Lifestyle Redux

I have a digital video camera, I have a mic/ wire thing... Anyone have any tips?

- Surround yourself with women (GET OFF THIS WEBSITE)
- Try to remain as PRESENT as possible
- if you don't feel like talking, don't. If you do, talk about what you wanna talk about
- Make good eye contact. It's not a war to see who will flinch first. It's you and her seeing if you can bond.
- have OTHER THINGS TO DO THAN WORRY ABOUT PICKING UP CHICKS

One of my biggest sticking points was developing rapport.

I was so caught up in being Mr. I'm awesome why can't you see that?!

Johnny Soporno cleared this problem up for me with that simple quote; "Being interesting means being interested."

I began digging deeper in my interactions. What happened was two fold.

1) I became %100 more selective about the girls I would become romantic with. After scraping the surface, I often discovered that the girl was ill-suited to be my mate. Either she was not mature, not self reliant in any degree or had very little sense of who she was. 

2) The girls I was romantic really started to shine in my eyes. Not only were we physically connecting, but I actually began to look up to them in certain ways. There's something special about a woman you can admire, learn from and fuck the brains out of.

So yeah, my relationships began to blossom. Even my social life got drastically better.



Cheers

Jesse

In the battle between building a lifestyle and always seeking, who wins?

I went out to the bars and clubs for ninety days in a row. Sober. I learned a lot during that time. the most important things I learned were.

- Going to the club can be ridiculously fun
- I enjoy going alone as much or more than going with others
- HOLDING eye contact is important
- Gaining momentum is a good TOOL to have, but it's only a tool... for when things are broken

Then I did a workshop with Johnny Soporno. He was referenced in the game, and is well respected in the community. The most important lessons I learned were:

- play only by the rules that apply to you
- as a polyamorist, encouraging your partner to enjoy intimate relations with others is crucial.
- as a polyamorist, emphasize to your lovers and playmates that when they encounter another lover or playmate of yours that they play nice.
- you can choose to be happy for no other reason than being happy
- BE OPEN TO ALL OUTCOMES AND MARRIED TO NONE

After that I read a couple of books

The Tao Te Ching
The Art of War

I also enjoyed talks by 

Eckhart Tolle
Hypnotica
Steve P

I am the most fulfilled I've ever been in my life. I am surrounded by beautiful women who I like, make-love to and respect. I have an amazing primary girlfriend who I love. New women appear in my life but the CHRONIC-SEEKING DISORDER is no longer there. *Currently living abundantly*

Cheers guys.

Hey guys!

   For the guys who were following my stuff, I'm sorry i havn't been on here in a while.

   I completed  the ninety day challenge, then followed it with a four day workshop with johnny Soporno. If you want guidance, check him out.

   I've learned so much, and want to share it all. If you'd like to reach me, email me at therealjessewatson@gmail.com

   I'll be happy to share my insights on a one to one basis.

  Anyways, taking a break from the internet for the next 74 days. I may post a vlog here and there.

Anyways, see ya in 74 days!

_ Jesse

Hey guys.

 I've been meaning to post something for the past week, but have been really busy. Well, kinda. I havn't really been sure what to write.

     this whole adventure has been a true rollercoaster. I've already learned so much, but it has come at a price. I hadn't really prepared for that part. For that reason I have been suffering a little bit. When you are growing there will always be a little pain, but this is a little different.

     When I started this adventure, I had a couple ideas about what would happen. I thought i'd start off really good, and that the ninety days would be a cake-walk. Muth-fucking-busted. I did not pick up every night. FAR FROM IT. I thought I'd experience what it is like to be a complete asshole. TRUE.  I have isolated myself from some of the most important people in my life. Furthr more i have lied, cheated and stolen from people who didn't deserve it. I thought I'd learn how to use a condom effectively. Also true. Thank-fucking-god. I thought I'd get better at sex. Yes. Most definitely. You can't just go out EVERY NIGHT and BEAST and not get good at being physical... or at least okay.. like not retarded. I thought I'd at least lay one true nine or ten... Not yet. Soon though. I thought I'd become better as a person. Well...

    I have become a better person i guess. i've done some bad things, but at least i know more about myself. I'm using the knowledge about myself to take my shit to the next level. Learning how to respect myself and my life is the main course right now. It's a basic concept that i don't quite get yet.

     So for the hardcores who want to know, not counting the lays in the past, just the ones over the past 78 nights, the answer is ten. The ninety days aren't up yet, but that's what I'm at so far.

      I've been broken down spiritually, mentally, financially, and physically. I've watched some of my greatest friendships, relationships and family connections break down in front of my eyes. Not because of game. I have many small flaws, and a couple glaringly huge ones. Game has helped me see what those are. It's time to repair some damage.

       Guys that's all I've got for this one. I'll probably throw another one up at day ninety. not sure if I want to actually continue going out for a full year or not... But it seems likely. As tired as i have been. As lonely, sad and angry as I've been, I do it for the fun. Can't deny that I've learned a lot too

      The link is a vid of me and my buddy duking it out on a trampoline. Enjoy!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gWP-icNMY4g&context=C49df9efADvjVQa1PpcFOKqMHQRu-WOyb4avcqUt783s-MIsHFwfw=

Hey...

      emotionally and physically destroyed. More details later.

Stills alive.

Jesse

Hey guys,

     last night was a lot of fun. Just one big adventure.

     Arrived at the night owl at like 12. It was kinda dead. Saw a girl at the door I liked, but she pissed me off a while back so I ignored her. Ordered a beer and chilled for a few. then outta nowhere this guy taps me on the back. i turn around and it's my buddy Alex!

    Alex is a writer and he had just sold a script for a movie coming out in April! It's going to be fucking excellent. I wasn't planning on drinking. him having such a great success was cause for a celebration... And so the drinking began.

    He offered me a cigarette. At first i refused. Then I caved. Figured I was already spending way too much money I might as well break another rule.

    We shoot the shit as we hop from bar to bar. I open sets along the way. He enjoys watching it happen. Momentum building. Then I share one of my stories with him.

    I share the one about the crazy girl who wouldn't get out of my house. Her and I got into a heated argument. I threw her school bag and bottle of vodka out of my place. she chased after the items and i locked the door behind her. This was all at 5 or six am, about a week back.

    Low and behold, at the end of our night who should we see? crazy girl. we were just walking to grab a slice of pizza when I hear her shout my name. She's with another dood. I ignore them. About a few minutes later she comes waltzing up... She's actually kinda pretty, so in my drunken state i had a hard time being mad. Plus I got an erection as soon as she hugged me... I have a problem lol.

    She relates the story i had told Alex, word for word. Alex and i think it's hilarious.

    We grab piizza, then she invites both Alex and I back to her place. She apparently has a hot-tub and beers. We didn't think twice.

    We get there and the hot-tub room is locked.. fuck. So up to her apartment we go.

    In her apartment we drink, shoot the shit and chill. In the video theere are a couple clips with her talking. My favorite part is where she's talking about how she's been with a lot of guys... why the fuck am I still attracted to this girl... I legit have a hard time hating her even after all the shit she's put me through. It's love.

    Anyways, last night was hilarious. seeing Alex and then bumping into crazy girl (and subsequently having sex five times) were complete plot twists. M Night shamalan shit. Never saw it coming. tonight will more than likely be filled with more drunken hilarity. hopefully I'll have a camera man so as to record some infield footage. for now, I'll have to make due.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RPXM57Yoz1c&feature=youtu.be

    Did my best at editing this video. There were a lot of clips last night. it won't really make too much sense... I only had a half hour to edit and write this blog.

    Enjoy!

The-fuck's up buttercup!


      Pulled, which was refreshing. All the way back to her place. Fucking excellent. Not really attracted to her necessarily. I mean, she was cute, soft skin, gave me an erection when we were dry humping on her bed... but I'm thinking that, as a rule, I'd like to sleep with the girls I have a real attraction for. The eights nines and tens if you will.

     I like the rating system because it's a way to convey how attracted I am to a girl. Not how society would view her. How I view her.

    Anyways, today I was daygaming and nightgaming lol. I really don't care a lot about the individual approaches themselves. I mean some go well, and some go poorly. what I really like is gaining momentum and having a lot of fun along the way. 

    Today's little vid is my first ever edited movie!! Wow, if you've been reading my shit, expect more of these. Especially with some infield footage thrown in. They'll also be better quality as I learn more about the editing software. This vid is more of an experiment than anything. Clips from a vlog I recorded earlier plus clips from a barbeque I was at today. Then one of me in the house-coat of the girl I pulled AT HER HOUSE!!! Just having a lot of fun.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mDNZtXIp568&feature=youtu.be

     Anyways, it's six in the morning. Uploading this vid and calling it a night.

Thanks for watching and reading. Hope you enjoyed it!

Sup guys.

      With my new criterea for success regarding approaches, I've put a lot more pressure on myself. I really do love the game, so it feels right to really push myself. As I approach, and learn, my flaws come to the forefront. Confronting these flaws is the hard part.

      The difficulty usually comes in the form of my ego trying to protect itself. Everyday, I learn more about the person that I am. some of the things I don't like. So my mind tries not to pay attention to those details. going out, working on my habits and developing as a person everyday makes it hard for my mind to ignore the harsher realities... which is the goal I guess.

      Opened three sets yesterday which were mildly succesful. I showed intent, went for physical rapport and stayed in longer than I usually would've during the day. Also, I didn't really have a lot of momentum on my side, so that was something to contest as well.

     I've been undereating lately because I'm so broke. that is going to change though. Not eating is seriously bullshit. It fucks with everything in my life. I get so angry. I lose my temper more often. I hurt people who are nice to me... It's just bad. which is why I can't wait to increase my income.

     Staying on top of my habits has been a little difficult lately. I've done a pretty good job at sticking with them. However, fighting the temptations can be super hard sometimes.

     Essentially what I want out of all of this is positive lifestyle development.


Anyways, that's it for this one.


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Goals and habits

no masturbation
no watching porn
vitamin and omega pill each day
meditate everyday
read something worth reading everyday
draw everyday
blog every day
excersize for a half hour everyday
(new one that I'll try) Translate a paragraph of french a day
double my income
plan a day in advance
resolve my financial issues
resolve my familial issues
write down my goals every day
3-5 full on approaches per day
no smoking
limit myself to a half hour of mindless surfing
hold myself accoutable every day in a vlog