Love Machine

Awesome F
 
Rattled my Cage.

What I hate more than anything is when people presume to tell you ‘How you can’t do something’ Like they know what you can and can’t do. And how dare they think they have the right to comment on your mental output. I mention this because last night I was out with work for drinks normally I am normally cool with this type of social situation but for some reason I was off today. Must be due to my lack of over arching direction something I am deciding on now. Back to the Story,

In a conversation with a female work mate I mentioned my happiness when another member walks in the room. I said ‘My world lights up and it’s like she bring the sunshine’ an obvious mention that she is happy. The girl returned with ‘not being funny but she’s out of your league’ (Words cannot contain how anger, cause if I wanted to I would have) like she know what league I am in. It’s like she could smell blood. Before this a friend commented on my dress, in his difference I was wearing a Pink shirt under a green jumper. Anyway it was not meant in jest it was a put down. Like I am not old enough to be in there gang. I was on the back foot, I was deflecting everything it was wizardry but I could feel the state being forced. This ended with a dig at my current girlfriend who I have decided to get back with against the opinions of others. This whet on and then turned to them ganging on while I stupidly say in the corner (why?? Learned this lesson) deflecting blame. I got out of there and went to the toilet, got back in a chilled state and tried to let it go. The 1st thing I learned about game is don’t game where you work. Yes I did Twice……..

I came back to the Bar and said high to a girl who just started we have been flirting and it was systems as normal in fact I was so aware of the sexual honest we just came out and said it. It was then, everyone kept coming over and making comments and knowing looks. Like some spectators it all felt very negative very strange. (Maybe a lake of control on there part). During this bar interaction she ordered a drink then left for the toilet (*for ages) I think Expecting me to pay Like I would have. O no. However I could not just leave her drinks there. Another work girl cam e up who I have had dealing with to ask what was going on, and Why I went round to her house. Ect. Interview style and obviously Jealous bless her.

This felt better after all this I fell I don’t stand up for myself I deflect and steer to get what I want AVIODING confrontation. I know what my next challenge is. Fucking bitches
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William-h-bonney

William-h-bonney

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Join Date: 05/04/2011 | Posts: 823

What some chode thinks of you is irrelevant as you know. Yeah I wouldn't shit were I work bro but if your gonna make it a steamer. 100% or nothing you half heartedness will give others room to mock you. Act through your own intensions. Peace
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Awesome F

Awesome F

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Join Date: 10/28/2010 | Posts: 309

 I needed to hear that, Half stepping is dangerouse and weak. I should have just have just said 'I do want I want' and laughted at her misguided attack. I sad thing is I liked her. O well another one on my don't trust list. Getting
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