a tight stringed road on how to think and do as a repeating process of forcing in a cognitive pattern. It felt terrible during still, freedom is after all my highest value. Now as a got rid of that running process by reading thru the new paradigm pain came in to the chest it lasted for about 1 hour.This story I had written a couple a days ago came to mind after that:

I have been watching Star Wars, I was watching and questioning what the Imperial troops are fighting for. What is getting a imperial trooper out of the bed in the morning. What would give a imperial trooper a sense of motivation to work on. The can only be living on other by instruction from there peers. The same by these Japanese that die of work, what could a Japanese dream of going to bed other than to have catched up.  A life living out on instruction, a life by work only, live by the work DIE by the work.
What would happen if they got sometime off? Would they have someone instructing them on how to have fun to? Where is the voice of my boss and instructor that I used to have the Imperial trooper ask himself? The rebel sitting by his side says to him: If I was him I would instruct you to kill him.
-          Well your not him!
-          How do you know?  Imagen if I was. The rebel says.
Feeling content with getting the instruction imagen if he was the Imperial trooper soon started to have instruction to kill himself. Now the tug of war inside the Imperial trooper. No I am of great use the trooper argues. Not knowing that if he just would start to do on own freewill rather on his vacation rather just to keep on being under someone else instruction even to ask for it to be so.
 
Fascist states are states where the civil population only live on instruction, from everyday doing to work from birth to death. The scary thing that is happening now is that society in is whole has a population asking for instructions and there are instructions that comes from bad people out there. We are in need of free soul’s and freethinkers not soul’s that askes of getting trapped by their minds.

Now this have a personal connection to way back:


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So my personal story is just shows a small slice of several involved system’s. Now that happens to be the better slice of the cake since it is big part academia. Sweden is region of the earth that Puttler can’t be allowed to take, he is planning his pipeline thru Sweden to empty the north pole of it’s resources. So here is a place to work from to create something new, the system hurts both sides only the sadist get full pleasure from it. Now that is why there is a use for all this, a meaning can be created. From here I don’t need to publish anything public anymore. My butt feels safe at the moment.

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