I have been involved in this community atleast 2 years now - April 7th, 2013, however was a bad (but good) night. I saw the girl I brought home and was talking to get with one of these guys I know from school. So this girl graduated last semester. Don't necessarily consider this guy a friend and never did. But I smoked up this guy, drove to the place in my ride, and he drank my alcohol I bought.
Yes he knew that I have been talking to this girl, on top of that the other 3 guys I drove with me was too much of a "put the girl on a pedestal" mindset to say anything to him. I told the guy via text and also verbally. I understand he was drunk, he was also high but it shows the power of a good wingman here as well.
I have decided it's time to go Solo.
Also shows why "I" need to be good at this shit. I kinda feel bad saying this, but I am not good with girls. I am not even comfortable in my own skin sometimes in general.
As fas as this situation I am angry, I feel small, I feel many feelings much of which are bad...but I needed this. Fuck Bitches! Abundance....she can screw him and play him....I know what will happen. But in reality I am needy and reactive. I need to work on myself.
My ego's hurt, I feel disrespected. I just want to be so good that I can teach. I have had it....just want to get this area of my life handled. I am tired of being alone.
It's not the girl getting with the guy (William - the guy) that bothers me, I mean she is free to do whatever. It's that it's mad disrespect to get with my friend(s), the guy who came with me right infront of me while I am seeing all this.
TIME TO GET TO WORK.
Trial and Error I guess. I am trying really hard at pickup - I have a lot of work to do. But I promise even if I die, even if it takes me everything I got this, I will get good at Pick Up. I am tired and sick of abandonment and feeling low. I am tired of feeling sorry for myself.
I just don't care.....just wanna be good. Not cuz of the girl...but because I feel weak and helpless. I will do anything......at all.