Hey Man, It's been a long time! I haven't seeen you in months!
(It feels like I am seeing an old friend right now!)

I am ecstatic to be writing a blog entry once again!

I fell off the face of the earth these last months. I went to a dark place.

Right now I am really debating whether to share with you guys the "FULL STORY", but I have to for the sake of everyone and all the parties involved

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Update:

In October my family split up and my Mom moved out to Huntington Beach, my Girlfriend of 2 years broke up with me, I lost my job with the Valet company I was with.

This caused my under-lying addictive past to flare up..... that's all I will say about that subject. Think of your deepest and darkest fears about drugs.......That's what it has been...... Hell

From watching friends almost overdose..... to losing all my money.... Let's just say it was Hell....

I still have nightmares about those days. Seriously.....

I'll make this a short but definitely a fuckin' sweet entry.....

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Now that you are up to speed I just want to say. I have lost some time.... but it's not the end of the world.

I recently went back to Church @ Calvery Chapel and the first sermon was about "Your place in this world" and how "Even though you have made mistakes and have been brought back or DOWN to a certain level",

GOD PUT YOU THERE, and GOD KNOWS HOW TO GUIDE YOU OUT!

So I obviously started to re-evaluate my life and asked for some guidance.

Luckily, I had not gone too-deep or lost too much time... I just lost 2 months from OCT-DEC.....

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I learned:

Don't forget that everything you have worked hard for can literally be lost in a few days or weeks. You are not immune to the bad things out there.

Even though I lost a few months, at least I didn't lose a lifetime..... Some people are twice my age making the same mistakes. I look at myself as lucky.... to make these realizations at the age of 24.

You need a Higher Power.

You need to treat yourself nicely. Be your own best-friend and do not get too down on yourself when you make mistakes.

The old addage " You are the sum of the 5 closest people to you in your life". is true. So i deleted all the people I didn't see making my life any better. It has helped me tremendously.

I had lost track of my true self.

I was juggling so many 8's and 9's, that i got sloppy. My girlfriends found out about each other and it ultimately ruined everything for me.  My drug use and stress caused me to be a weak man. I ditched all my life-skills and relied on a substance.... which ultimately failed me in the end. Because i was relying on external circumstances to fuel my confidence.

Anything is better than an ADDICTION! PERIOD!

I have to have massive alone time mixed with massive amounts of people time. Equal Balance.

GOING TO START GAMING AGAIN!
GOING TO START WRITING BLOGS AGAIN CONSISTENTLY
GOING TO REALLY START TO IMPROVE ON MY INTERMEDIATE SKILLS AND TAKE SHIT TO THE NEXT LEVEL!
GOING TO SURRENDER MYSELF TO BAD SHIT THAT WAS HOLDING ME BACK AND TAKE PROACTIVE STEPS TO ACCOMPLISH A HIGHER LEVEL OF ACTION AND A BETTER ME!

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I'll end with a little story..... I am sitting on the internet in a coffee shop right now.....

I saw her, She saw me.....

I thought.... " She probably wouldn't want to talk... she probably...." Wait! no " I stepped forward and approached her before those shitty thoughts could run through my head!

" Hey what are you studying?!"
Her- "The Bible"
" Oh cool, is it for a class or some kind of personal thing?"
Her- "I'm a Christian, I just love to study and understand the Bible."

I thought to myself... "Oh man, red flag....... 'Bible Thumper'..... LOL".  But I pressed on! To make myself feel that feeling of uncomfortable silence and making action towards the girl, with no outcome involved!

I am proud of myself! I didn't hesitate, I just acted!
For that, I am energized and I feel the fire being lit again!

Point being: I am energized and fuckin' jazzed to be starting the next chapter of JAKE WETZEL THE ADVENTURER!

I am taking action! I am happy being alone! I am happy to be learning! I can't wait to get blown out and to start acting like the "FUCKING MAN" in the moment!

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This is Jake signing offf.............

Don't let the petty set-backs get you down. God has put you where you are for a reason. He has led you there and he can show you the way out! That's a spiritual fact! I am living it right now!

I feel great to be back and I cannot wait for the next time we talk!

-JakeWetz