Met a girl I'd been talking to for a while. I think its cool how in the past few weeks I've met a few girls and just got so much more comfortable. Without going into too many details we met up normally I would have been nervous. I wasnt at all really. Walked in, hugs, kisses right away, touching, being loud and cool, made her laugh and be comfortable. Pretty big change from me just a few weeks ago.

So later we're about to fuck and to be honest I'm still having performance anxiety. My boners going up and down basically just a semi even while getting head. I managed to finger her and pump a few times missionary so my penis has now officially been inside a VJJ which is a monkey off my back. Also cummed in her mouth 3x which felt unreal amazing like I'm on cloud 9 right now still. But yeah I was having performance problems still I think its just nervous and I hope by being with more girls its something I'll just get over. I remember 26 from "the game" reading somewhere he couldnt cum in a girl for like a year after he first got laid because of nerves. I'd rather not jump immediately down the viagra route. I know I'm not impotent because I can jerk off and blow a load easily and I get random boners all the time..its just nerves I think. I'm gonna quit watching porn and jerking off though.

Mmm I feel so happy like a big weight has been lifted. Yet I dont feel.....THAT different either. Idk.