I was out with my wing-I will call Mr. W- and his friend. Anyways, this dude is really cool. I have known him for maybe for three weeks and in my opinion any chick that doesn't want him is a fucking dump ass. Anyways, we had a horrible night and at the end of the night we were analyzing.
Mr. W said that the problem is congrancy and I agreed with him. He went on saying that each girl likes a specific type of guy and that it is hard to change your personality the minute that you started talking to them. That made me have a huge epiphany on the way back home. There is a congrancy issue because you are not being real. You are justifying yourself and trying to fit into her category. Your going from Party dude to chill guy to whatever guy. Your becoming forced into the girls standards and she is screening you. It becomes a fucking job interview. She has the power in the interaction and can turn it off when she wants.
THIS TAKES GAME TO A WHOLE NEW LEVEL!!!!!!!
If you don't try to fit into her world and get her to fit into your world, she will be the one that will be afraid of getting rejected. You have the power. Ever since I started this, I have been all about dominance. My game has been physical and I have been trying to become a "MAN". However, in my own head, I was acting like a boy. I was trying to fit into the girls reality. I wasn't creating my own. You get these concepts off the DVDs or the articles but you never truly figure them out until you see them in the field.
This created a new question in my head. WHO THE FUCK AM I? That is something that I need to figure out before I can bring anyone into my reality. I have been going through identity crises, one after another ever since I started this game and now I see why. It is because this game makes you discover who you are and what your made of.
So who is Owen?
-I am a man, and I like sex. I am not ashamed of it and I don't care if feminists think its bad or wrong.
- I like helping people. That is why I stick around and talk to people that others ignore and that is why I want to become a doctor.
-I am a protector. I won't get into fights or start them but if you fuck with my crew, I will fuck you up.
-I am cheap and in love with money. I can never have enough of it. It is social conditioning but I like dressing up. I like the nice clothes and I like being sure of my future. I don't do it for girls and I realized that I don't need it for them but I still love it.
-I love working out. I love lifting heavy weights. the feeling that you get when blood rushes out of your head and your about to fall down but you keep going because you just love having that control over your body.
- I like to be in control. I like to have options. In my career, in women and in people i meet. It is part of who I am.
- I see the irony in things and I don't confirm to it. I see what advertising does. I see what university does. Trying to get us to fit into little blocks. Making us stats. I am not going to confirm to it and if you feel like I am insulting your being, then fuck you.
- I don't make apologies for who I am. I like big tits. I like pron. I like sex. I like books. I like reading. I like working out. I don't drink. I don't have to like what anyone else likes but if you like what I like then cool.
-I don't judge people. I don't care if you have three kids and your 19 years old. It is life. I came in naked and I am not going to be able to take any of it to my grave so why even bother?
-I think life is an amazing gift. I think that every emotion and every ounce of us is a miracle. Just the fact that random pieces of organic molecules made people makes me realize that life is an amazing gift. I am here to pass my DNA but I am going to live it to the fullest.
- I don't have to confirm to a religion or what my family want me to do. I will do my duty to them because I am against short changing those who do good to you but I don't have to form my life around them.
- I do what I say I am going to do. It doesn't matter how uncomfortable it is.
- I got high value and if you earn my friendship, it is unconditional. I don't kick the chode out of the group because I feel bad for him. I have felt that disrespect and I won't confirm to it. PUA community can tell me it is wrong and it is cool. I still won't do it. Getting laid is only worth so much. My true nature is going to come through either way and those girls will want me.
-I like reading and science and school. Call me nerd. Whatever.
Anyways, just righting that down was liberating. I feel free. When I am gaming tomorrow, I won't hid anything and I won't do it ever again. Try it and you will see what I mean.