6pac's Blog
Just got back from the mall. All angry and super emotional, angry at myself, angry at the world, I don't know where my anger is directed really, but I want to kick something, want to scream and bang my head against the wall. This is fucking frustrating. This motherfucker, I failed to approach, not a single girl.
One girl was eating me alive with her eyes, smiling, turned back to look at me, I went to the fucking toilet. I searched for her when I took a piss. Way to go. Like a sucker.
Lots of cuties, I didn't talk to anyone. This sucks. Plain and honest, I suck. I want to kill myself and cry. Well not really, I don't really. I want to live. But fuck it, I don't know what to do with myself. Whenever I see an attractive girl I want to approach, I go into my head and don't know what to do. Wrong, I know wehat to do, but I don't do it, I look for reasons not to do it. I don't trust myself and don't follow my natural instinct.
That is wrong. This shit is important. I have to handle this. It's hard, after crying and beating myself I calmed down, but it's still hard. Especially for a spoiled brat like me. This is ridiculous.
I learn nothing. Sucker shit.
With a cold nose, headache and aching muscles, I feel like ass today. What's interesting, I've forgotten all of that while "in field". I felt good, self-conscious but good. Have to push it.
Wipe your tears and blow your nose motherfucker. Get yourself together.
One girl was eating me alive with her eyes, smiling, turned back to look at me, I went to the fucking toilet. I searched for her when I took a piss. Way to go. Like a sucker.
Lots of cuties, I didn't talk to anyone. This sucks. Plain and honest, I suck. I want to kill myself and cry. Well not really, I don't really. I want to live. But fuck it, I don't know what to do with myself. Whenever I see an attractive girl I want to approach, I go into my head and don't know what to do. Wrong, I know wehat to do, but I don't do it, I look for reasons not to do it. I don't trust myself and don't follow my natural instinct.
That is wrong. This shit is important. I have to handle this. It's hard, after crying and beating myself I calmed down, but it's still hard. Especially for a spoiled brat like me. This is ridiculous.
I learn nothing. Sucker shit.
With a cold nose, headache and aching muscles, I feel like ass today. What's interesting, I've forgotten all of that while "in field". I felt good, self-conscious but good. Have to push it.
Wipe your tears and blow your nose motherfucker. Get yourself together.
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